Welcome to my Little Corner

I am a 18 year old journalist in training and I was given the name Lyndsay at birth.Here you will find random stuff ranging from my school newspaper articals and college English papers, to random pictures that I find hilarious or simply love! One thing is for sure. All but one item I have either made myself, found myself, wrote myself, or put together myself. I do not reblog (reblogging is for my Hunger Games blog, cinnaliciousflame.tumblr.com). I am also a total Harry Potter nerd, walking The Hunger Games encyclopedia, bookworm, photoshop and Sims addict, and have the a wild and crazy but oh so very fun personality with the most random wardrobe and socks that never match. I love lots of color, even though I'm not exactly the happy rainbows and unicorns type of person. I tend to be very negative and find it hard to see the bright side of a dark situation. I always bring a little piece of myself into everything I write. I am my worst critic and it takes me forever to write anything because I edit it over a hundred times in my head before I actually write it. Writing has always been my passion, and one day I hope it will take me far. I know that I will probably never be able to touch J.K. Rowling, lets face it - no one can, but I still hope someday I can touch people like she has touched so many with words. One more thing... 247475

[misslynds]

Can someone tell me the exact moment I became a human pinching bag... So I can go back to that time and punch myself in the face for being so stupid...

[misslynds]

I just want a friend... Is that so much to ask?...

I don't want the boyfriend, because it's just not the same... 

I want a girl to call my best friend... I want someone I can hug and cry on for hours without worrying that she will walk away... I need someone that needs me too...

I always said I was happier alone... But I lied... I need someone...

I can't do this...

College ruined everything...

I miss the life I had...

[misslynds]

I didn't know it was possible to feel so betrayed by someone you put everything and more into...

Well... I do now...

Thanks a lot, bitch...

These are the LAST tears you will ever get out of me.

[misslynds]

I don't understand how he puts up with me. =P

[misslynds]

This sure is how I talk to my boyfriend. Can you feel the love?

[misslynds]

Because that specific sting makes everything else go away...

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PLEASE!!!!!!

[misslynds]

Thinking about you... Take the opportunity... It's an easy out... Say thank you...

[misslynds]

cornucopia-full-of-cellos replied to your post: I just don't know anymore...

Well you know that I LOVE YOU!!!!

I LOVE YOU TOO, VINCENT!

kumogasukidesu replied to your post: I just don't know anymore...

What don’t you know anymore? Oh, and I know I love you more than vincent does!!!! <3

No you don't. You can't love me more than me in boy form loves me. Not possible. 

[misslynds]

I just don't know anymore...

[misslynds]

I HATE that there is still proof of the WORST time of my life in other peoples possession...

It makes me want to drop dead...

[misslynds]

I don't know anymore...

You never think you want something so bad until it smacks you in the face. Or in my case. In a dream. No. It's not ideal. And it's stupid. Especially right now. But I just don't know. It's such a weird feeling... I can't tell anyone about it because they will look at me like I have lost ALL my marbles... I feel alone. And then there is the fact that I have always chosen the wrong one but in my dreams they are so perfect. But this time. It's the complete opposite. The dreams always end badly and he always walks away. Is it a good sign? I don't know. I don't know anymore... I just want to disappear. And take my madness with me. And I know you're reading this. You know who you are... And you will never understand.

[misslynds]

I don't like this feeling...

It needs to go away. I need to know...

[misslynds]

There is nothing I want more than to get out of here... In all honesty I don't want to start college in a couple weeks... Instead I want to pick up and disapear... I want to fade until I am gone, and I know that won't take long. I want to drive until I find a town where no one will find me. I want to disconnect my phone and use a fake name. I want to foget who I am right now and make someone completely new. I want to remeber what it feels like to be truely happy and stress free... Get away from all the people... All the work... All aspects of this life... I want to vanish... And no one will ever find me...

[misslynds]

When you lose a best friend and keep going over senarios in your head, wondering where you went wrong... I know it's not all my fault. She is to blame as well. But I just don't understand and that is all I want. I want a real reason. I want to know what I said or did. And I know this sounds selfish, but I seriously do not see what I did wrong. She was the one that chose other people over me. She was the one that didn't want to work to mend something she helped rip to pieces...She is the one that wont tell me what I did wrong to begin with... I know I say I don't care and that I will make new friends and be happy but I just feel like there is a big hole in my chest. I do care. I just don't want to. I told my boy I hated her. Her and all the others that left as soon as senior year ended... But I could never hate someone that did the things she did for me. But I want to. I want to hate her more than I hate someone else (which is damn near impossible) just so it doesn't hurt like this... I wish I could hate her... I know she will do amazing things... I just want to know what I did that made it so I don't get to be there with her.. Or... Maybe it's like my mom said. She needs to go out and get kncked down before she realizes who is really there.... I don't know... What I do know is that she will never see this... Because I have kept my tumblr hidden from all my "friends"... But that doesn't mean I didn't wish she would... Just so she knows I love her...

[misslynds]

I want to start doing a vlog type thing but what would the point even be and who would want to waste their time listening to me... Eh... I wish I was interesting enough... Too bad I am sadly ordinary.

[misslynds]

Effie Trinket for my inner nerd and Pokemon for my Boys inner nerd. <3