y’all mad at ellen for asking that question but y’all out here writing and reading smut. you literally be imagining about bts fucking you....stfu uglies
"the feeling is reckless of knowing your selfish and knowing i’m desperate." [x]
inspired by sza “the weekend” 💛
"When are you going to let him go?"
You heard this question way too often. Your best friend was constantly reminding you of how stupid you looked to be chasing after him. After all, you weren't the only girl he was fucking with.
When you found out that Taehyung was talking to 2 other girls you broke down. It was a Saturday night and you two was laying in bed with nothing on underneath. You reached over to grab his chin and pull him into a kiss.
BUZZ! BUZZ!
He pulled away to sit up and reach for his phone that was laying on the dresser beside him. You watched as the muscles in his back flexed. The veins that was running through his arms. The sweat that was resting on his collar bone. You gently smiled and pulled the sheets closer to your chin.
“Hello?” His voice was rough and hoarse.
You blinked a few times as you thought you heard a females voice through the receiver.
You quickly sat up and craned your neck to look at him. His eyes found their way to look at you. Hair had fallen over your forehead and eyes but your lips were pinched together as if you ate something sour. He used his thumb to turn down the volume on his phone.
His lips turned up to smile a little. Your guessing the girl on the phone told him something he liked.
“Yeah, uh- I’ll see about that. I’ll see you Monday.”
“Such a fucking asshole.” You shook your head as you started to scoot to the edge of the bed.
Taehyung leaned back on the headboard as he watched you get dressed. He sighed and shook his head as he spoke up,
“How am I an asshole ______?”
You ignored him and looked around for you silk blouse. From the corner of your eye you saw him get up from the bed. He made his way to grab you and pull you into his body.
“Tell me baby,” He hummed in your ear.
Letting out a shaky breath, you closed your eyes as he kissed your neck.
“Who was that?” Silence.
If he wasn’t as close as he was he probably wouldn’t have been able to hear you.
“Do you love me?” You asked another question.
He pulled away from you as soon as the word love came out of your mouth. Your heart dropped at his reaction and the silence. You turned around slowly. He had a frown on his face as he looked passed you and into the window.
“I’m going to be honest right now.” He scratched at his neck. He finally looked at you.
“Taehyung please...” You started to shake your head as tears fell down your cheeks.
Your vision was blurry and it felt like drums was beating in your ears. Still, you could see his mouth open to say the one thing that you was dreading to hear.
“She’s my other girlfriend.”
After that, you vowed to never speak to him again. Your bestfriend came over to pick you up that night. She also attempted to key his car but you pulled her away and was able to have her drive you home. You blocked his number and deleted everything that related to him. You blocked him on ever social site that he had you on.
Soon after you kept seeing his friends around everywhere. Jungkook especially, asked you what happened between you two but you acted like you was unsure of what he was speaking of. He handed you his phone so you could put your number in. You blinked and your face started to get hot. You shook your head as if you were actually dating someone.
“Friends can’t have each other’s number?”
You paused to look at him then his phone before taking it and hesitantly tapped your number in. He smiled and shook his head as he gave you a hug and walked off.
2 months after that, the word got around that Taehyung was seeing two girls. We’re you shocked? Not at all. We’re you hurt? As hell. You ended up breaking down all over again. This time you didn’t call your bestfriend.
You called Taehyung.
Now you’re sitting here, A few weeks after that phone call, trying to explain it to your bestfriend.
“It’s just sex.” You shurgged as if it was no big deal.
“And you’re just stupid.”
“Excuse me?” You furrowed your eyebrows and sat up in your bed.
Your bestfriend crossed her arms and leaned back into the computer chair.
“You look stupid having sex with him on the weekend as he goes out and treats these other girls like their royalty throughout the week.”
You shook your head and got out of bed. You walked over to your closet to find something to wear.
Rolling your eyes, you spoke with so much confidence as the words left your mouth, “You’re acting like I care, I don’t.”
“You should. Do you know how many guys will kill to be with you!? But you’re letting a fuckboy use you whenever he’s tired from his other girls. Gosh! Do you know how crazy that sounds!?”
You snatched a shirt off from a hanger as you faced your bestfriend. Your mouth felt dry as you started to yell back, making excuses for Taehyung.
“What do you want me to do Y/BF/N? I’m fucking desperate!” You cried.
She looked at you, mouth opening to yell something else. The tears that was threatening to fall from your eyes made her close her mouth and walk closer to you.
She engulfed you in a hug as you cried in her shoulder.
“I love him...” You sniffled.
“No you don’t. You love the thought of him.” She rubbed your back.
“...and maybe his dick.” She shrugged.
You instantly giggled and moved from her shoulder so you could slap her there.
“I hate you.”
“Oh welll,” She smiled and patted your cheek.
She walked back to where her stuff was and grabbed it, “I have to go, call me babe!” She waved and walked out the room while softly shutting it behind her.
You sighed and tossed the shirt back in your closet before walking out and going ti your phone that was laying on the bed. You laid on your stomach as you picked it up to reply back to messages.
Jungkook☺️: wyd today?
Tae 😛💓: can you come over tonight? i miss you 😘
You bit your lip, deciding on who you was going to reply to. The words that your bestfriend said minutes before this replayed in your head. Your fingers moved to type back a message.
‘i’ll be there at 10. i miss you more ❤️’
soo uhm how was this? lol feedback will be so greatly accepted. thank you for reading, xo!
As you drive me to my house
I can't stop these silent tears from rolling down
You and I both have to hide on the outside
Where I can't be yours and you can't be mine
“That was a fun date huh?” Joshua squeezed your hand while keeping his eyes on the road.
You nodded, eyes piercing through the window to look at the city lights flashing across the streets. It was past midnight and the streets seemed pretty empty. A perfect time it seemed for Joshua to take you out on a date. You two could never go out in day time, never be seen with each other just because of who you were.
“You’re so quiet...why?” The car came to halt. You was now in front of your small home that was blurry in your eyes because of the sudden emotions overpowering you.
You shook your head, pulling at the door handle to get out the thick atmosphere,”Nothing Josh, i’l see you next time.”
“Josh? Next time? Baby what’s wrong?” He pulled at my hand.
Your eyes finally landed on him and his heart was broken at the sight. His girl was crying so hard that she was breathing more heavy then before. Her eyes was bloodshot red.
“I can’t do this anymore,” You cried.
Joshua wasted no time of getting out the car and walking over to your side, opening the door and pulling you up to him. His arms were secured around your body, muttering ‘shhss’ and ‘I know, i know’ over and over again.
“I promise you one day we won’t have to do this anymore.”
Seokmin ♡
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours
Here you were, about to go on stage with your boyfriend to perform a ballad. You looked over at the grinning boy to make sure he was ready. He looked around for his manager before dashing over to you.
“Good luck love, i’ll be right there.” He hurriedly placed his lips on your heated forehead before running back to his spot.
You were a blushing mess with all the stares that you were getting from bystanders that were passing by backstage. When the MC’S called you two out on stage, the only thing you could hear in your mind was what Seokmin had told you. You walked out to all the cheers and clapping.
Midway through the song you were starting to get emotional. Not bu the song but by the fact that this was your boyfriend you was singing with but you would never be able to actually say that. You would never be able to just walk closer to him and pull him into a kiss that you were waiting for. You was longing for his touch but the fans couldn’t know that. A tear fell down your cheeks as you missed a line. Seokmin covered it for you but walked closer to you to rub your back. That’s all he could do.
After finishing the song, you rushed off stage.
“Y/N!”
You ignored him as you ran away from everything. You just wanted things to be normal.
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