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random PSA, I know a lot of people use duckduckgo as a Google alternative search engine, but it always kind of annoyed me when I was using it because it felt like No Name Brand Google
I have switched to using Startpage.com and vastly prefer it. for one thing, instead of displaying an "AI summary" at the top of the search results (unless you turn it off, yes I know), it displays the first paragraph of the Wikipedia article, with link, whenever it finds one that's relevant.
also a waaayyyyy better sense of design than duckduckgo
also private, European based, least annoying search I've used lately (RIP old "don't be evil" Google)
Keeping a list of Google alternatives just in case…
i have one of those, scraped from multiple different rec posts:
Search Engines
Infinity Search is an alternative search engine with a special focus on privacy
DuckDuckGo is a popular search engine for those who value their privacy and are put off by the thought of their every query being tracked and logged. Uses bangs, ![site] for in-page search (sells your data to microsoft and draws from fucking bing)
WolframAlpha is a privately owned search engine that allows you to “compute expert-level answers using Wolfram’s breakthrough algorithms, knowledgebase, and AI technology.” A data search engine.
Boardreader is a search engine for forums and message boards. It allows you to search forums and then filter down results by date and language.
Based in France, Qwant is a privacy-based search engine that won’t record your searches or use your personal details for advertising. Uses “&” as a bang search.
Another privacy-based search engine is Search Encrypt, which uses local encryption to ensure that users’ identifiable information cannot be tracked. Metasearch across multiple engines.
Offering unbiased results from several sources, SearX is a metasearch engine that aims to present a free, decentralized view of the internet. Can be self-hosted.
Gibiru’s tagline is “Unfiltered private search” and that’s exactly what it offers. Requires AnonymoX Firefox add-on for privacy.
Disconnect allows you to conduct anonymous searches through a search engine of your choice.
Swisscows provides fully encrypted searches to protect your privacy and security. Built-in violence/porn filter cannot be overridden.
MetaGer offers “Privacy Protected Search & Find” through its anonymised search. A plugin will allow it to be made a default.
Gigablast is a private search engine that indexes millions of websites and servers real-time information without tracking your data, keeping you hidden from marketers and spammers. Variety of filtration and refinement options for searching.
Oscobo is a search engine that protects your privacy while you search the web. By not using any third-party tools or scripts, your data is protected from hacking and misuse. Has a Chrome extension to allow use in toolbar.
https://search.marginalia.nu/ an independent DIY search engine that focuses on non-commercial content, and attempts to show you sites you perhaps weren't aware of in favor of the sort of sites you probably already knew existed. Use old-school searching rather than query-based for the best results.
https://www.mojeek.com/
https://wiby.me/ - It’s goal is to index as many personalized websites as possible, and NOT commercial sites.
https://4get.ca/ it works a lot like SearX, but honestly better. It doesn’t have its own index, but pulls from many others. I think it’s the best for research, since it allows you to search for answers from different indexes, is easy to configure, add free, and avoids censorship as much as it can.
https://www.searchenginemap.com/ for more on how search engines relate to each other.
https://yep.com/ is a crawler
https://www.etools.ch/ retrieves from Google, Mojeek, Bing, and Yandex, like Searx
https://www.dogpile.com/
https://searxng.org/ (next gen Searx)
https://luxxle.com/ - possibly conservative?
https://presearch.com/ - good for academic?
https://kagi.com/smallweb - free/randomised Kagi.
Other Searchers
www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.
www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.
https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.
www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.
http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.
www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.
www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free.https://cosine.club/ is an electronic music similarity search engine
I will admit to being, at times, slightly bothered that The Pitt is specifically "The Pitt" and specifically a "Follow the work shift" format. I get exactly why this is and I admire the reasoning behind it. The Pitt is a love letter to healthcare workers and all the pressure that such an environment demands, so it makes sense that it is focused on the hospital, with only tiny glimpses of after-, and potentially maybe pre-, shift moments, and that it doesn't let up, that we don't get distracted from the shift itself. So that we can focus also on the criticism made to the medical system. So that we can focus on situations that highlight structural real issues.
It does mean, however, that it is inherently different from other medical dramas that can take the detour to follow the characters around to watch their drama evolve and resolve, and perhaps sometimes indulge in fantasy that embelishes the elements of a particular character, because they are medical dramas that are not inherently tied down to the environment or to the struggles inherent to it. House, focusing on... Dr. House, follows him to classrooms, to his apartment, to restaurants, to the street, to... riding off with Wilson. And yes, a lot of other shows take a while to branch off, but I do think there is a space for it built in by how they tell their story that The Pitt does not offer.
Despite The Pitt having the potential to be many many seasons long, the fact is that... I likely won't see Langdon's dog play around with his kids while he and Abby talk in hushed whispers about a relapse in the kitchen. I won't see Samira figuring out how to settle in in a new environment. I won't see Abbot's therapist or him having a baddass action moment. We never saw the reaction Dana's family had to her black eye. We won't see Jake adjusting to school and restarting his normal life after his trauma. We won't see a Santos and Garcia date. We'll see exactly 0% of Robby's road trip. We won't see Baby Jane Doe's new home. We won't see Whitaker having a farm day. We didn't see if Dr. Al Hashimi rode the rest of the way home.
Now, for the record, this restraint is good. It makes the show work creatively to drop hints and tidbits of data in subtle and engaging ways, and it must be working, for me to be eager and fantasizing about everything that happens to these characters outside of The Pitt.
But sometimes, you know, sometimes I get wistful.
There is that Heated Rivalry joke where people are watching Hockey going, "I'm confused. When do they start kissing?" and it'll all harmless fun and it doesn't make much sense but its a nice nudge nudge wink wink, but you know what?
If I were a male gay hockey player planning to be the first openly gay hockey player not retired, and I had any notion of Heated Rivalry, which I simply must have...
Why wouldn't I have my "I'll believe in Anything" moment? Why would I do it in a press conference or in a social media post? Why wouldn't I want to be as bold as Scott Hunter? Many reasons, actually, you know. My partner, for one, might really not want all the heat of his face being in the center of such a cultural upheaval. But the temptation would be so strong. And there is some strategic sense to it too. A direct call to a fiction that may nonetheless ease empathy.
So you know, I am actually eager. I am actually wondering. When do they start kissing?
Jubei: *Freaking the fuck out about Oyuki*
Me: *Freaking the fuck out about Jubei*
Send help so I can finish this fucking cinematic Ive paused it 4 7 times. Thank God Jubei is so ducking communicative.
Im gonna fucking cry.
Ok. Ok. He set a boundary and Oyuki handled it with her usual poise and valuable intel.
Dr. Trinity Santos: Can you give Huckleberry some fatherly advise?
Dr. Robby: Best I can do is fatherly inheritance.
Trinity: What?
Robby: What?
[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over
If anyone's feeling sad today, here's a newly discovered species of octopus. Found in the waters off the Galapagos Islands, this little critter can fit in the palm of your hand.
The new species, named Microeledone galapagensis, has a blue hue, which is believed to be the rarest color in nature.
The new species, named Microeledone galapagensis, stands out for reasons other than its blue hue, which is believed to be the rarest color in nature. The octopus appears to be the runt of the Megaleledonidae family, whose members are normally much larger and live in the Southern Ocean surrounding Antarctica. "Its stubby little arms with only one row of suckers set it apart from most octopus we are familiar with," Voight said. Even among "other species with short little arms and a single sucker row, its coloration and smooth skin on the back surface separate it," she added. While the octopus is light blue on its back, underneath it is a "very deep purple," Voight said. "We think this color pattern helps keep it safe. If the octopus grabs a prey item that emits light, that light may attract predators that might then eat the octopus," she explained. "So the octopus puts its dark-colored web over the prey item, keeping itself safe."
Why does it have such EYES
Because it's soul is full of wonder and curiosity, so it needs big windows
breakfast from when before i eated it
okay. here is my breakfast from before time began
I understand what you're going for here but time had already begun by then. Those dinasours didn't appear fully formed.
The Magnus Archives is so good at manufacturing horror with objectively unreal fictional things, and yet it also effectively utilizes mundane horror. This is to say, some of the most impactful moments in this series consist of non-supernatural murder and I think that's beautiful.
That last convo between Marty and Rust is obviously heartfelt and poetic, and also thematically relevant. But I don't think I will ever get over the inherent comedy of Rust pouring his heart out and crying, and Marty's attempt at comfort and connection boiling down to, "Uuhhh remember stars? stars and stories? stars? you like. stars."
Or the fact that IT WORKED
One thing I dig about Robby is that he's wildly kind and empathetic... and also an entire fucking dick. Queen Bitch of the Cunt Parade over there. Thinks he's got all the answers, hates to have his authority questioned (especially by women!), and snarking back is his first instinct. Fandom has a tendency to sand off his edges because of his big heart, but nah dudes, this man will cut you.
And I fuckin' LOVE it.
bro I genuinely can't put together the words that are fitting enough to describe how I feel about him
cause it's so easy to get lost in all that he is, if that makes sense.
too many people see him as just a complete and utter dick, nothing else. and, contrastly, too many people put on rose-colored (or boy mom) glasses when it comes to him.
but no y'all. he's so caring and so overwhelmed by how much shit gets to him and so empathetic (contrary to popular belief, please rewatch s1 when he wasn't 100% burnt to a crisp and certain scenes of s2 that give us moments of his empathy again) and so gentle when necessary and a good leader and a stellar doctor and just an all around decent man
but fuck me if he won't snap or back-sass or say something assholey when being put under a spotlight (when him and collins had the whole samira and "physician heal thyself" convo) or just be a plain asshole in certain situations
i can call back to multiple times this season where I was literally near tearing my clothes off in frustration over this man and yet I still finished the finale in fucking tearssss because he matters to me so much.
I am reading the Dunk and Egg stories, right now specifically The Sworn Sword, where there's this passage:
"Dunk the lunk, Pennytree used to call you, I recall." Ser Bennis spat a wad of sourleaf onto the rocks. It glistened red and slimy in the sunlight. "Lunks shouldn't try and think, their heads is too bloody thick for such." Dunk the lunk, thick as a castle wall. From Ser Arlan the words had been affectionate. He had been a kindly man, even in his scolding. In the mouth of Ser Bennis of the Brown Shield, they sounded different.
What I find so fascinating about this is that, from Duncan's internal monologue, you would think Ser Bennis sounds insulting and Ser Arlan didn't. You would think Ser Bennis using this word affects him in a way Ser Arlan using it didn't.
And yet, I am, as of now, quite familiar with "Dunk the lunk, thick as a castle wall.", because in The Hedge Knight, the first book of the series, any time Dunk had a misunderstanding, or made a mistake, or he realiazed he was lied to, or felt in some way incompetent, those words would pop up on the page, and in his mind. So I know damn well those words not only affected him deeply, but that he can't quite escape them, and they make up a sizeable chunk of his self image.
It makes me wonder how affectionate, exactly, Ser Arlan was actually being with those words, and whether it matters. It makes me wonder how much Duncan is willing to clean up the memory of his late mentor and of the relationship they had.
spin the whump trope wheel
opinion on the trope you got?
love it, a favorite
like it
neutral, depends
not really my thing
hate it
nuance
results
Got "living weapon." I feel like 7 out of 10 times its pretty solid. Competency needed to be a living weapon is a high bar and on itself compelling. Got to be pretty dry in the narrative and worldbuilding to make nothing out of it.
people who don’t watch horror movies are SO confident that they know everything there is to know about the genre. like it’s okay to not know things. it’s okay if you don’t like friday the 13th or whatever. i promise you don’t need to make an ass out of yourself on the internet about it
horror is an incredibly diverse genre, because there is potential horror in everything. it’s in nature, it’s in architecture and technology, it’s in human relationships, it’s in folklore, the past, the future, the mundane. there are horror movies from all over the world. it is straight up anti-intellectual to pretend that the handful of B slashers you’ve vaguely heard about comprise the totality of what horror has to offer. If you’re just not interested in horror, or if you dislike certain subgenres of horror, then that’s fine, you’re not obligated to like anything at all. but smugly announcing that you don’t like horror because you dislike a handful of VERY specific non-universal tropes is just as stupid as saying that you hate comedy because you don’t like adam sandler movies.
this is what I mean by anti-intellectualism btw
Horror does not tend to get me- in fact I tend to laugh at it- because it is trying so scare me, and I am just so completely aware that it's- well- separate from me. It is so hard to suspend disbelief with horror.
which means that when it works- oh when it works- it's always a very satisfying experience. It's so unique.
Horror movies that have gotten to me: the first "Smile." "Get Out." "The Others." "Alien" because that is not only Science Fiction, that's horror. "The Shining" is so good.
when horror hits, it's really fucking hits. It can birth franchises. Become instant classics.
I do think that the reputation of horror is, for some reason, so tied up with the slasher films and gore fests, that when a horror film incredibly suceeds and does not have those elements? People stop conceptualizing them as, in fact, horror.
"don't even get me started on the emergency contact of it all, oh man" may I interest you in,,, getting started on that 👀
well. y'know. since you asked 👀
knowing that it's actual, real life establish canon makes me feel insane honestly, like full on cuckoo bananas. it's like the writers dropped a load bearing lore pillar into their relationship and i'm support to be normal about that?
this is going to be long-winded, so...you have been warned lmao.
chances are we'll probably never ever get a full explanation of the whys and the whens outside of that one mention, but it's so important because it fully solidify something the show has given in drips and drabs so many times, moreso this season in particular, which is that jack and robby have years and years of history between them in and outside of the hospital and with that history has come understanding and a level almost thoughtless, second nature care that goes beyond friendly coworkers and teeters more firms into the 'close friends' territory at the very least and with this reveal maybe even solidifies 'best friends' (though i'd bet money robby would roll his eyes at the term and keep saying he didn't have one). even taking any shipping goggles off, this season establishes this specific friendship as maybe the singular closest within the general ensemble as of the end of the season and with the most evidence from canon to back that up.
without a doubt, the two people in the hospital who care about robby the most, who you could say genuinely love him and worry about his well being are dana and jack. they know this about one another too, and apparently often enough look to each other as touch points to keep an eye on robby. the show also backs up the idea that dana is aware that jack and robby are close, robby listens to jack, in situations where dana seems to think he will not listen to her. why that is, canon doesn't establish, but canon DOES very much establishes this is true. jack telling robby the hard truth about leah, jack telling robby to get some air after he yelled at gloria, jack breaking through robby's abject misery not once, but twice to pull him back from the ledge, all instances where anyone else would have hit the brick wall that is Chief of Emergency Medicine Michael Robinavitch. robby who is stubborn and a little bit of an asshole, and very territorial about his ED, hands it over to jack like it's no trouble at all, lets Jack take control gladly during the MCI. robby listens to jack's opinion during procedures and very clearly trusts his clinical decision making almost as much as his own, he's someone he doesn't have to babysit and it's a relief. they work together like one unit when they take on cases together, bantering (see: flirting) their way during traumas, seamlessly. they're equals, robby clearly considers them as such, and we as viewers have seen that robby viewing anyone as an equal is tantamount to adoration.
so even if we just look at them through the lense of their interactions as they relate to the hospital, well i mean, god damn, those are some compelling ass coworkers! but by making jack robby's emergency contact, the show has established something further, that this unsaid closeness goes BEYOND what has been seen on screen in the confines of the ED, and that the care between them is an implication, an afterthought, something long established and seldom discussed until it gets brought to the surface by robby's abnormal behavior. robby and dana absolutely have this too, i have no doubt they love and trust and respect each other and there absolutely is a relationship outside of the ED there, but this singular, specific detail is one of the only "officially" nods to an implied relationship with another ensemble character outside the ED for robby in particular, which i would say he really only had with with collins prior (heather collins i still think about you all the time 🥲).
robby who, has no wife, no kids, no dog, no family, though he clearly wanted them, robby who it wouldn't have been out of character to have done what louie did and make PTMC his emergency contact, instead jack is his emergency contact. and jack said "still" so it's clearly been that way for a while. the show will never tell us, it's not an important details, but if i had to guess i would say that jack and robby might have quarantined together during COVID, and it may have been in the aftermath of adamson's death and the one-two punch of that and jack's wife's dying that they decided to list each other for practicality. i'd bet money they didn't talk about it much, it was the sensible thing to do given their circumstances. it's also unclear if robby is also (still?) jack's emergency contact too. i'm 50/50 on that, part of me thinks not anymore and part of me thinks it's just another thing between them that they just don't talk about. "still" made me think that maybe jack expected robby to change it, after all this time and other seemingly serious relationships he's seen robby have, and robby just...never did. "still" almost felt like jack was reminding robby. "still" makes me thinks it's probably, up until this point, never been needed.
but establishing that as fact makes so. much. sense. robby seems to trust jack, willingly, with parts on himself he will not allow others to see unless his hand is forced. in s1, he TOLD jack about breaking down. jack didn't have to pull it out of him, it just flowed out of robby. "i choked", where he refused to even tell dana about what rumors that night shift nurse might have been spreading about him. robby has let himself cry in front of jack twice now. he's honest with him in ways i would bet money he doesn't trust himself to be with others because they're equals, to robby. robby generally seems to think his emotions, his grief are a burden and a weakness, and i can only imagine he would view someone having to show up for him, if he were hurt, as doubly so. but so much of robby's shit is jack's shit too and he gets it, maybe better than anyone in robby's circle, and robby seems to have internalized that. they both know they're different sides of the same fucked up coin, there is years of shared and individual trauma between them. their relationship is reciprocal, robby certainly worries about jack too, hell we open s1 with robby needing to be jack's support structure, but i'd wager not being direct with each other about the specificities of those worries is probably a central tenant of their friendship (they are, still, after all, two gen x dudes, though jack does seem more in touch with his emotions given the therapy of it all) and that being each others emergency contacts, at this point, is an out of sight out of mind thing.
anyway, all that is to say, i genuinely didn't think the show would go there and the fact that it did delights me. they could have kept jack and robby as this ambitious surface level "coworkers in arms" bit, but instead they gave them a shared, unspoken backstory. i love the implications of how deep their relationship is, i love there is a history there even if we never know it and i especially love that the show seems adamant to hammer home that of all people in the hospital these two guys seems to know each other the best, that they see each other and show up for each other. i could write hundreds of thousands of words about that because it truly endlessly compels me and i have so much to say about it.
and might, lets see how much my brain spins during the hiatus 🫣 lmao
Couple this with what-ever-the-fuck their reaction is when seeing each other flirt with women in general and the shipping goggles are so easy, like.