My Own Worst Enemy.

I am, because this was.

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Watch "Hot Mess" on YouTube

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- The regrets of my past never seem to cease, shattering my sanity while stealing my peace. - Katie

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So I need help! Advise no judgment lol

I'm taking my kiddos to Florida for Thanksgiving to see family. We are flying there and back staying 23-28th during which we will go to Disney and a few other attractions. So what's the problem? I won't be able to bring certain things with me on the plane obviously. So how can I manage the initial drag ass feeling those days of being without can bring while in a new environment and around my family? I want the kids to have a great time and me be able to enjoy their excitement. Any ideas would be amazing.

[dankmemeuniversity]

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I don’t do a lot of drugs I just do a few drugs a lot

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i had you

i sat on your back porch at sunrise

after not having slept all night; i

was wasted all the damn time and

couldn't stand the rearview of my

life or any nearing brake lights, or

whatever was happening in my

mind. and i had you but i walked

on eggshells and i doubted every

cell of myself. and i had you but i

was a lesser version of me and it

was some special type of hell. and

i had you but you took aim with the

order you wished to create and i tried

to establish some sort of levity but it

wasn't your idea, so the idea didn't

take.

*

I never learned to navigate denver traffic

and my hopes and dreams still litter every

mountain passage and i never did find it:

happiness.

*

i found addiction.

*

i numbed the nostalgia for some time-

'til you were an assortment of letters

that rhyme and nothing more. 'til i

was just a bad idea and never a whore.

'til i was perfectly fine not being yours.

and i tore down my boundaries so i

could people-please; i'd let them take

all of me while i'd still plead "sorry,

i'm sorry."

*

like i've never been enough.

not for you, not for me, not

for anyone.

*

Pen

[once-written-twice-shy]

I want to feel wanted

to feel special and desired

to know that I'm loved and adored

and even a little admired

Just once in my life

I don't want to feel

like my love is one sided

and her feelings weren't real

I want to be first

not second or third

to stand front and center

and know that I'm heard

I don't want to be an option

I want to be the only way out

I want to be a light in the darkness

to be who you're dreaming about

but I'm no knight in armour

not wanted or loved

just a sad lonely boy

whom no one dreams of

[vomitingwords]

"And I realized that what I want to end is not my life." she said. "But what makes me hate living."

It's that time of the year // ma.c.a

[musemymind]

““I don’t have to hit bottom to know I don’t want to. But I think maybe it’s possible to have an addictive personality without being addicted to one thing in particular… yet. Was I addicted to avoiding the real world by hanging out with my friends, getting drunk and high?””

— The Art of Losing Lizzy Mason