In a nutshell I was an absolutely different person until, at the age of 16, I decided to move abroad and start to live on my own. The first year was fine I was living at boarding school, people around me were all so friendly, and most importantly being bored wasn't defined for me. Then I moved to London and started to live on my own, I had no friends whats o ever and it felt like everyone at uni had their own company so no one needed me! My life becomes a hell, I turned on to emotional eating, the moment I felt like I was gaining weight I started to starve myself, my life was out of norm, I stopped having my period, my hormones were out of whack, my skin and hair became terrible. I became a different person. I no longer knew myself. I became so moody, lost all my friends back home. I started to hate myself for what I've done to my life, for my stupid decision. I kept telling everyone how much I HATE LONDON. My 19th birthday was possibly the worst day of my life. I was all alone in my studio, thinking "heck, no one cares about me why the should I care about myself?" I turned on to BINGE EATING. I became bulimic, I had darker days to come. I used to binge, purge, restrict, exercise my ass of! My stupid gyno put me on birth control pills since I didn't get my cycle for like a year and it drove me CRAZY. I kept gaining weight but I couldn't care less. Then around October 2012, I came across this website called 30 Bananas a Day. I was so messed up that I gave into a crazy idea like that. It took over my life! I gained 20lbs of pure fat, had the worst break out I have ever had in my life. My mom kept telling me "you're messing up your liver, stop what you're doing." But I didn't listen. People on that forum kept convincing me that it will get better, it a natural sign of my body detoxingitself. Little did I know, my mom was right, I was diagnosed with non alcoholic fatty liver disease because of eating way,TOO MUCH fructose, my poor body could NOT handle it. After 6 months I stopped what I was doing, and my parents stayed 21 days with me over the easter holidays. They just left yesterday :) During these good 21 days I was eating naturally, what I used to eat, occasionally I had some sweets or even one day my mom and I split a delicious Belgian waffle topped with vanilla ice cream and chocolate sauce between us! I noticed that I was eating intuitively. I also stopped doing cardio over the holidays and my parents we telling me that I look much slimmer!
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