[mithli]

hi im timaeus

late 20s, agender/FTN (tme), Muslim, Mediterranean & NDN, reality diverse ❤

I'm talkative & I'm normal 🧝🏻‍♂️

[eveh-koko]

oh my bingqiu

[mithli]

i go back and forth on it but being attractive makes sense I guess because everyone expects me to have more experience and comfort than I do with sex and I dont and it annoys people I can usually tell lol

[mithli]

never considered the concept of making one of these shitty things for like $6 instead of being annoyed that someone would want me to pay over $20 for one. idk why i thought these would be complicated to make this is simple as fuck just gonna take a few hours

[puddox]

saw someone including "Mandate of Heaven" as one of those christian terms tumblr likes to use to sound profound. which i get where you're coming from but t☝️hat one is chinese

[yuriinullification]

holdon

what the fuck is going on in this site's backend

[mrsandman42069]

[graceebooks]

i’m just having fun. hatred is involved but i’m just having fun

[mithli]

I hated hozier for years unfairly bc of tumblrinas and then I went and listened to his music and theyre all so weird idk what the fuck they were talking about. he makes music tjat is occasionally exactly my shit though. I really like it will come back and foreigners god a looooot a lot but like most of his music is just about love and a good chunk is just moving through the world with a certain outlook or what have you. but yeah dont let tumblrinas turn you off like I almost did his music is good if you like that sort of thing

[toyslug-blog]

[mithli]

I thought the weird offbrand nicotine i got was the "on!" one and I was going to make a guess who's back ON it's bullshit joke but these sre called "zone" wtf is that. im back in the

[mithli]

the less time I spend with people on weekends the more I get aggravated by spending time w people on weekends

[auramgold]

a lot of people assume psychosis hallucinations are super intense all-consuming horror movie shit like the memes about the hat man or always horrible debilitating things that make you dangerous to be around

but in my experience 95% of my hallucinations are getting spooked by very clearly hearing someone knocking on my door or calling my name from another room or hearing footsteps walking behind me which are "just" my brain recreating the horror of an abusive childhood

i *have* gotten the "bugs crawling all over me" hallucination once or twice though and yeah that one is exactly as terrible horrible as it sounds AUGH

[auramgold]

(not trying to put you on blast specifically, you're just a good example to jump off of)

media and pop culture hypes up psychosis a lot as The Worst That Can Happen out of sanism, so even when you try and filter that cultural bias out you still assume it's based on something

when, no, psychosis is actually very simple: it's just hyperactive pattern matching. it's your brain's signal-to-noise ratio being off balance, it's seeing images in random static. it's not always this special uniquely big thing, it's in fact quite mundane a lot of the time.

no one is immune to psychosis, it's not purely the realm of the insane. anyone is one bad night of sleep or one bad case of food poisoning or one bad fever away from being just like me on my worst days.

and this, indeed, is why solidarity with the insane is so important: you, yes you too, are just one bad day from joining us, and no perceptions of being a "temporarily embarrassed sane person" will save you from the oppression of the psychiatric institution.

[cleaningouttherooms]

did anybody else notice that sometimes it is a bit difficult to fall asleep

[cleaningouttherooms]

lets all kill ourselves

[mithli]

god damnit she's so cute why is she in the basket

[mithli]

im a weird mood today but I think the BBQ chicken pizza diet is doing this to me. perhaps I'll eat a single pear

[mithli]

theres also in nausea of course one of my favorite passages the part with the fucking tree. look at this ordinary thing until it becomes unbearable to behold

[takofukkatsumi]

Reblog this and tell me what was your biggest crying over a piece of fiction. You can be vague if you don't want to spoil.

[moonnogginn]

Wulian week day 4: Afraid, Doubt, Fangxin, Flashback

Meanwhile, Xie Lian:

[greatnesswithoutenvies]

#xl: I have a solution

#hc: pls don’t stab yourself

#xl: I no longer have a solution