rue (the day I was born)

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completed fics + headcanons below the cut

she’s Black, she’s Broken, she’s Beautiful [T] 57k. mary-centric, marylily, canon compliant, marauders girls’ friendship, mary & remus friendship, background dorlene, moonchaser & endgame jily.

oh, Gods just wanna have fun [M] mcd, graphic depictions of violence. 29k. aroace remus-centric.

marylily one-shots, moonchaser one-shots, dorlene one-shots

when wolves howl for stars [T] moonwater, 2k

Mums’ Life [T] wolfstar meet the parents, 11k

Metamorphmagus [T] teddy lupin & andromeda tonks, 2k

Fight [T] prongsfoot, 1k

drink the ratwater [T] peter & regulus, 1k

boys cry like men [T] severus & james, 2k

Peter Pettigrew & the Sorting Hat [T] 1k

marylily microfics, moonchaser microfics, dorlene microfics, regulily microfics, pandalily microfics, lilypad microfics, prongstail microfics

how it feels (to be perceived) [T] 19k. mike wheeler-centric, byler, el & mike, nancy & mike.

hot takes/unpopular opinions:

mary macdonald would never obliviate herself

james potter is canonically desi

sirius black is aroace

marylily is canon

moonchaser is everything (to me)

katniss everdeen chooses herself. katniss everdeen is asexual. katniss everdeen is aromantic. katniss everdeen is aroace.

peeta mellark & gale hawthorne are in love. slow burn. grumpy x sunshine. healthy enemies to lovers. awkward frenemies.

gale hawthorne is a good character

i do not support jkr indirectly or directly. read here for how to support trans rights while engaging in the hp fandom. if you can, donate to charities that support lgbtqia+ and trans rights.

DO NOT watch the new hp series!

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look, i don’t like the “REBLOG IF YOU THINK [X group] ARE VALID” posts because “if” shows that there’s an option to reject people’s existence and act like they’re not valid. “think” shows that people’s existence is only based on your belief of them, and if you decide to think that they’re not valid, then they’re not valid.

people are always valid. no matter what you think or don’t think. it’s not up to you to “believe” that someone’s real, because they have always been real and they will always be real, whether or not you are there.

people are valid, and their existence does not balance on an “if” statement as if we can accept or reject them. no matter what we do, they’ll always be valid. it isn’t up to us to “accept” or “reject” them because we can’t decide how the world receives their existence when they already exist.

people are valid, and the number of people who reblog can’t “increase” that fact, they can’t change that fact. it is a fact that people are valid. this fact does not need your validation, because trying to validate a fact shows that you don’t believe in it. so stop the performative allyship and be a real one, thanks.

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better to just write:

TRANS PEOPLE ARE VALID

INTERSEX PEOPLE ARE VALID

NON-BINARY PEOPLE ARE VALID

LGBTQIA+ IDENTITIES ARE VALID

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i wanna wear plain long flowy dresses no makeup no glamour but when i wear plain long flowy dresses no makeup no glamour i wanna be perceived as a cross-dresser and society just won’t do that for me, i wear a dress and they call me a “normal girl,” i’m like, “i’m a boy in a dress and i’m actually subverting societal expectations here.”

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we’re friends who are going to live together until we die without romance or sex. any questions.

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to clarify, i love platonic love romantically and romantic love platonically

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i didn’t know ppl had biologically different parts until sex ed when i was 12, like i fully thought my entire class had identical sex organs, and my friend asked me, “so what did you think the difference was between genders?”

and i was like, “dunno, when they say they’re a boy or a girl or whatever?”

and ykw it turns out i was right, the only way you can know someone’s gender is when they tell you, so +1000 points for my obliviousness thank you

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i was in yr 7 and we were all clustered around awkwardly so the teacher said, “get into a straight line!”

and this other yr 7 turned and tried joking to the person behind her (me): “that’s ironic, i’m not straight.”

my yr 7 brain struggled to process those words, because what did she mean? i flew past the possibilities: ‘straight’ is a physical measurement of how linear an object appears. i decided that ‘straight’ had to refer to something physical. she said ‘i’m not straight,’ which meant she wasn’t talking about her hair or anything separate to her body. i concluded she was talking about her body.

i motioned an outline, “all bodies are wavy.” which is true, because bodies will never be linear. none of us are straight, that would be weird.

she gave me a strange expression, but the teacher interrupted what she was going to say.

(epilogue: months later, i was educated about the lgbtq+ community and i realised, “ohh, she was talking about her sexuality.”)

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it’s so homo to be a homo sapien who likes fellow homo sapiens... (being hetero would be concerning icl like wdym you’re a homo sapien attracted to Beings that are Not homo sapiens...)

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Hiiiiii! 🎵,🐰,🍪,🙃,🧡,🦖, and 🎤 please <3

hiiii toast and yay thank you for asking sm you’ve satiated my boredom so incredibly !!

🎵 the last song i listened to was tonight i want you by jenna doe (who is an amazing sapphic artist and way too underrated so you should maybe perhaps check out her music !! my fav songs by her are: girl with a boyfriend, pink slips and shapeshift)

🐰 ooh this is a hard one hmm i think what says the most about a person is their tone while talking / texting / writing / using sign language yk? if it sounds/looks like they’re approachable / considerate / enthusiastic etc. like, the tone with which they communicate, whether through art or words or music or symbols, just, the Tone

🍪 i lovee cookies but idek how many kinds of cookies there aree. or their names. i think i’d be a very crunchy noisy cookie, like the cookie version of a rock cake or a chocolate cornflake cake. maybe a chocolate oat cookie??

🙃 i know so many weird facts but i can’t think of themm. okay here’s a weird fact: adam rainer is recorded as someone who was both a dwarf and a giant.

🧡 a colour i can’t stand is greeny-yellow-brown. i like green and yellow and brown, and even them mixed together sometimes, but there’s this very specific sickly shade of greeny-yellow-brown which is just. kinda gross yk?

🦖 my fav extinct animal is the woolly mammoth they look so fluffy and their tusks were so curlyy

🎤 yes. i know the lyrics by heart to soooo many songs, xana’s my fav though!!

thank you again for the ask :) what about yourr 🎵,🐰,🍪,🙃,🧡,🦖, and 🎤??

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hiii for the ask thingy i will request 🌸, best compliment you’ve received!!

hi!! aw that is such a sweet one, i feel like it says something wholesome about your personality yk, which question you choose. anyway i’m just waffling, i can’t remember many of the compliments i’ve received yk? sucks how the brain is wired to remember negativity more than positivity, like you could receive 30 really wonderful compliments but it’s the one cutting remark that just. sticks. i think it’s called the negativity bias, so we’ve adapted to remember more bad/sad things as a survival mechanism. apparently 70% of our daily thoughts are negative/repetitive? anywayy if people have compliments they should say them and keep saying themm. also i’ve finally thought of my answer, right so my cousin is super lovely and always gifts the most thoughtful presents, so this (last? bc it was recent idk) christmas she gave me threeee books (so happy. i lovee books) and one of the books had a note which i am using as the bookmark because it is beautiful with a lil butterfly and hearts and my cousin’s pretty cursive letter-font handwriting. she always writes ‘dearest’ which is adorable, and she said she chose this book for me because it is ‘surreal, overwhelming, insightful, bittersweet, blunt, raw, chaotic, infallible, irrational and fragile like you’ which is a very contradictory cacophony of words but it’s a compliment you remember because it doesn’t blend in with wholly positive ones yk? okiee i’ve waffled longg enough, what’s the best compliment you’ve received?? (also it’s exam season for me rn so pls pls send more asks to get me through when i’m sick of revision or i’ve just left the horrible exam hall after failing another horrible exam😭 (pls pity me))

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“I don’t want people to tell me what words mean. I want to learn what words mean.”

— El Hopper, how it feels (to be perceived)

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all this miscommunication would really be solved if we just Did Not Communicate At All

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wyd with your life if not even one rarepair is brainrotting away somewhere in your subconscious

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Dorcas who knows she’s a lesbian as soon as she learns what romantic attraction is, and later sexual attraction. She just knows, and she shrugs it off, because it isn’t like she chose to be, and it isn’t like it’ll affect her, because she’s far more focused on her career. No one has to know, and she doesn’t plan to date anyone anyway. Her face of realisation is impassive, calm and collected, and that’s the expression she always has, so no one can even suspect anything. Dorcas sees women and nonbinary people and internally dies, but on the outside, her gaze never falters, she walks past coolly. She’s unflappable, nothing could get past her.

Then she meets Marlene and struggles to stop herself from physically crashing her head into a wall. Because Dorcas is calm, but in the sense of a dormant volcano. Problematically, Marlene is explosive like colliding tectonic plates, and there’s no way this is going to end well.

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Marlene who didn’t even realise it was possible to be anything other than heterosexual, so she’s there tripping over herself when she sees women and drooling over Dorcas and gushing about how she loves all types of boobs, and she still thinks, “I’m straight, everyone is.” She’s not interested in dating boys and she never thinks she has to date them and she doesn’t even want to try dating them, and she still thinks, “I must be straight.” She has shrines dedicated to femininity and loves girls who are girls and express that however they like, she thinks being a woman surrounded by women is the best gift the world could’ve given her, she’s obsessed with complimenting her friends because it’s true; Lily’s the smartest person she’s met and Mary has the kindest heart she knows, and still, despite clearly behaving in a very openly lesbian manner regardless of whatever homophobic comments people throw at her (which she doesn’t understand why, actually, because loving women and nonbinary people is the most normal thing about her), Marlene thinks she’s straight.

And then she meets lesbians who tell her they’re dating and finally, Marlene realises that heterosexuality isn’t what all people naturally fit into. So it turns out she was never automatically straight and is actually very naturally gay.

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Marlene is an astrology nerd. She loves divination, loves astronomy, she’s got tarot cards and star charts, books for reading palm lines, and she’s also a science freak. She loves combining two things that everyone says shouldn’t be combined, because science and spirituality? In science, they act like spirituality is fake, and in art, they act like science is enforced and regimented. But for Marlene, she uses both of them to perceive the world. It’s a fact to her that everything in the universe has meaning because the way that particles interact is miraculous.

Marlene loves electrical systems and the way energy can’t be created or destroyed, because that represents the preservation of mind. To her, the energy that makes up a person lasts forever. Again and again, it spreads as dust and gas throughout the galaxies, used to form more planets and stars, or it goes into the soil and provides minerals to plants. Everything dies and rearranges to form new, completely different lives.

(Also it’s because she’s naturally defiant. Someone told her, “Divination is stupid,” so Marlene decided, “Oh, really? Then I pick that one.” Because people have called her stupid, even though she’s really not. Someone told her, “You can’t mix science with magic,” so she grinned and flipped them the bird, “Try me.”)

Marlene fits electrical systems into magical pranks because she knows they can interact if she lets it, because even magical people have electric signals in their brains and to act like ‘Muggles’ invented electricity is so dumb. (Her dad’s a Muggle engineer and her mum’s a magical Healer.)

And throwing Bludgers is how she deals with her anger at society for all its binaries and stupidity.

Marlene likes what she likes no matter anyone else’s opinion, and she fights for any underdog. People call divination ‘girly’ and ‘fanciful,’ and Marlene’s furious that they think they can label subjects with genders and proceed to act like ‘feminine’ subjects are less important.

She hates bullies and will threaten them with murder in explicitly gory detail, and everyone thinks she’s dangerous and violent and bloodthirsty but she is in fact a vegetarian and could never hurt animals. She could kill a person, but never a fly.

She can become overly defensive about her beliefs and spiteful towards people who don’t agree, just because she thinks she’s logical and doesn’t understand why no one else gets it. Whenever she’s passionately invested in something (all the time), she paces the dormitory and rants at Mary and Lily who respond with facial expressions that calm her down because they’re not arguing with her out loud and without listening to her like some other people do.

When things go wrong, Marlene blames it on fate and the tarot cards and star signs and should possibly learn to accept that sometimes she makes mistakes, but she’s working on it. If she hasn’t experienced a certain problem, she doesn’t realise how badly it can affect others, and she struggles to see situations from another’s point of view. She uses astrology, but only as advice, and sometimes she’ll reject it if it says something she doesn’t like or if she already has her mind fixed on doing something else. If it turns out the cards were right, she’ll spiral and start complaining to Mary and Lily about how her life’s ruined and how she should have listened.

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Marlene drags Dorcas along into trouble (midnight flying races and kitchen raids) and Dorcas complains but she secretly loves it, because she gets to orchestrate strategy while her girlfriend acts on spontaneous impulse and it’s their two favourite things combined. (And Dorcas gets to keep Marlene safe without looking like she’s being overbearing so it’s another secret win.)