Talking about racism without being a "good white person".
One of the hardest things for me as a white anti-racist is to remember to always implicate myself.
There is always a strong pull to try and be the "good white person" and to think that if you say and do all the right things you can transcend your whiteness. Well of course this isn't true ... it's literally impossible to benefit from white supremacy if you have any degree of whiteness, and so by definition that makes you complicit ... like if a robber sells you a stolen bike, ethically you're at least partly guilty of the theft, even if you didn't know it was stolen.
So it's a start to admit to and claim your white privlidge. Unfortunately this isn't where the "good white person" complex ends. In fact people find it relatively easy to admit white privlidge, because it doesn't seem like an issue of personal respnosibility (even though I believe it is, like with the stolen bike).Â
Bigotry is the big elephant in the room in post-civil rights "colourblind" white socities. As I learnt when I took the Undoing Racism workshop at NCORE this year, the colourblind ideology arose a direct result of civil rights legislation. The idea is that in order to be prosecuted for a civil rights violation, the case must pass the "Intend Doctrine" -- this is actually a thing, look it up. So you actually have to have said something bigoted in order to be sued. If you don't say anything bigoted, then the law doesn't consider you racist.Â
So of course white kids are taught from a young age to be colorblind and "not see race" -- our parents are trying to protect us (and protect white supremacy) from getting caught by civil rights laws. So my generation grows up thinking we're not bigots. But of course we are, we're just trained to keep it all secret.Â
And it's really hard to admit your own BIGOTRY, past or present. As soon I Â started learning about how racism actually operates ... for example through microagressions, I started pretending that I'd always known, and that that somehow made me to superior to other white people who didn't know about race or were just starting to learn (supposedly unlike me who's been learning about race for a whole 18 months or so?!) And it's really bad to not do this. Because if you're serious about being an anti-racist, you can't distance yourself from other white people, becauase it's not all about you, you need to build a sense of solidarity with other white people,Â
So my resolution has been that whenever I call out racism, as much as I can I will admit to an aspect of my own bigotry, whether it's something that I used to think before I learned about race theory, or whether it's something I still struggle with.Â
For example last night I surprised my friends by admitting that I used to be bigoted against Asian people, partly because my highschool was so white that I didn't know any, partly because of my parents, and partly because I was just a little shit. Well it wasn't an easy thing to admit, it actually still hurts (how shit is that ... but it proves how invested even us "good whites" are to white supremacy underneath all our self-righteousness).
So I had to give up being a somehow superior person and go back being just like my friends who are learning togther. But then as a consequence we went on to have a really good conversation abut race, and my friends were a lot more relaxed and open, and less defensive, and also I think we'll be more ready to talk about race in the future. Of course I can't forget my resolution!