The more the woman droned on, the closer Pity was to... either snapping or just walking away. It was getting increasingly difficult to so much as stand there, listen to her talk and talk -- the idea of helping her find her son? Who, very likely, was not there?
Pity pinched the bridge of her nose as the woman began talking about the smell of his shadow and the wind carrying his name and she couldn't help but whisper to herself, "What the fuck?" How in the hell did she get caught up in this? Had she looked a little too inviting? That wasn't the goal! Was she not making that clear enough!? Was she going to have to tell the woman to go find her own damn son, they had not seen anyone!?
And then the woman said something that she actually understood.
She was familiar with grief -- or whatever the hell her version of grief was -- and she knew she was there, in that moment, because she would give anything to see Calliope just one more time. And a sinking feeling hit that this woman also had her own version of grief, one that brought her here -- one that made her think everything would be okay if she could find someone who was no longer walking the Earth. No wonder she looked like she'd just stepped out of a 1930s psych ward...
She, herself, was barely hanging on by a thread, and she had never had (nor lost) a child! She could only imagine how mad that may drive a person!
Nonetheless... it was all speculation. But she understood now. She understood the desperation.
"You're right," Pity replied, tone level and soft. "How long has he been gone?" Grief didn't always necessitate dying, now did it? @thevirginabilene
Abilene felt insane for entertaining any of this, but she was just thankful that whatever lash out she had earned, was gone for a moment.
Why do you smell of his shadow? Why does the wind carry his name when it brushes past you?
She didn't even want to think about what the woman meant and if it wasn't brought up again, she wasn't going to bring it back up.
Abilene exhaled slowly, tilting her head just slightly as she took in the womanâs hollowed-out frame, the way sorrow twisted her voice into something raw and desperate. There was something in that desperation that tugged at her, something she didnât want to acknowledge but couldnât quite shake.
Abilene had never lost a child. Sheâd never had the chance. But she understood the weight of ghosts. How they lingered in the corners of a room, how they made a home in the silence between words.
Her voice, when she finally spoke, was measured. Careful. âIf you want someone to help you,â she said, her drawl quieter than usual, laced with something softer, âthen you have to give us something to go off of.â
She wasnât mocking. She wasnât cruel. But she needed facts, not poetry and riddles. âLike what Pity said, how long has he been gone?"
The woman swayed where she stood, her presence less a body and more the shape of absence itself; the outline of a woman carved from longing and grief. âHow long?â she echoed, her voice a threadbare whisper, unraveling as it left her lips. A slow tilt of the head, like the question itself was foreign, like it had never occurred to her to count the days. The empty wells of her eyes fixed on them both, unblinking.
âHe was here,â she murmured again, voice drifting, as though speaking to something just beyond their reach. âI held him in my arms. I kissed his brow. I called him by name, and he answered.â
A pause. Then, her voice cracked like splitting ice.
âThen the ground took him. The dirt swallowed him whole. And yet,â her breath hitched, a sharp, shuddering thing. Her fingers twitched at her sides, curling against the fabric of her tattered dress. âAnd yet, I hear him. I wake in the night to the sound of his laughter. I see his shadow slip between the trees. I feel his hand in mine, right here,â she lifted her palm, fingers trembling, as though the weight of something unseen still lingered there.
Her gaze snapped back to them, sharp as shattered glass. âGone. Thatâs what they tell me. But you donât smell like people who believe in 'gone,'â her lips barely moved, but her words slithered out, curling at the edges like something just shy of human. âYou smell like loss.â
âYou would tear apart the earth for the ones you've lost," she whispered, stepping closer, "If your dead called to you, would you not listen?"














