I’m here to give you the news that I will be leaving the app for a little while. If you like my blog content, well great! I have tons of posts that are still queued… so there’s that.
Below the ‘read more’ is just some reasons (and a lot of venting) why I’m leaving (mostly related to an Among Us groupchat), so if you don’t feel like reading that just keep scrolling :)
I’ve always looked forward to going on here, this app. It was fun. A nice hobby. I was introduced to new things and fandoms. I even started a role play chat and made new online friends! And, it made me happy to be able to chat online with friends, roleplay, reblog and like posts.
Lately I feel... sad. Empty? Hollow? I don’t feel that same joy anymore. I feel like I failed everyone in the groupchat. Like I’ve let everyone down. I should’ve tried to be more active. I should’ve said *that* differently. I should’ve added more active people. I should’ve pushed more often. I could’ve made the story more interesting, include other people. I should’ve taken more efforts to keep it alive… it was my job to do that as the owner of the group chat. Maybe if I wasn’t so afraid to call on people when we needed them, the chat would’ve been active more often and there wouldn’t be long hiatuses of inactivity.
Then maybe everyone wouldn’t have left.
I know deep down, it’s not my fault that things aren’t how they used to be. Most of the people in the group chat collectively moved on and lost interest. And that’s fine! Good for them, they’re exploring new interests and are changing. But now the group chat is dead. Buried. On the brink of deletion.
I’m not good with change, I don’t like it. Thinking about how the group chat used to be just few months ago (it was so so close to having its one year anniversary… if it had just made it to the end of July we would’ve been able to celebrate the group chat’s birthday…), and to see now how empty and dead it is, makes me feel guilty, like i should’ve done more to prevent it. I knew it would happen eventually. Nothing lasts forever. But the fact that it finally did happen makes me sad since I put so much work and research into it to make it fun and enjoyable for everyone.
Here have this old drawing for ~nostalgia~
Thank you to Tyler (or as most people in the chat know him as, Narrator), Tree, DeanBean, LemonCortana, and Kami for making the groupchat so much fun 💕
Thank YOU. You brought us all together and made us have a beautiful roleplay experience. Without you, I wouldn't have met good friends people with the same interests!
Its a real shame that the group chat died. We had tons of fun while it lasted. All those little 'cults' we made, all those ships.. they were really enjoyable! Everyone's characters were so unique with different personalities.
I'm glad if people are moving on though. They might be onto different things and thats great! Don't bring yourself down Cyan. You did amazing.
It was fun while it lasted. Honestly, I feel like I was the fall of the chat. After my dog died in April i fell away from my phone and didn't want my saddest moments falling into the RP.
tagging: @oifelixcmerebrou @cupfullofjeno @kyuwoyo @yyukhae @stayctday @en-hi-pen and anyone else that may want to! you can ignore as well if you’d like🥺
No pressure tags: @beenovel @guilt-tea @zalie@themugshotexperience31 @the-reformed-ringwraith @hey-its-nonny @hirokosoul @elvish-sky and anyone else who would like to do it!!!
My friend @snowy-dream-hideaway is struggling with their self-harm and asked me to make them One Note A Day Post.
God, please reblog and like this post. I don't know many people, but I know you all do. Do me a favor and boost this. It's not a hard request. Even if if it doesn't fit the "Aesthetic" of your blog, find the kindness in yourself to do this.
@spiders-and-arson @shinandlux @makidonalds-v3
Even if I didn't tag you, I want you to share this post. Please.
Rules: Tag 4 mutuals and ask one question.
Tagged by: @norval17
Question: Favorite franchise. Books, movies, games, comics etc.
Answer: Touhou, I’ve been playing every single game since I was ~12.
Here’s my question: Is there an activity in nature that you like the most?
(Ex: Swimming in the ocean)
I tag: @gaynchor @lancelikethesword @nonchalant-raptor @glowyskull
My answer: I was once with a group of friends when we called the local Papa John’s and asked in the most awkward voice: “Is Jaimie there? She’s supposed to be grounded.” They paused for about 2 minutes before hanging up. Confused the heck out of ‘em.
My question: What did you do that caused your parents to give you the 'ya fucked up’ look? lol
tagged by @foyal on my other blog and @sunshinewarrior11 on this one so I figured i’d do them both here (ty both!!!!!)
rules: tag 9 people you’d like to get to know better or catch up with
last song: id by charlie allen
last movie: the old guard (…again) (in my defense, I was making my sister watch it) (if that can be called a defense at all)
currently watching: idk i am just vibing
currently reading: house of leaves!! I just started so it hasn’t gotten truly wild yet but as your local hypertext fiction dumbass I’ve committed
currently craving: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh soul deep craving for someone to clean my apartment. this is too much for me.
tagging: @forkliftcertifiedsokka @chaoticsuki @kiaraalazulu @starbenders @lizard-business @i-love-your-light and anyone else who wants to talk about themselves. jot me down as a reference. this applies for job interviews also.
Thanks, @whats-her-quirk. I can never get to know you well enough, bby <3
Last song: no body, no crime by Taylor Swift and HAIM
Currently reading: The Water Dancer by Ta-Nehisi Coates
Last movie: Two Heroes!! Eyyyyy
Currently watching: Just started rewatching Yuri on Ice! Also watching LoK and Pokemon Journeys
Currently craving: clementines
Peeps I wanna get to know better! @khionne, @fanfic-me-up, @thecindy, @shoutogepi, @maemi324, @messwriting no pressure, though! And anyone else who wants to <3
Last Movie: Hmm I really don’t watch movies so probably Moana
Currently Watching: My Hero Academia
Currently Reading: Everyone’s fanfic’s (feel free to tag me in yours!)
Currently Craving: Mental Stability 🥲
Tag 🖤 (I’m sorry if you have been tagged already or don’t want to play): @bakugousbrat @bakuwhored @bakugous-mamas @the-fandoms-georgie @katsukichu @hotwings0203 and anyone else who wants to play! ✨
Currently watching; well, I’ve been currently watching Jujutsu Kaisen, My Hero Academia, Blue Exorcist, and My ID is Gangnam Beauty!
Current Reading; My Hero Academia fanfiction, Jujutsu Kaisen fanfiction, Blue Exorcist fanfiction, Z Nation fanfiction and Harry Hook( Descendants) fanfiction!
Last movie: The World’s End, I’ve seen it many times but it’s always funny. 😄
Currently watching: My mind has gone to blank drive after watching the septarian geode my hubby bought me for Christmas
Currently reading: Gracie’s Touch by S.E. Smith
Currently craving: Time skip. All I need is a blue box to travel back in time about two hours so the salmon soup I’m cooking is ready before my son’s next online lesson starts.
Last movie: The Fall (Starring Lee Pace; 100% A must watch)
Currently watching: Hannibal
Currently reading: If We Were Villians by M.L.Rio
Currently craving: Death / A few more braincells so that I can understand what I’m studying / A hopelessly romantic significant other (because I have iSsUeS)
Last movie: The Avengers starting it over for the 2000000th time
Currently watching: Nothing still waiting for the next season of MHA
Currently reading : Megérjük a pénzünket (= We are worth our money, that is the concrete translation, however in Hungarian this phrase is used as a negative thing, if you say this phrase it usually means that those people or kids are terribly annoying or rude and it’s basically an insult. Sorry I can’t explain it better
Thank you so much for the tag <3 (Guess who just found out you can see mentions on the computer)
Last Song: Epoch by The Living Tombstone
Last Movie: Over The Moon on Netflix
Currently Watching: Sweet Home on Netflix
Currently Reading: Eleceed by Jeho Son/ ZHENA (Webtoon)
Currently Craving: Idk, another Monster energy
Tags:
@lil-foothills-heaven @the-resident-demon @soradragon @screaming-solzear @dandylion-puff And any of the wonderful people that I interact with and follow.
Aawwww thank youuuuu @dimensionwriter right back at you!
Last song : life light man on the internet
Last movie: yesterday
Currently watching: dr stone, gargoyles
Currently reading bloedjuweel (blood juwel)
Currently craving: bread with honey
@deepestfirefun @theincaprincess @xxbyimm @fantasydaydreamers @softiebadbitch @marionettejonesdraws @senkuwu-chan @rainbow-claw @criminaly-supernatural @an-adventureland @strongholdinthedark @hannah-emily-zhang @vasharts-blog an Im sure I’m forgetting many more
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