Paradise Lost

Jee Joori Leader and Main Vocalist of DOE Model Vixen 26 years of age w o r t h l e s s

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“I was just making a comment.” Hansol answers, a little rougher than necessary “You look prettier when you smile like that, anyway.” He speaks again a bit awkwardly, trying to be uncharacteristically nice. Maybe Haein is starting to rub off on him.

[mkvixen-blog]

She sighed. Men, bar maybe Dojin, made her uncomfortable, and rightfully so. And when she was uncomfortable she got snappish. It took all she had to rein it in. “I look pretty anyway,” was her guarded reply as she crossed her arms over her chest.

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He quickly shakes his head, a little smile playing on his own lips  “I’m just curious. It’s weird– seeing you like this. Did something good happen?”

[mkvixen-blog]

“Perhaps it did. Who cares? I don’t know how fleeting this mood will be--I wouldn’t test it if I were you.”

[mkfall-blog]

“Sorry, Unnie. I guess it is a bit strange, but a good strange,” Fallon ended, running her fingers on the spine of the book in her hands. If you only saw Fall in passing you’d think she had it permanently glued to her hand. “It’s kind of like when I talk for more than a few sentences to people and they look at me as if I have grown two heads.”

[mkvixen-blog]

Her angry expression melted and she gave the girl a little smile, tucking hair back behind her ear. “Sorry. I overreacted a little. It’s just....kind of annoying, isn’t it. When people are always questioning you about it?”

[rvolly-blog]

If he wasn’t in such a piss-poor mood, Teddy might’ve cherished the time speaking to the main vocalist of Haven. Part of him desperately tried to remind himself that not everyone could be close to the members of their bias group, but the majority of him dictated he was tired and grouchy, therefore an asshole. “Adolescent? Please, I’m not one of the trainees, I grew out of that a year ago.” He said, an offended tone taking place. Whilst he didn’t care at that moment, he knew for a fact that later that day he’d be kicking himself in the foot for saying such things to a sunbae.

[mkvixen-blog]

While her mood had been improving as of late, Jee Joori was flawed, and her temper was among her flaws. Arms crossing over her chest, she eyed him coldly. “You did, did you? I don’t see any proof of that. You’re acting like my thirteen year old nephew when his video game privileges are revoked. You’re new to the industry. You don’t have enough connections or a solid enough footing yet for people to forgive you for acting like an asshole. I’d shape up before someone from outside the company comes in. If you get into shit, not only will it drag you down, but it will drag down your whole group, and you will be getting no sympathy from me.”

[mkvixen-blog]

“Perhaps I am in a good mood. Is it really so strange that you felt the need to comment on it? That’s a sure fire way to make sure it disappears,” Joori murmured, a small smile on her face. She was joking, of course, but her mood change must have been significant--it seemed like many people were picking up on it. She’d heard a few people comment on it. It was strange. It was better than people asking her what was wrong, but still strange all the same.

[mkvixen-blog]

kangdae -> joori

kangdae: have you got medicine?

kangdae: can you come take care of me?

joori: youre a grown man im sure you can take care of yourself.

[rvolly-blog]

Somedays Teddy couldn’t be bothered for human interaction, let alone full-blown conversations and today was one of those days. “What were you saying?” He asked, looking at the other for a few seconds before looking up and following something as if it were flying away, “Oh dear, the amounts of fucks I give seem to have left me.”

[mkvixen-blog]

“And the amount I had ran out four years ago. Now get up, and get moving. Keep your adolescent attitude to yourself for the day. I promise, I’m not going to put up with much more of it.” She tried to keep an open mind about working with her juniors, but things like this didn’t make anything work in their favor. It kind of gave all of them a bad name, in Joori’s eyes.

[hsxjiyeon]

The only thing stopping Minjung from coming into the bathroom regardless of permission was the fact that Joori was her senior, despite her position standing higher than the idol’s. “Not any different than it’s been for the past hour,” she answered boredly, glancing down at the watch on her wrist. This was enough to remind her why she very rarely frequented these sorts of schedules and instead preferred to handle endorsements in a meeting with the company– the people, bratty people at that, and the nagging feeling that her time was overall being wasted by standing around and being an onlooker. “Joori-unnie. I have several open slots in my schedule this week if you’d like to meet up. If these sort of instances happen often, I’d like to see what I can do to put an end to it– or prevent further opportunities.”

[mkvixen-blog]

She nodded a little and sighed. Joori was very much used to photoshoots and them running behind, but this was ridiculous. At least it gave her time to compose herself. That was a bonus. She usually hated delays with a passion, but this one was well timed and she found herself actually grateful for it. “I’ll try to be efficient, then. Make it less painful for whoever is waiting after me...” She fixed her hair, making sure it looked perfect again, before glancing at Minjung. She took a second to compose her thoughts before replying, “I.....it doesn’t happen often, no. I just...I thought....” she took a deep breath. “I thought it was behind me and dealt with, but clearly I was wrong.” She was being vague, but it was the best way to put what she was feeling into words without spilling everything--something she very much didn’t want to do.

[mkginny]

“Whatever. Nothing was either of our faults, then. We were both fucked over majorly and we both need to come up with better coping methods than the ones we have,” Ginny grumbled. She sighed deeply, regretting bringing her feelings up as she watched Joori’s face. She might have just ruined one of her dearest friendships. But when Joori spoke, however, she smiled a little, shaking her head. “Oh, shut the fuck up. I’m happy around you, you dolt. I’ll put up with it as long as it takes to get you out. Don’t you fucking tell me you love me and then tell me no, Ri. I barely have a heart–don’t stomp on the little bit I’ve got left.” She rolled her eyes, smiling a little before leaning in and kissing Joori chastely on the lips. 

[mkvixen-blog]

Joori laughed despite herself, rolling her eyes a little bit. “We really do, don’t we. We’re both nightmares. Everyone who has to work with us deserves a raise,” she muttered, sighing deeply. Joori stared at Ginny with a worried expression, her fingers lacing around the elders and squeezing a little. “I never said you weren’t. I just......you shouldn’t have to put up with it is all I’m saying.” Her face fell a little bit and she shook her head quickly. “I wasn’t trying to do that at all.....” she trailed off. The kiss took her off guard. As someone who’d exchanged many a kiss in her life, she’d thought she didn’t like kissing, but clearly it just had to do with who she was kissing, because this was nice. She enjoyed this one.

[hsxjiyeon]

Minjung would be lying if she were to say that one of her hidden reasons for sending Joori off was to try to investigate the root of the problem herself without the idol’s interference. If it was enough to break her usual concentration, it was something that needed to be resolved immediately, before it escalated into something more open to the public eye. Though typically intuitive, she wasn’t sure where to start– a who, of course, but with what kind of criteria? Under the guise of watching Joori’s place between the models, her eyes scanned across the room meticulously, searching for someone who set off the alarms in her head until the time came for her to retrieve Joori. Knocking lightly on the door as a warning, she leaned in closer to make herself more heard. “They’re finishing up on the last few photos with the model before you. You have about ten minutes. May I come in?”

[mkvixen-blog]

How she managed to pull herself together, she wasn’t sure, but she did it, her icy mask back on her face as she fixed her hair in the mirror. She took a few deep breaths before looking up when she heard  the knock. “Yes, of course. Come in,” Joori responded just loud enough to be heard, adjusting the clothes on her body. “Is the shoot going well? Everything’s more or less on schedule?” She was back to business now. She’d have time to lose her mind when she was home and alone. 

[mkyewon-blog]

Yewon nearly let out a sigh of relief as the elder agreed to her idea.  She understood that she was feeling under the weather, but she was certain that if they just spent the afternoon together, she would be able to change that somehow.  Maybe not completely, but just a little bit, and that’s what mattered. “Okay, we’ll go to some smaller shops, then.  No malls or crowds in sight.”

[mkvixen-blog]

“Did you have any smaller shops in mind? Any that caught your eye and that you wanted to check out or anything?” Joori asked, trying to compartmentalize her feelings and prepare herself for going out into public. She couldn’t go out if she was frozen solid and about to cry. 

[mkginny]

“Oh, please. It’s not your fault. And even if it was, you don’t want it to go on any longer, and it still is. You’re a victim. These fucking people are hurting you, and I hate it. You don’t deserve any of this, and you’ve done nothing to bring it upon yourself.” She rolled her eyes in frustration. “The people who work here want to help you. They’re not out to get you, goddamn it! And even if you got in shit, we wouldn’t abandon you. If these girls have stuck with me of all people for years, then they’ll stand with you without question.” Ginny pulled away, wiping the tears and looking Joori in the eye. “I don’t think you understand,” she murmured, tacking on an exasperated ‘Yoo Jinahn, you have shitty-ass timing’ under her breath. “I love you. As a Haven member and a friend and that shit, sure, but I actually love you. And even if I didn’t, I wouldn’t want to see you like this. This is not your lot in life. I refuse to think so. You are strong, and kind, and genuine. You deserve so much more than this bullshit.”

[mkvixen-blog]

“You haven’t done anything, either! You were mistreated by your parents to the point where you changed everything about yourself. You’re not at fault. They’re at fault for being absolutely shitty parents,” Joori argued, shaking her head. She locked eyes with Ginny, her words caught in her throat for the moment. “I----” she murmured, he eyes widening. She stopped crying, mostly in shock, trying to process the new information. “Jin---” she murmured, finally collecting her thoughts and shaking her head. “I.....Jin, I love you too, I just.......no. You don’t deserve to be caught up in this. You deserve to be happy. I’m sorry I just....I don’t want you to have to put up with this.”

[mkyewon-blog]

Yewon was Haven’s happy vitamin.  It was her job to keep her members happy, to cheer them up when they were down.  And while the leader was often difficult to cheer up, she was determined not to give up.  “Do you want to go shopping?  I can’t remember the last time I went.  It’ll be fun!”

[mkvixen-blog]

“I suppose we could,” Joori said with a tiny nod, taking a deep breath. It’d be a distraction, at the very least, and it would make the younger woman happy. “We need to make sure we’re not seen though. As much as I love our fans, I can’t really handle interacting with them today. I’m sorry.”

[hsxjiyeon]

“Go,” Minjung said, her tone much more demanding this time. It had taken this long to even get Joori to consider stepping out, and she wasn’t going to back down now. Not when she knew that she had more level reasoning in the situation. “I won’t let you be late. We both have places to be after this. Take a break and I’ll get you in ten.”

[mkvixen-blog]

“Thank you,” Joori murmured quietly with a tiny bow, quickly slipping out of the room before anyone else noticed her and going to the bathroom. She wanted to splash water on her face or something, but that would ruin the makeup, so instead she gripped the counter, trying to get a hold of herself. She was better than this. She’d get though it.

[mkginny]

“If they scold you, I’ll end their lives. You’re a victim. You don’t deserve to be scolded. You could probably press harassment charges on half these guys too, and that’d be enough to scare the rest off. You just have to take the step, Ri. It won’t stop until you do.” Holding Joori tight to her chest, she murmured, “I love you and I don’t want them to hurt you anymore. They need to stop. You need to stop. I’ll go with you to a PR manager or the CEO or something if you need me to.”

[mkvixen-blog]

“I’m not a victim if it’s my fault everything is like this,” Joori sobbed, shaking her head. The fact of the matter was, if she didn’t look like this, if she didn’t conduct herself like this, no one would even be interested. “I don’t want to get more people involved. That’s just more people who can ruin my career. Haven can’t lose another member, JInahn. we wouldn’t survive that.” Taking a deep breath, she tried to stop the tears. “I love you too. I just......It’s my lot in life. There’s nothing we can do.”

[mkginny]

“Joori….” Ginny began softly, her fingers running gently through the elders hair, trying to figure out how to put her thoughts into words. “Um…..I bet if you talked to a PR Manger or something….they’d be able to figure out a way for you to get out of this without damaging your image….I know you want it to stop.” She sighed, kissing the top of Joori’s head, half ready for the leader to snap at her. “I care about you a lot. I just…don’t like seeing you like this.”

[mkvixen-blog]

Tears welled up in Joori’s eyes. She squeezed Ginny tighter, hiding her head in Ginny’s chest as she desperately held back tears. “They.....they won’t help. They’ll just scold me for letting it happen, especially for so long.......and say it’s too long gone. There’s nothing they can do, Jin. Nothing.” She was screwed. There was nothing she could do. This was the hand she’d be dealt.

[mkyewon-blog]

Yewon could feel her face shift into a more prominent frown, not wanting the elder to try and comfort her.  She wasn’t the one that was stressed out right now.  “Really, if you need to talk about it, or something… maybe we can do something to distract you?”

[mkvixen-blog]

“If that’s what you want. I’m really just fine, though,” Joori insisted. She didn’t want Yewon to waste her time trying to cheer her up, because it wouldn’t work. A distraction could be nice, though. If Yewon wanted to spend the time helping her, there was really nothing Joori could do.