ARE YOU READY FOR THE RUPTURE?

fetus in fetu fetishizer | adult

[morphinefiend]

seth | bodily fluids & melodic black metal enjoyer | biblical older brother | hoplophiliac on the archive

[livejournallegacy]

geoff during the recording of Demolition Lovers

[morphinefiend]

in ‘tardive dyskinesia,’ when g admitted to m that he “thinks the way guys get horny is scary,” all i could think about is 1) the uniquely feminized violence someone with his quirks and appearance might encounter, because (and youve talked about this before) he’s clearly something a little different from most men and they can Smell That and 2) how later, when ‘menacing his baby brother with his dick’ (such a gorgeous line, teddy bear stuffing) he almost blacks out, or tries to claim he has, dissociating the violent sexual outburst he’s having on an incapacitated person from himself, because deep down he cannot accept himself as a scary, horny man. is this because it’s m? or is it because it’s g?

i think the ways get so much more interesting when we consider the trickle down effects of sexual violence from g (by whoever you want it to be hurting) to m, and how he seems to expand upon and Extrapolate the intensity of the violence he’s experienced on him just because mikey is ‘willing’ and he Can. you’d think he couldn’t find a bigger bomb. cord in those delicious gender-issue induced force fem ideations you’ve played with, maybe with a dash of that ‘hypersexuality-fever-stretched-into-love’ sort of territory you’ve touched on and i think you’ve built an extremely interesting, unpredictable malformation of victim turned abuser

your mind… big fan

AHAHA!!! YES!! i think an innate aversion to overt masculinity and an automatic association between maleness & sexual violence is integral to G’s character, ramping up as he gets older and more jaded with the hardcore adjacent scene. this can be interpreted as dysphoria or disillusionment with masculinity as the ideal (i like to do a little bit of both but it’s up to the reader what they see) as he took a lot of blows early on just because he was the most effeminate public-facing figure (HC & its spawn was and is a boys’ club) the masses could find. i’m so happy you sniffed that out.

mikey, at least my interpretation of him, takes whatever G gives to him no matter what. he doesn’t fight much and he would never tell for a dozen reasons (emotional & financial bondage) and he isn’t going to ask why because there was never a reason in the beginning beyond hormones. G’s violence boiled him like a frog. sexual aggression trickling down to him from G just sort of melds together with the generic homophobia he faces from the masses for presenting the way he does/did then he repeats the cycle with whoever he can find that sits lower on the totem pole of social power (younger women/teenage fangirls)

[morphinefiend]

another throwback: gerard calling himself "a nice guy"

#borntobeanincelforcedtobeaheartthrob

[sandmandaddy69]

[goodanddead]

Killing Flies - Michael Dickman

[opendirectories]

[entrailhump]

Ulla Jokisalo, Saldo, 1989 - 1992.

[xbleachx]

we need more tbp sisters

😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[sosaysdean]

what do they have going on

[morphinefiend]

waycesties on top this year

[morphinefiend]

i hope they kissed one night for the first time in over a decade and it didn’t feel the same

[morphinefiend]

waycesties on top this year

[teomodo]

i cant get over this post

[pinkyplonk]

Personally a big fan of these sunglasses

[000rrx]

[morphinefiend]

is there a new fic in the works? so intrigued by your brain

a few a few i’ve been really struggling to write (life stuff/busy busy/lack of discipline) so i’ve just been staring at four different drafts tweaking sentences ad infinitum and never adding much of substance as of late.. it doesn’t help that they’re all rather long and involve things happening over extended time periods rather than scenes just contained to one location/day like i’m comfortable with. i’m still writing i prommy

[morphinefiend]

thanks for reminding me to get back to work anon here’s something

[acorpseinthisbed]

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