mind tricks and other paraphernalia

from my words to yours, welcome. put on that indie playlist and tell me all about you and your love

[monicaiyer]

Why are your poems so damn good.

Oh my gosh, you’re too too sweet. Lets just say I’ve had the best inspiration from close friends, and you ;)

[monicaiyer]

"You know I hate myself right" Me: "Yeah I know" good. thought you forgot since the last time i told you that,  when I was in high school my face pickled with acne or when my best friend talked about me to a stranger or when i failed that course and knew i couldn't make it through uni

remember the time i hurled words of hate in my mind to you only because my wisdom tooth hurt or because I felt so much pain when dad died. when i hit despair and you didn't even know it

i hate you once again. just thought you should know if it had made a difference guess we wouldn't be here now,

or is this the difference that i hate you much more than before because you let me do it - let me win a cause i am not fighting for.

because the acne faded, the best friend moved on, i went on with uni, dad to heaven passed, and my wisdom tooth grew on me. But somehow Hate is where I always belong. maybe Love should come by and I’ll remind you of her because next time a bad one comes along - I'll know its here to pass through my garden of experiences only to pinch my senses and move along - only because Love said "You will stay strong - once and for all".                                              -  only sometimes i hate me too                                                 Monica I.

[monicaiyer]

colors in soft snow. hazy drapes colorful lights enormous smiles red in snowy photos drizzling the snow in color colors more than a rainbow all i want are kisses in the moonlight hands wrapped in warmer weather cheeks lightened by laughs and meals of comfort and soft measure ~ may Christmas come around to teach me about sounds of soft colors in the snow. maybe someday i will learn and take away - more magic and colors and make christmas its own rainbow      - christmas rainbow                                                                           - Monica .I

[monicaiyer]

hungry

before you come to me ask yourself would you wanna know you would you wanna show you  would you wanna touch you -  like i’d feel you? If so scoot over here before i eat you.                            -  would u wanna know u?

[1nn32dem0n5]

still in love

she looks at me with one shifty eye when i look at her eating in bed i don’t know why she looks at me guiltily

probably dropped something on my sheets

but i’m only staring because she’s beautiful

[monicaiyer]

can you tell from my face that im worth it can you tell me all this is perfect so when i touch myself it feels like worship so when i touch the ground we turn into Earthships our time our wealth our stories make sense our tears our fears stains life breaks pain how many days are really worth it how many times did you deserve it do you count your days because you lived it do you know your worth? if you sucked at it would you love yourself? have you tried it cuz like scripture you’re perfect - your walls to the winds you made you conserve it

because you made it worth it. your hustle means you mean it may you speak truth cuz you believe it may your life be more reason more than how you achieve it. because stars are aligned if we perceive it. thats how they make tough look warm and give wounds stronger ways to clothe                                                         - im worth it

[monicaiyer]

when life gets hard to bear lean on another's shoulder Atlas bore the world and so can we our brethren

[monicaiyer]

i want you

if i tell you how much i want you  would you want me just as much  as you did on our sunny days under dim lit clouds ~ fingers in my hair on my lips yet so scared trust me i want you wrapped up  around my fingers as well my mellow skies my teary eyes could never never tell how far apart we’ve grown -  how much was yet to come i still want you more if not as much. Give me what you were if thats all i ever ask in all honesty all i could ever want is your drive for me and our love untouched so yes -  i want you just as much

[monicaiyer]

we first made love when you held my hands you touched me into worlds i saw in your eyes

                          - around the world in many ways

[rob-pattinson]

LIZZO Rolling Stone Magazine / 2020 › ph. David LaChapelle

[ashblinthetree]

I would die for lizzo

[monicaiyer]

slip in

slowly slip in deeper into my skin your touch needs wounds so i could heal and you would touch me again your fingers deep in. i want nothing more than your breath dripping sweet nothings over my silhouette  the taste of your skin molds smiles across my face our wet kisses sealing love across my being sending shivers so deep ~ they make the oceans we live in blue mountains creasing up on your forehead as you look me in the eye muffling moans you’ve never met. i’ll drive you to the edge of the earth and all the way back into my arms ~ sweet darling slip in

[monicaiyer]

we crawl in the sheets our feet make quiet conversation. blue shadows like pale snow on your back i wish my tears could stream across it -  and feel the pleasure it cries about. i kiss you with my eyes when you look at me like i hold your world but hold you too close when you think i need you less than i should i wait in sweet surrender while your walls - teach me patience your breath - that i should brush twice a day your smile - that your eyes would be nothing without it your bite  - that my skin is lingerie the world slows down. Our bodies make love. the world wakes up. our body is now us. - body me, ill body you                                                                                       - Monica .I

[monicaiyer]

single pringle

im soo single and soo looking to love me love me like that man i left

So i Throw me around Kiss me all the way to bed and all the way down till my fingers need some prayers soo single ive started to notice me -  how my hair tickles my waist  and that smile people know me for and those hips I could raise nations with. im sooo single sooo  in love so fresh -  like Butter laid on Toast this crunch, like love ~ never gets old.

[monicaiyer]

now that ive come around to loving your scent -  remind me if i can kiss you again

[monicaiyer]

i like you <3

i like to keep secrets. hide them away in lyrics walk around you on my tiptoes -  watching stars from above shine down on us

on where we vacation wrapped in sheets and you naked whispering the tattoos you found on me.  i’d like to tell you a secret. i think i really like you like like would mean to you  and before you say no say how say why say what can i do -  just know all i do is like you “It can’t be more” if it cant -  i can keep dreaming about you if that's all we ever have just know that i like you really like you in the like like you kind of way and i want to 

show you all the things i have planned and then you’d beg to like me too if you want to -  cuz all I do is like you.

[monicaiyer]

colors in soft snow. hazy drapes colorful lights enormous smiles red in snowy photos drizzling the snow in color colors more than a rainbow all i want are kisses in the moonlight hands wrapped in warmer weather cheeks lightened by laughs and meals of comfort and soft measure ~ may Christmas come around to teach me about sounds of soft colors in the snow. maybe someday i will learn and take away - more magic and colors and make christmas its own rainbow      - christmas rainbow                                                                           - Monica .I

[monicaiyer]

GARLIC

im homegrown   seeds sown   accents floating like lilies on the pond   the five rivers vomited on my sweat smells like garlic   my teeth stained with turmeric   my laugh is high pitched   my people like to live rich we hold rivers    that nations wanted   we built on a soil   that we’re taken for granted i grew there   came here   left my own   rewrote my definition of home -    said my ancestors fought for my life; or did they?   i can do the least for them -    rethink my whole life. YES   im short and curvy   chasing money   but we’re building dreams   our fathers put us to sleep for   we’re carving lives   our mothers spent hours in temples for   we’re choosing our home

within us because no matter where we came from   God has blessed us.    with tongues of fire   bodys for a temple   the brilliance of a community   and hope you can never dismantle, so stand back   unless you like the smell of garlic.                                                          - Monica .I