Thoughts of a Latina

Just me and my thoughts.

[mujer-y-hipster]

Here’s to you!

For causing me to think about you every second of the day!

Even when I don’t want to

I can still hear your voice in the back of my head

I sometimes look back thinking you are right behind me

The voice is almost clear

Oh god how I want you so much

I want to kiss you.

Feel your soft lips against mine

You’re beard tickling my face.

I want you to bite my lip

I want you to hold me closer to you

I want your nose pressed against my cheek as you are fucking me

Fucking me so good

I never received dick so good so intimate.

You wanted me then but will you ever want me later? tomorrow?

Right now?

Cause I want you so much right now....

Not just physically but romantically.

I want you to trust me enough to not only be your lover but your best friend.

I care so much about you and you don’t even know how much I care.

It’s dangerous how involved I’ve gotten my feelings are caught.

Like my heart is ready to be broken again.

However, you will never want me.

Never.

And my heart stays hopeful...

As you have the gun pointing at its head ready to shoot.

11:11

[ercuillium-blog]

[mujer-y-hipster]

I am never first choice

I am the rebound

I am the side bitch

I am used for cope

I am just a friend

I am the friend who has emotional labor shoved down my throat where my throat is throbbing and my heart is sunken down to the dark pit

I am the girl who feel they aren’t good enough for men who feel they deserve better

I am the girl who has casual sex to feel wanted for once

I am the girl who craves physical contact

I am the girl who tries to be your dream girl but i am not enough

I am the girl who loses her persona with just a tad of interest they receive

I am the girl who wants love but never receives it.

12:09am

[mujer-y-hipster]

Leave me.

Leave with all the heartache.

Leave me with all the heaviness my heart is pushing me to my knees.

Leave me with cried out eyes that continues to search for a reason to stay

Leave me with the empty hands you once filled with yours

Leave me with head full of regret and a heart full of hope.

Leave me. Leave me.

Just fucking leave.

Don’t Leave.

[begavet]

[mujer-y-hipster]

Numb.

How else can I describe it if there is no other way how to...

Numb.

[mujer-y-hipster]

You loved me.

You loved me.

You wanted me.

You wanted me.

You wanted to taste me.

You wanted to taste me.

You wanted to penetrate me.

You wanted to penetrate me.

You had me.

Right where you wanted me.

I was no longer free.

Free from you tight hold on me.

You held on to me.

Till I couldn’t breathe.

I let you have me.

All of me.

You manipulated and used me.

You manipulated me.

Left me drowning in my tears.

You left to heal my self inflicted wounds.

Wounds I would reopen hoping you would heal me.

But you left me.

But you left me.

You left me for dead.

Dead.

You took who I was. You took who I was.

You killed me.

You killed me....

N.P.M

[mujer-y-hipster]

When there are no emotions.

None at all

Do you feel scared?

Scared about how the one thing that makes you feel human is gone?

Or relieved?

Relieved that the emotions no longer control the you?

Control you as a person?

I know longer feel like I’m drowning with every emotion in my body. But I feel like....nothing.

That I am no longer who I was but a dead girl walking. And I am ok with that...

Nothing.

[thegoodvybe]

[markv5]

Наконец-то солнышко!…😌…

[thelonelyplayboy]

[thelonelyplayboy]

[childmagazine]

[vanish]

“Sometimes people don’t want to hear the truth because they don’t want their illusions destroyed”

— Friedrich Nietzsche (via neckkiss)

[mujer-y-hipster]

You make weird face now.

When we make eye contact.

Like you can’t be serious around me.

Like I not to be taken seriously.

Or do intimidate you?

I sense an unfamiliar vibe.

Maybe this is all in my head again.

Im just making this all up again.

That I am seeing what I want to see.

When is reality it was never what I actually saw.

A.

[mujer-y-hipster]

We locked eyes for a moment. I looked away first.

I’m such a coward.

I would usually smile to show no fear but instead I cowardly looked away.

Anxiety fills my body wondering if you caught my unprotected reaction.

My exposed vulnerability I showed you.

I swore to myself no man will make me feel weak but you caused me to have no words.

Exposure.

[quotemadness]

But it didn’t break me. Nothing can break me unless I let it.

Rainbow Rowell (via quotemadness)