[destinedforthewest]

You can’t love someone’s mental illness away.

[toosmallortootall]

#this is one of the hardest things to learn#and one of the most painful things to accept#you can’t love someone’s mental illness away#but you can love them through it and with it#and you can love them on bad days and good days and nothing days and everything days#and that’s more important really

[etherealsolacerva]

There was a lot of wind the other day. I walked outside and stood there for a good minute or two and let it wash over me.

I'm really having a hard time processing losing Alan and I can't tell you why,

But I stood there. Everything was silent. I gave it another minute and I thought to myself  'If you're still there, give me a sign'

A small gust of wind hit me. I smiled and then the wind just kept coming. It was so cold but I embraced it, I loved it.

I was actually crying because I felt like I could feel his presence. I've interacted with ghosts and passed loved ones before and I know I felt something.

The ones we love never really leave us.

[missingalanrickman]

This is amazing! 😭

[bicyclealpaca]

[missingalanrickman]

I don't know why, but when I was in the shower yesterday I had this vivid image of Alan and Rima dancing together to Thinking Outloud by Ed Sheeran

It was so sweet, I was happy all day after that.

[missingalanrickman]

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I had a dream last night that I went back in time, did things differently with my life and was able to talk to Alan and let him know how much he means to me.

I think somehow this was a sign given by Alan himself that his fans need somewhere to talk about him.

Whether that be to grieve and maybe gain some closure. To talk about how he's helped change their lives for the better, or even just a place to ask for short one shots about him to help you through a tough time.

I know for me, I'm still not over him. Hopefully together we can make new friends, new memories and keep his memory alive.

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