I lack the proper language to fully transcribe the thoughts
But the way years of being around online people has melted my brain into a soup of seething hate for them
The way people will claw their way through anything in order to justify their predispositions with a shred of moral high ground
The way I clawed my way out of the hell that was right wing spaces with so much hope, those people were insufferable, they were stuck in a loop of thoughtless lobotomite rage bait, I could not bear them because they were incapable of sincerity or original thought
I thought that I was heading for something better, that I could meet better people, that I would finally be free of reactionary bullshit.
The last ten years have worn me down to the bone. It's the same. It's the same everywhere. But somehow, somehow the progressives are worse. The online queers, leftists, etc. They have embodied the dunning kreuger effect far better than any right wing moron ever could. They have grasped a child's understanding of progressive terminologies and intersectionality, they have learned the basics of critical analysis.
And they weaponize it.
So often I see it, 'progressives' desperately trying to justify anything by grabbing a microscope and trying their hardest to character-assassinate a victim, reactionary tendencies dressed up in faux woke or progressive language, unironic bigotry justified with fake definitions of racism and so on. They have gained a kindergartner's understanding of 'progressivism' by reading theory and leaving it at that, they've read some books, therefore they're better than liberals.
The thing I hate above all else is a lack of principles. If you have no principles, you can justify anything, and by god can these insufferable fucks justify fucking anything.
I thought socialism or just some socialist tendencies would come with some goddamn principles, that these people could understand simple concepts, that I could finally escape the self perpetuating rage cycle that right wingers loved so goddamn much, but I can't. It's everywhere. These fucking people are my age and ostensibly leftists and yet every single god damn fucking time they see a tweet even vaguely justifying a predisposition they had, they internalize it immediately.
I spent so many years looking forward to the day I'd get to be free of the bullshit, the day I could finally say something and not be met with an infant's concept of a retort.
Oh, did my opinion contain a mildly inaccurate detail that was left there for brevity, because it's not entirely worth the time to clarify everything? "Clearly," they think, "I should point out this mild error in this conversation and focus on that, rather than the actual point being made, and then get indignant and/or offended if you refuse to engage with me."
I thought I would be fucking free of this.
I saw a post about a fursuit maker taking the suit they made for someone, that was paid for, and putting it up for sale because they were mad at the client. Shitty behavior, yes, but this happens.
Then I saw the numerous people trying to justify it because the client had feral art in their likes.
They claw and claw through anything they can, they dig and bite and scratch and hunt for any shred of justification, any sliver of a moral high ground they can seize to clamber upon and scream at people below them, these are just tertiary examples of bullshit I see every fucking day, the slow erosion of trust I have in those around me, the constant reminders that the people I associate with have no fucking critical thinking skills, planting a seed in my mind a decade ago that festered and seethed until it grew and strained against its shell and cracked into the boiling hate of a thought,
What community is there to be had among vultures.
