[undo-my-scars]

xx mine

[perfectfeelings]

“Darling, you deserve it all. You deserve love and peace and magic and joy dancing in your eyes. You deserve hearty, deep-belly laughter and the right to let those tears fall and water the soil. You deserve freedom and goodness and company and days of bliss and quiet too. You deserve you happy and healed and content and open. So keep going, darling. Keep going.”

— Unknown

[quotefeeling]

“I’m not much like myself any more.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

[thoughtkick]

“You walked away and all I did was watch you, because no matter how hard I tried to make you stay, you still left.”

— A.M.

[quotefeeling]

“Forgiveness doesn’t excuse their behaviour. Forgiveness prevents them from destroying your heart.”

— Hemant Smarty

[thoughtkick]

“When you have a good heart: You help too much. You trust too much. You give too much. You love too much & it always seems you hurt the most.”

— Unknown

[quotefeeling]

“Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.”

— Robert Tew

[i-r-r-e-p-a-r-a-b-l-e-deactivat]

[quotefeeling]

“Sometimes it’s not the person who change, it’s the mask that falls off.”

— Unknown

[aaaangel444]

[the-moon-whisperer]

[quotefeeling]

“I know it’s not easy for you, living this life, but try to remember, always try to remember, you’re not the only one with troubles.”

— Laini Taylor (via thoughtkick)

[diphyllia-grayi]

Just because I smile for you doesn't mean that I wasn't thinking about cutting my wrists open at the same time.

[pluviioo]

beautiful disorder

Bulimia isn’t a pretty girl, hanging over the toilet bowl with her hair nicely tied back. It is a swollen face with vomit dripping down the chin and permanent nosebleeds.

Anorexia isn't  a skinny, shy girl that refuses some Food. It is disguisting hair appearing on deadly cold skin. It is the extreme pain from an empty stomach.

Depression isn’t a model with some smudged Mascara, which sadly looks out a window at a sunset. It is lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, because there is no motivation left to close the eyes. It is bitter lonliness.

Selfharm isn’t a beautiful boy, kissing your scars and telling you, you are beautiful anyway. It is the pain when the water in the shower hits the wounds. It is scars that will never disappear.

Mental disorders aren’t any kind of aesthetic. They are dying little by little, everyday.

[nicolethedopefiendqueen]

Mental illness has a way of desensitizing you to your pain. You're aware you're broken and that it fucking hurts but you've become so accustomed to the tears of your heart that you can spend hours thinking of your own suicide almost casually.

Excerpt from my journal 12-3-19

[rtpoetry]

[myblissfulsuicide]