Morsicant

morsicant (mors) | she/her | huge nerd | furry

[coffeechicken]

HOUNDOOM (woof) 🔥

[mossy-cobble]

crazy how i find myself thinking i've got a handle on it all finally and then i see the ways that other people tangle their lives together so easily and live so easily together with their friends and i feel like that girl at the top of the stairs painting by norman rockwell

[mossy-cobble]

i'll always be here

[morsicantnottisaz]

I had a nightmare a few days ago where my ex drove by my house. I was watching through the window. He looked at me and then made out with multiple friends in the car. I woke up to his work alarm going off. I sat there with my heart racing, trying not to tear up from anger.

He would never do that in real life. He does not feel hate or anger towards me. He regrets hurting me and he tells me that every time we talk about the break up. We still love each other and we're trying not to. I'm trying so hard to move on.

The worst part is the dreams. Or the thoughts in the middle of the night when I can't sleep. My brain telling me about how happy he's going to be now that he's free from me. And how miserable I am.

My last dream with him, we were friendly. He called me "baby" and I was finally able to look at him and say "No, you can't call me that anymore." And that was the first dream I can remember where we were friendly and broken up. It's always either antagonistic and vengeful or sweet and loving, and I wake up wishing it was real.

[morsicantnottisaz]

I've talked to almost everyone I know who cares about me. Mostly it's "I'm here if you need to talk" but I've also gotten a lot of actually deep and good conversations. The first week or so it felt like my entire world was ending. I'm not even joking, I lost interest in everything suddenly. I couldn't eat or sleep. My anxiety that had been buried when we got together fully erupted and I couldn't breathe automatically. I woke up over and over with my heart racing. The pit where it was making me want to throw up.

I've cried more in our X years together than I did for the rest of my life combined. And it was mostly tears of joy or appreciation or fear that one of us would die one day and leave the other one grieving. I never imagined that he would just. Go numb. And fake it. For Years.

While I was proclaiming my love. Clinging to his arm. Ever-grateful that my love for him didn't dim as the years went by. His did. And he told himself it didn't. He told me that he was finally ready to marry me. We just happened to never get around to figuring out rings or where to propose.

[morsicantnottisaz]

So I've just now realized that I can shout into the void on this site. And given I'm going through the worst breakup I'll ever have, I think I'll start exercising that right. Shoutout to my ex that unfollowed me so I can cry about it without making things worse.

[morsicantnottisaz]

If anyone who follows me - who isn't a bot - just wanted cute pokemon stuff, here's your warning in the middle of the night. This is a grief expression blog now. Sorry.

[morsicantnottisaz]

So I've just now realized that I can shout into the void on this site. And given I'm going through the worst breakup I'll ever have, I think I'll start exercising that right. Shoutout to my ex that unfollowed me so I can cry about it without making things worse.

[t1ny69fr0g]

[kitsydoodles]

stars and glitter

[morsicantnottisaz]

I'm in a rough spot. Umbreon is my favorite pokemon. This made me feel a little better. Thank you

[lgbt-aesthetics]

Demigirl + Eeveelutions Icons

Please reblog and credit me if you use!

more pride Eeveelutions here!

[morsicantnottisaz]

Oh absolutely!

[mh-a-day]

[morsicantnottisaz]

My favorite! There it is! It used to be Gigginox (fingers crossed about Wilds Ascendance), but the Rotten Vale is just too good

[sapphirobot]

my magneton pokesona

[izzypaw]

for the houndoom fans

[floofspamspokemon]

I found old art again!!

basically what i imagine being a pokemon trainer would be like.. I am pushing my fuzzy umbreon agenda. no smooth umbreons in this house

[zilluzion]

sippy 🧃

sketch for september

[therandomray-artz]

eeveelution sleepover

[jadeazora]

Sylveon just completely ignoring that toy in favor of attacking the pillow 😂

Some accompanying artwork too from the PokeTimes Twitter!

[pawchouli]

You’ll never guess my favorite Pokémon…

“I’m the Bidoof trainer your professor warned you about”

Extremely rare non-furry post but I wanted to draw a trainersona after the announcement of generation 10 with Pokémon winds and waves. So here’s my trainer with all of their little guys. The Pokémon’s names are as follows:

- The shiny Bidoof on the left is Mr. Ooferson (aka Jeremy)

- The Bibarel is Bigger Oof (aka Kyle)

- Around my shoulders is Bidoobert (aka Lazy Ricky)

- The one with the hat is Le Oof (aka Émile)

- The one one with the leaf scarf is Bidoofina (Aka Maple)

- and the one on my head is Toast, your standard Bidoof