moonkept secrets

all the things I couldn't tell you, I told the moon

[a-mind-in-ruins]

Enough to catch your eye, not enough for you to stay.

[moldavite]

hopefully i'll get to do something other than endure soon. that would be really nice

[thoughtcascades]

i am tired of almost. almost happy. almost loved. almost understood. almost safe. almost myself

[moonkept-secrets]

I should have left a scar on you. a bite mark or the drag of a nail... something, anything. a proof of some kind that you were mine once.

[poisonintheink]

my broken pieces flow to your shore /

— ʀ.ᴛ.

[mournfulroses]

Sylvia Plath, from a letter to Ann Davidow-Goodman written c. 1951, featured in The Collected Letters

[talking-to-the-sun]

for a while, i truly believed that you could love me.

[rbncxs]

in another life, you stayed and I never had to let you go.

[fortheartsofnone]

The spaces between my fingers know yours are missing

It’s the kind of empty you can feel without ever being felt

[moonkept-secrets]

something tells me that your fingerprints will forever be etched into my heart

[moonkept-secrets]

no matter how hard i try, i cannot find something that gives me the same high as eye contact with you

[moonkept-secrets]

I think the girl I love isn't being honest with me. Maybe she isn't being honest with herself. I guess my question is. What keeps you? You speak of a love that you seem to still have affection for. Yet distance yourself from. Why? I think she does the same. I just have a hard time understanding I guess.

not every two people are the same so I cannot say for sure that my reason for distancing from love would be the same as hers.

for me, it didn't work because of timing. the love i write about came to me at a time when i wasn't ready for it to become serious, while my partner was confident in the future they were hoping to build. our priorities misaligned, so unfortunately we had to let one another go. i'm left with bittersweet feelings because i never had the courage to confess why i was afraid of their fast pace, and they didn't have the patience to wait for me to grow comfortable enough to explain all the emotional baggage and fears holding me back.

i'm no love expert whatsoever but i think there should be a good balance between encouraging communication, and understanding the need for breathing space in a relationship. try to talk to your girl when she is in the mood to talk, but don't pressure her to open up as it may just push her further away. when she is comfortable, i'm sure she'll share her thoughts with you.

i hope you guys can work things out 🤞

[thoughtcascades]

sometimes i miss who i was before i had to become so careful

[thoughtcascades]

i want to be wanted so deeply that my overthinking finally shuts up

[a-mind-in-ruins]

Loving you was ruining me.

[thoughtcascades]

this heart is tired of running on empty

[moonkept-secrets]

i hope that on the days you cross my mind, i visit yours too