To fill the sil3nce (with myself)

Its honestly painful to look at this website... anyways stick around, or don't we don't care. [as]

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Moving accounts.

High key embarrassed by this one, not for any particular reason but I just don’t like it.

New at is @profoundislandvampire I’ll probably re post a few things from here but I’m making this for anyone wondering where I’ve gone to know.

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Most normal major to major interaction:

Me (drama majors) : *Starts singing 'the story of tonight' in the packed af train*

Friend (dance major): *Clearly embarrased but wont stop me because she thinks its funny asf, Giving me a face that screams keep going but shut up* you realize this is a public space

Me: shit this is a train "My bad babes, I genuinely cant restrain myself and in my defence neither can any drama major in school

Friend: *eyebrow raise* so this just happens a lot?

Me: Yeah you should've heard them at auditions yesterday someone started singing then it spread like and std in an underground club (worst joke I've ever told to any woman ever)

Friend: *Giggling like dance majors don't spontaneosly group dance if left idle for too long*

Me: *digging my own grave while trying to be witty* yeah its all "no ones watching me! I cant stand it" *starts riffing Defying gravity*

Friend: *Full on laughter, in public, from the same girl who dies of embarrassment over me once a week--like if this was a date, shed possiby call me back levels of laughter*

Me: their like "Im a Theater kid ™ shoot me!"

*mutual laughter persists, low-key feeling great till a guy in a fedora looks up at us from his seat and says: Im sorry, I didn't hear the first half all I heard was "I'm a drama majors shoot me?"

Me: *sweating cause he low-key sounded insulted proceeds to tell him everything word for word*

*dead silence for like 30 seconds*

Him: well actually that does sound like theater kids I'm gonna go back to *motions to phone*

Me:

Friend:

me: *If you can read my fricken mind now is the time to mention how further down the train is your exit*

Friend: hey my stops next lets go walk to the exit side *drags me away*

me:

friend:

Us:*Giggling too much to even talk as she gets off*

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That time I drevv some really snazzy fellovvs as vvhat I imagine theyd look like as yealokre characters

Needless to say I think it vvent vvell and I vvell not attempt this in yealokres artstyle because last time I tried my brain short circuted.

I tried to base it off the vibe Dunia_57 and Safiritheliontherian's posts gave me. specifically I actually found videos of them doing the harpy hare trend and like in the first one too the raccoon fur davy crockett they vvere vvearing to choose an animal then played on the stuff i think vvere very raccoon core.

um the undershirt is lace edged because I vvas thinking about hovv boys in the vvhenevers (50s I think) vvould get their shirts laced edged by their mothers so they'd tuck in their shirts but then it became a fashion thing I think idk I think that last bit vvasnt true but the kid looked ridiculously pleased vvith hist lace edged shirt.

coat is very much ringleader core vvhich I don't remember vvhy but I think its more of a "my Pinterest inspo page vvas all old circus clothes" there's evidence of patching up on it too

bro vvears glasses so theres an interesting glasses chain made of trinkets

the hipscarf is like very pirate core vvhich is vvhat I think raccoons could be and attatched to it is a raccoon tail keychain

anyvvays that's that

for Safiri I thought that her videos vvere very energetic (shes got videos of her doing quads and thats very impressive to me)

Its a little more toned dovvn but still playful .

a blovvout I savv on Pinterest once vvas super lion core so I did that.

thers a super large bovv vvith a bell and its over a spiky sun collar thing (I don't remember the thought process)

the sleeves are copy pasted from snovv vvhite vvho actually had nothing to do vvith thiss but I needed cute sleeves and those vvere perfect actually I think its implied that it vvas taken from an old costume and sevvn on but theyre orange and yelllovv I think. Its a simple shirt vvith some patching done.

the pants are also simple vvith ribbon making the ruffles (got this out of a diy Tshirt book I think)

the shoes are yellovv rainboots vvith painted pavvs

the gloves and tail both have bovvs and bells (I tried really hard not to use bells cause yk clementines the bell ringer and I hate to impose but I think I gave up because the idea of her jingling as she danced vvas much stronger)

ohhhh before I forget shes got muddy pavvs shoes and knees from doing lion stuff in the rain.

so yeah this is at least a year and a bit old I just forgot to cross post to here as vvell..

edit: mmmm-by the way their circus based that was the point and my w and q keys are broken on my other computer thus vv

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WOOHOO I WIN I WIN I WIN I WIN

The first win for a couple of months and it came just before my birthday (16th of march yes even i forgot and i celebrated that night even saw a bunny outside) so Happy birthday to me and have some prototype art,

Called gaia in reference to the goddes and as a general reference to the fertility godesses and to the earth mother.

I was really going by vibes alone so her ribs become raw flesh becomes bones and gives way to a floating (possibly glowing) fetus that she holds (using this term loosley cause shes holding her stomach) with one hand.

at her feet a tree (tree of kife mentioned) grows leaning towards her outstretched hands as do all the other plants, in the dirt encased in roots is the bones of a dinosaur.

i lied yall shes waliking through water and letting it run through her fingers

no roots to her hair cause it looks cool like the sun is shining through her.

its sorta supposed to represent the begining of new life under just the right conditions, sun high and water cool greenery just out of veiw but a world fresh for shaping into something great or whatever..

was meant to be in this style i typically see a few very specific comic book artists on youtube use and will later be inked like one if i can convince myself i wont accidentally destroy it XD

got some cool shit lined up if i remember to post it starting with a battle vest and ending in my very epic ocs for ATSV, TMNT and Star trek (With backstories and a link to the fics i couldnt help myself from writing)

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sneak peak at my battle jacket idea ( I call it sneak peak cause you cant really read my notes but dw I'll writen them down later)

but if you can read my chicken scratch revel in its full glory neow

im making a battle vest design too but I'm penning it out so you can actually see what's happening.

it says coquette at the top because I was planning on lace edging most of everything to hide my shitty stch jobs but i mocked up a super cute replacement idea called "put spikes on fucking everything" instead.

i was thinking the rib parts have white painted studs but I gotta *gags* hem it by hand.

back left^

front right^ (purposeful opposites)

can have pins on the "bone" prts and patches under the ripps so I can stay toasty

chains are kinda heavy so I might use something else or see if my neighbor has any plastic ones left from her Halloween party that I could age with paint. but then again I might just use chains as planned cause second son(ifykyk).

i also thought of Percy Jackson while I was making this and in turn the Bermuda triangle and in turn the thing that swallows them up and thought of arranging the spikes kinda like that on my left shoulder or maybe its more like a sand worm from dune.. I dunno I just thought it looked epic.

thers also the matter of the spine thingy

if I do t-rex spikes I thought of arranging the spikes on the hood like a liberty (?) hawk with various siizes for the hood spikes but similar sized spikes for the back. which is the cooler option cause I wanted to do a spine for my other design..

idk what I wanna put for patches when it comes to fandoms and music because I don't like any one band. I'm like a musical skank, I'll put it in my play list and enjoy it for a bit but while I look up on the interviews n shit but Im probably listening to another band and forgetting you even existed as I do. except SOAD and wu-tang. In terms of things I like its all just marvel and DC, cant play games a lot cause I haven't any time to set it up an my mom just gets pissed at me for playing, only really like horror games but have no way to buy them (my dad has them on a little USB but he doesnt have time to get me more :c ) I also don't have any friends who wanna come to my place to play multiplayer horror games with me (we would be in my my bedroom or even at their place and I could lug my jailbroken ps4, normal switch or normal ps5 with me after swearing up and down to my dad that his baby [the ps5] would return home safely) so I just don't feel like playing alone so I don't even though I do want to. I guess I could do borderlands and resident evil and maybe a couple slasher and creepypasta ones in liu of 9 year old me (get it?) anyhow I still got a bunch ideas for patches besides that stuff and as of late have no prospects for starting this project so bleh.

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Tough crowd eh?

fine I'll shed my skin and try digital art with my shitty free pixlr and the pen tablet that's hiding and I'll probably be ok at it too! I think..

Anyways my geography teacher calls me to his desk today and says in a low voice like its a big secret

"I got your IEP (Individual Education Plan) it says here you have gifted..ness?"

I kid you not you would think this man had just found out that im terminally ill. Mr James, bless him, said that he just wanted to make sure he was enriching me enough and that if I got too bored he'd give me more enriching work.

EDIT: for got to post this thee months ago. for the record I did not ask for harder work barely finished my culminating task but scraped a 95 compared to the drab 70s of the rest of my report card

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ISNT SHE SO FREAKING PERFECT SHES A TURTLE!!! AND THIS IS YOUR SNEAK PEEK AT MY MORE RECENT SKETCHBOOK ENDEVOURS!

so it’s basically a draw this in someone else’s style but the this is me and other peoples art styles is anyone and anything I find interesting such as and not limited to: Soddiken, random thumbnail, kinda niche Alice in wonderland indie game that you should go support , my little pony, 2000s anime more thing, yaelokre, lavender towne and more!

the game is habromania. I don’t really know what niche means, and it’s still in development so go check it out fall in love and come back by Tuesday for my reveal.

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HEAR YE HEAR YE!

I have successfully become a drama major. BUT! Not without difficulty.

I got formally accepted into the {imagine a super cool modern architecture digest looking ahh} School of the arts for my second choice {drama} as my first choice {visual arts} was stuffed full

Anyways don't know if I mentioned it but I went from a shitty school full of my friends to a less shitty gifted school full of strangers {who ill never talk to again} for a year and after that went straight into the school ive been dreaming of. Heres the but{t}. most unfortunately the gifted school gave my paperwork to the wrong school so i couldnt attend till the last two days {of four} because one school said "we tried to tell em"{the one i wanted to attend} and the other said "their being shady and backhanded we dont think you can attend there" {the school i dont want to attend}. BUt like who cares though cause im in and im having a blast.

anyways going on like a camping trip for three days {starts tomorrow} but I'm so sick that I dont think I can go but idk. and so Im watching young Sheldon as my cold lets up an my tea brews but then it hit me. Georgie cooper (Montana Jordan) is growing into Chris Pratt. Don't believe me? look at this

Maybe it’s the fever but I’m sure of it anyways I’m gonna sleep for a year bye now.

von-Lilith

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I was thinking about welcome home and I realize it’s high time I actually posted my one welcome home oc but eh 🤷🏽‍♀️

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LOOK AT IT AND WEEP

(Lin good morning and goodnight tweets but their wallpapers)

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yippee! its the beggining of my sketch book (better stuff inside)

this is just me and my three best friends Roblox characters we haven't had a lot of contact now but next year we'll be in the same high school! (well two of us four still gotta convince one of em because the others doing alt school 😔)

if it looks like shit its the camera my dudes

It’s me and my friends 2023 rblx characters

Ignore my thumb babes.

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Horror movies recs?!?!

I wont sugar coat it I got a list

killer klowns from outer space

the scream franchise

the saw franchise

the Friday the thirteenth franchise

nightmare on elm street

and I got a bunch of non horror movies I wanna watch but I need someone to tell me what the "classics" are when it comes to movies

what do you think is a movie that's "you haven't lived till you watched" worthy?

gonna start posting my art soon just gotta.. y'know.. art stuff...

should I post reviews on movies and shows cause I need to talk about dungeon meshi and my boring "I dont watch anime" "oh do you mean animation?' friends don't cut it.

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Have you figured outhow to get popular on here yet?

Hahahaha... No but I have figured out how to push it a bit more! Im gonna link it to my tiktok and basically all of my social media and pray that it finds the right people.

I suppose Ill start posting more of my art here I've been working on a peice that I think might get Tumblr a bit more interested.. Thanks for asking!

Love ya,

Von-lilith

P.s if your curious my TikTok is d3c4y1ng_c0rps3s (I know its super friggin unnescasary but I've memorized it) My watpad is Matr1xey and my Ao3 is Matrixey (i make bad name choices)

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ARGHHHHH

Does anyone have like old clothes they don't want that are like Jorts or embroidered jeans in like size 29,30,31 men or 5,6,7 women in like Toronto man? I'll even bus to your place but man I am fifty shades of broke teen and would kill for clothes that make me comfortable. like JNCO jeans and shit like this. because tell me why they sell in the hundreds? (AliExpress looking tempting as hell and I'm trying not to give in)

or does anyone know where I can buy these or what thrift stores locations are good to shop at for stuff like it my mom said she might take me thrifting but fuck if I know where to go. I've kinda been feeling this Rokku gyaru, Punk mall goth, generally alt fusion style I made up in my head but I have no skirts or clothes in general that make the cut and even tho I'm more masc presenting a girls gotta have options so please. Black, white or plaid mini skirts; maxi skirts of any kind and baggy jeans in general. Or like point me to the nearest yard sale or thrift stores in your area. Also where do y'all get your arm warmers and leg warmers at DECENT prices (under 10 bucks man).

Luv ya,

Von-Lilith

p.s I was so nervous to post this and I used to be able to talk about anything online please be nice to me I still cry when I approach attractive people

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How do you get Tumblr famous?

Like do you have a guide or should I just go through life waiting to blow up or smth.

luv ya!

Von-lilith

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You ever just..

Look through your old tumblr blog and want to give yourself an a for effort but simultaniosly throw up. thats what im feeling.

Ok Im HORRIBLE at keeping track of things, as you can see if youve looked through my trashy (in a good way?) blog, And ive lost a book title so if anyone can help me heres what i remember.

Theres a pack of wolves and the book is mostly from their perspective. They go through a harsh winter at some point and their cubs cant feed from their mothers so they *inhales in disgusted* feed off of the adult wolves predigested food (i think they press against their muzzle or smth and it triggers a response) Two of the male wolves (brothers i think) are in this rivalry of sorts where one of them is constanlty trying to do better. And then i remember they both have cubs at different times and that theres this familial den or smth that one of the mothers dont wanna use because it smells like the other mother and her cubs.

but theres a lot of blanks and i really wanna read this again so please if you know tell me asap.

Love ya!

- Von-Lilith <3

(EDIT: FOUND IT ITS JULIE OF THE WOLVES)

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HELP WHY IS IT SO SAD??!

Spoilers for Watching and Dreaming. The final episode of the owl house.

SO I WAS WATCHING THE LAST EPISODE OF THE OWL HOUSE AND IT ENDS WITH THEM SAYING BYEE TO US THE VIEWERS AND NOW IM SOBBING CAUSE I KNOW UNLESS GOD GRACES THE PERSON WHO CANCELED THE SHOW WITH SOME BRAINS WE WONT GET MORE OF THIS WHOLESOME SHIT AND I WANNA SCREAM LAUGH AND SOB HYSTERICALLY UNTIL MY HEART POUNDS BECAUSE OF IT