soft rot confessions

— @𝓶𝓺𝓭𝓲𝓵𝓮𝓷’𝓼 𝓼𝓲𝓭𝓮𝓫𝓵𝓸𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓻𝓮𝓫𝓵𝓸𝓰 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔂𝓪𝓹! —

[mqdiilen]

˖⊹ ࣪ ˖ maddie◞ s!her. 9teen. college student. bsd enthusiast. go visit my primary blog ⁀➴ @mqdilen ˎˊ˗ if you love reading and any of the latter .ᐟ𖹭

ᯓᡣ𐭩 bsd, jjk, mha, sakamoto.

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[that-one-raccoon]

Kunizai kiss

i miss them so bad guys

[lorimeep]

PM Dazai because he's silly :>

[thaidoodles]

"You did good, tiger."

set in the BEAST universe - in which Atsushi sometimes has a hard time turning back when he's been fighting in tiger form for too long.

read right to left

[akutagawascoathanger]

Tw: depictions of sh

Okokok here's some real art..... Finnaly

I still haven't gotten my stylus, but it's in the mail so yay! But I was really itching to draw dazai, so I sucked it up and used my finger....

GOD IT SUCKED, I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT FOR FINGER ARTISTS.

anyways don't be scared to interact with me... Please, I crave validation.

[mqdiilen]

i just played saihate station and i got literally the worst ending (ending a) and right after that i got the true ending (ending z) AND OH MY GOD this game is so beautifullly made!! i’ll definitely try to get the other two endings as well, but i gotta sleep first unfortunately. but the artstyle, the story, the characters, AND THE MUSIC??? everything is sooo damn pretty 😭 bdbs8sb8snixnd

if you enjoy some minor horror and enjoy themes like obsessive love, salvation, guilt, and just general themes of depression (i’d so say, at least) then this game might be for you! it’s free to play, as well :)

[ilikegreedraw]

butterfly

[that-one-raccoon]

Femzai again.

[mqdiilen]

university feels like a social experiment when you have no friends

[kyominsa]

Kouyou fanart

[ilikegreedraw]

dazai 4 days after joining the ada…

[minimafioso]

Lab Chuuya, 6 years old

[alisterrm]

painting kinda restores my humanity

[ilikegreedraw]

i gave up by the time i reached sigma help. i really need to practice more duo poses

[aki-no-mori]

These past days were devastating.

I got sick and I was knocked down for almost 4 days and I didn’t really had the strength to draw anything. I don’t want to disappear for too long, so here a WIP of my new illustration I’m working on! It’s actually a simple one but my health is making me hard to do anything 🫠

[oikyawa]

ノ '𝐈 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔, 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐃.'

ft. osamu dazai.

𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓: dazai’s addicted to your kisses. 𝐂𝐖: fem!reader, slightly suggestive parts, title isn’t relevant to content inside. # wc, 1.7k

dazai has always loved kissing you, didn’t matter when or where, his lips always find some way to connect to your skin.

he takes every free moment he has to kiss you, whether it be a peck on your lips, a brief kiss on your nose, or a full on makeout session if you two have ample time.

he simply just loves the feel of your lips on his.

no matter the location, time of day. he’ll always find an opportunity to kiss you, just to feel the softness of your lips.

kissing you is his absolute favorite pastime, he loves to spend his free day with kissing you, whether you like it or not. you are not getting away from him, no chance.

his arms are always wrapped around you waist very protectively, no amount of squirming can make him lose his hold on you.

you have no other choice but to accept your fate, letting him pepper kisses all over your face and neck, making sure he doesn’t miss a single spot of your skin.

and he so, so loves when you’re both about to doze off for the night. and you capture his lips in one more tender kiss for the night.

he will whine if he doesn’t get his mandatory goodnight kiss from you. even if you’re on the thin edge of passing out, he somehow coaxes you to kiss him.

yes, he could definitely kiss you himself, but it feels different when you’re the one kissing him.

you claim that it’s bullshit, he claims that it helps him sleep better when you do it.

but in reality it really does help him sleep better, god knows why. but it really does help.

usually he’d get 4 hours of sleep, tops. but when he’s with you, and your soft lips connect with his for a brief moment before succumbing to slumber, he sleeps more than he probably ever has.

maybe it’s the safe feeling of having another human being next to him in a state of slumber, or if it’s something else entirely.

he’s happy that he gets a kiss from you, and you’re happy that he’s sleeping much better than before.

dazai’s quite literally addicted to your kisses, they’re like a drug for him, he can’t go a day without atleast one kiss from you.

ever since the first time you’d kissed, at the very beginning of your relationship, he’s been addicted to you and your kisses ever since.

he cannot get enough of your lips on him.

his favorite spot to get kissed by you has to be his lips, obviously. nothing beats the feeling of your soft lips on his. but. he also adores it when you kiss his forehead, just under his hairline.

he first calls out your name when you’re busy to get your attention, uses one of his hands to push all the hair covering his forehead to push it back, and points at his forehead.

the first time he did this you were so confused, but it’s literally code that he wants a kiss on his forehead.

he espcially loves it when you’re wearing lipstick and it leaves a sheen mark on his forehead. he doesn’t even remove it after, just lets his hair fall down to it’s original place to cover it.

with that being said, this man really loves it when you kiss him with lipstick on.

will make you kiss him all over his face when you’re applying your lipstick, will sit back on the bed and pat his lap for you to sit on so you’ve got easy access to his pretty face to smooch him all over.

even if you keep saying no, you’ll eventually find yourself situated in his lap, he’s really that persuasive. or you’re just tired of his constant whining and this is the only way to get him to finally shut up, sort of.

the whining stops, but is replaced by stupid comments like, ‘belladonna. you missed a spot riiight here.’ but he’s pointing at a place you’ve already kissed thrice. he says it on purpose just to annoy you, but you keep kissing him so maybe he’ll finally shut his mouth for once, which he never does.

it takes a long, long time before he’s satisfied with how much you’ve kissed him. his face has to be covered in lipstick before he will let you get back to doing your makeup.

and even then he’ll stay put right where he is and watch you do your makeup with a lovesick smile on his face, and his face being completely pink and glossy making him look so stupid yet so adorable at the same time.

sometimes he’ll even put one of your lipsticks in his pockets whenever you’re out, and nudge you in an alleyway and make you kiss him all over with said lipstick on. he doesn’t care that anyone sees the absolute mess you’ve made of him. he wears the lipstick marks with pride.

it’s definitely not only his face that he wants covered in lipstick. any part of his body could be marked by you and he’d never remove it. simply letting it fade with time.

if things get a tad more intimate, he loves it when you trail kisses from his neck, to his chest, abdomen and lower.. areas.

on his face he loves a more lighter and pinky lipstick, but on his body he loves a good burgundy shade, looks really good in the more dim lighting that you’ll find yourself in. in these moments.

he’s completely yours to mark up, will not complain that his body is covered head to toe in lipstick, he really fucking loves it.

dazai craves your lips on him, or on his. like oxygen. he needs you to survive.

if you ever get into an argument with him and refuse to kiss him as a punishment, he’ll get on his knees and beg you with the most pleading eyes you’ve ever witnessed. and if you try to ignore him to the best of your abilties, he’ll trail behind you forever, until you finally (somehow) cave and give him a kiss. and he acts like it’s been decades since you last kissed him.

you’ll go ‘osamu. i kissed you an hour ago.’ and he’ll retort with ‘one hour too long, bella.’ in the most soap opera dramatic tone you’ll ever hear.

he gets very whiny and dramatic when you don’t kiss him for even an hour, he’s that addicted to you.

⟢ 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐁𝐁𝐋𝐄:

dazai’s so annoyingly whiny and clingy today, you can’t even go to the bathroom without him trailing behind you.

and when you’ve told him to quit following you, he shuts you up mid sentence with a kiss, and even if you try to finish what you were saying in the first place, he’ll just kiss you again until you forget what you wanted to tell him.

he has been on your ass all day long. from the second you woke up next to him, to the current moment, he hasn’t been more than an arm’s length away from you.

if you happen to move your body just the right way, you can already feel his warm breath on your skin, and an arm sneaking around your waist.

and another additional thing is, he keeps his eyes locked on you. eyeing every single thing you.

everytime you look up from your paperwork, you can already see his brown eyes fixated on you. eyes boring into you.

and when you turn back to your paperwork, his gaze never leaves you even once.

he truly wants nothing more than to kiss you right now, but you enforced a rule with him that forbids any sort of kissing at work. and if he decided to break that rule, you’d definitely ban him from kissing you wherever, and we can’t have that now, can we?

but the urge was getting to him, the way your lips look right now is too much for him to handle, you’re wearing a pretty pink lipstick with a slight shimmer.

god, he’d do anything to be able to kiss you right now, but that one, almost insignificant rule kept him from pulling you on his lap and going right in.

he doesn’t care that his colleagues are in the office, why not let them have a show?

his patience was wearing thinner with every passing second and every time you licked your lips, it was driving him crazy.

screw that stupid rule, he’ll convince you to revoke it afterwards with his persistent charm, there’s no way you can resist him that long either.

he padded over to your desk and lowered himself to be eye level with you.

you didn’t look up from your paperwork, but you could see him from your peripheral vision. ‘dazai, what do you want now.’ your tone was stern and unamused.

‘give me a kiss, bella. pretty please?’ he whispered in your ear in the most sincere voice, you felt his breath ghosting on your ear.

you turned your head to face him, which was a very bad move.

your lips brushed his in a fleeting kiss, giving him exactly what he wanted all this time. you pulled your face away from his in a rush.

‘you!-‘ you stared at him in utter disbelief. you couldn’t believe he actually pulled a stupid trick like this.

he cupped your cheek with one hand, and kissed you properly this time, taking advantage of your shocked state so maybe you’d forget about the rule you set.

you pulled away from the kiss slower this time, secretly savoring the moment for a brief second.

‘thanks bella, just what i wanted from you.’ dazai said with a wink, the corners of his mouth twitching into a smile.

he walked back to his desk now finally satisfied, after what felt like ages without a kiss from you.

there was a light coating from your lipstick on his lips, just enough to show a slight shimmer.

he’s definitely gonna steal more kisses from you this way, your reaction is too amusing to pass up.

⟢ 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄: this literally makes no sense oops

ノ want to check out my writing? ⤦

𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

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[mqdiilen]

HOPE U OKKKKK

omg, i am so sorry! i am really not active on this blog, since this is actually just a sideblog and not my main one! but yes, i am quite alright. thanks for asking, love! ♡ hope you’re doing great too! :)