How do I know if he is the one?
Is it the peace of mind whenever he's around? Is it the inability to stop thinking of him? Is it the knowledge of his flaws but I am still willing to work with him? Is it the willingness to open up, to let him see the good, the bad, the ugly in me? Is it the thought of wanting to spend another day with him in my life until whenever god decides we've had enough? Is it the stupid smile on my face every time I see him? Is it the constant realization that I am safe with him? Is it him being the most handsome man in the world to me even if he is not, but I wouldn't trade him for any other man?
It's been so long since the last time I was in love with someone that I don't know how it feels anymore. So it is now me constantly asking myself if this is real, sensible, adult love or am I just being delusional.
I know it's only been a few month, but is it wrong that everything feels "right"? Is it how the world works sometimes or is it a red flag that I've blindly overlooked?
The thing is, I don't think that I can handle another heartbreak. I love him, I love him so much I have no rooms left for disappointment nor I can handle the pain of us breaking up, or my dreams shattering. I love him so much that the only thing I will surrender to is death when it finally tears us apart.
I want him to be the one, but is he? How do I know I am not just being stupid and delusional? Did I ever think my ex was the one? How was I the last time I was in love (for it to turn into something that destroyed my self-esteem completely)?
Are you the one?
