I figured I should probably make one of these. It really puts into perspective exactly how much I've written in the past few years. Shout-out to my readers, both old and new, past and present! You all are the best.
And, please, forgive my terrible summaries. I've improved since, I swear.
Lacrimosa
Summary: After Edythe left Beau, he lost all hope. Though he attempted to build a regular life, his efforts failed. Stuck in a dilapidated cabin in Forks, he pushes through his pain and reconnects with Edythe. However, their time away from each other changed them both. Faced with a battle of right and wrong, they fight for the one thing they both want: happiness, at any cost.
Pairing(s): Beau Swan/Edythe Cullen
Word Count: 173,166
Status: finished
The Distance is a Killer (Prelude to Lacrimosa)
Summary: Beau hasn’t spoken to Edythe in two years. One morning, in a state of desperation to tell her that he loves her, he manages to get an address to send her a letter. To his surprise, she writes back. Through a series of letters, they get back what they lost: each other.
Pairing(s): Beau Swan/Edythe Cullen
Word Count: 2,930
Status: finished
Contrapasso (Sequel to Lacrimosa)
Summary: Beau’s place in humanity was irreversibly damaged and fraught with pain, but he’s been given a second chance to build something worth nurturing. Now immersed in the vampire world, he finds and cultivates a sense of meaning alongside Edythe, hunting down human monsters, and settling into their new life.
However, the void left by Sulpicia drives both him and Edythe insane with want, and they have no choice but to face it. Just as the three of them draw closer to each other, and to themselves, an old enemy disrupts their balance.
Uncertain if they’ll ever get a chance to actually unite, they fight like hell to keep what little they do have.
Status: ongoing (one of two main projects, updated regularly)
Aeterna (parts of Lacrimosa in Edythe's POV)
Summary: Edythe’s separation from Beau changed her more than she fully understood. Now, with him finally by her side, she tries to find fulfillment in her new life, balancing both morality and pleasure.
Select chapters from Lacrimosa re-written in Edythe’s perspective.
Pairing(s): Beau Swan/Edythe Cullen
Word Count: 28,899 (and counting)
Status: ongoing (updated when I'm vibing with it)
Purgatorio
Summary: Edythe, alone and still new to the vampire world, finds that “the greatest joy” isn’t enough to save her from the anguish of loneliness as an immortal. With a lack of people to consult for guidance, she writes to the highest authority she knows: Countess Sulpicia.
Pairing(s): Edythe Cullen/Sulpicia Volturi
Word Count: 11,112 (and counting)
Status: ongoing (updated when I'm vibing with it)
The Songs of Thought (My first L&D fic!)
Summary: Beau's life had ended. It was time for him to learn what it meant to have the gift of immortality. As strong as he was, he couldn't do it without the support of his chosen family. A continuation of Life and Death.
Pairing(s): Beau Swan/Edythe Cullen
Word Count: 103,919
Status: finished...mostly; epilogue TBD
In Perpetuity
Summary: It’s 2014, and Beau’s been without Edythe for almost a decade. His life is stable, normal, and excruciatingly boring. He escapes in his dreams and his nightmares just to see her, just to feel something exciting, just to relive those months of his life.
The dreams aren’t enough, though. Fed up with living everyday just to go sleep and dream, he decides to quit his job and pursue a new way of life: vampirism.
Finding a vampire to do it takes him to the only place he knows has a vampire population, and he quickly finds that working a desk job for the Volturi is a lot more exciting than doing it for humans.
Pairing(s): Beau Swan/Edythe Cullen
Word Count: 11,620 (and counting)
Status: ongoing (one of two main projects, updated semi-regularly)
Edythe Rambles Series
Summary: Five oneshots in Edythe's POV. Some tied into my other fics, some not. Check out the series page for specifics!
Pairing(s): None, Beau Swan/Edythe Cullen
Word Count: 11,442
Status: ongoing(?) sort of
Singular Oneshots:
Maybe Someday
Summary: Haunted by a nightmare after Port Angeles, Beau only needed to figure out one thing: how to keep Edythe by his side.
A one-shot, angsty, self-indulgent ramble written in the middle of the night.
Pairing(s): Beau Swan/Edythe Cullen
Word Count: 1,171
Status: complete
Desiderare
Summary: Edythe loves Beau’s hands, and he loves giving her exactly what she wants.
Set between Lacrimosa and Contrapasso
Pairing(s): Beau Swan/Edythe Cullen
Word Count: 1,271
Status: complete
Lust
Summary: The night after visiting the meadow, Beau and Edythe thought nothing of spending the night together. However, the sexual tension proved hard to ignore. Despite the risks, they choose to deal with the tension in the most direct way - fucking.
Pairing(s): Beau Swan/Edythe Cullen
Word Count: 1,514
Status: complete
Sensualissima
Summary: Beau finds he enjoys Sulpicia’s company far more than he expected, mostly because of how she makes Edythe feel.
Set in the same universe as Lacrimosa, but not necessarily canon to the series. Can be read as a standalone.
i just want you to know that when i talk positively about edward i am also 100% referring to edythe but when i trash edward i am talking exclusively about edward i can’t explain why that’s just how it is
Beau Swan: "Nah, she's perfect and I'm a nobody. It's never gonna happen."
Edythe Cullen: "I've only met Beau for a day and a half, but if anything happened to him, I would kill everyone on Earth and then myself."
hey!!! have you ever wanted to watch an actual Quileute elder talk about Quileute culture, language, and tradition? (as well as his family history, the damage Twilight has done, climate change, and so much more?)
trick question. this is an intervention. even if you’ve never wanted that, you do now.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hmfbQRclFf8
this is a video of Chris Morganroth, a Quileute elder, canoe-builder, language teacher, and a fantastic storyteller. he is wearing a shirt covered in pictures of wolves: his cousin made it for him! this is a recording of a 2012 speech at the Smithsonian. it is about an hour long. it is so worth it.
(big thanks to @twilightphasepodcast, who cited this as a resource in their latest episode, which was how i found it!)
we have to make more women suffer in fiction but crucially not in a man pain way. we have to let women suffer in fiction the way men are always allowed to suffer in fiction. we need women who grieve their male love interests always dying horribly at the hands of the villain of the week the way male action heroes always do. we need women who suffer in ways other than "dying in childbirth" and "abusive male relative". we need women with interiority and depth of character having the worst time of their fucking lives.
I’ve noticed some posts around about how you can’t romanticize your life during a fascist regime and while I deeply sympathize with this sentiment, I want you to try to understand that’s what they want you to believe.
Fascism thrives best in the cesspool of hopelessness. They want us so confused and hopeless that we give in. When you give in, you don’t fight back.
If you wait for life to look good to do the things that bring you joy; life will still be bad - you will just have less joy.
As someone who has struggled with my mental health a lot for the last thirty years, I know this struggle firsthand. And changing this belief system - the one where you spend all of your time expecting bad things so you won’t be surprised when they happen - it’s the hardest work that I have ever done. And I’m not perfect; I still have setbacks. I still experience really real fears about the state of the world and the US, in particular, because that’s where I live.
But I made a vow to myself that I will not let the choices of others ruin my life. When I made that vow, I was thinking of my parents - but it applies to the state of the government right now, too.
There are still flowers in my garden, and ripe tomatoes, and it’s almost pick-your-own apples season, and I have plans with my friends to go to as many cemetery ghost walks as we can find this October.
I still deserve to live. I still deserve to laugh. I still deserve to love. I still deserve to be as happy as I can be.
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