Miss M🧷

Sharing some of my words.

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The winner takes it all

"Everything I lose makes up the space For what I need to have in its place" Find me down the road, lets try to chase something unknown, just follow my trace A mix of petals from the shattered vase If we trip and fall we'll meet an embrace stained with blood and wrapped in lace Hold your breath when we cross the haze Don't linger there, pick up the pace! Those who fall behind, stay in the maze a different realm, past the interface But don't fret, there are many ways to make it out, and in your sad case You have to let go and fall off grace Once you settle down, make sure to erase every memory about the trail of our race Hold your breath, count to ten and brace your heart for losing all goals to mr. Ace Hey fool did you "make up the space"? Dumb little thing got nothing to showcase

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gone with the wind

Why you look so tense, relax this isn't an attack My clothes aren't gone I'm just pre-ironing, a life hack I know you see a full suitcase, but that's to unpack I know my books are gone, I just wanna clean the rack Leave the foreign money, it's just to fill Santa's sack You're overreacting here can't you cut me some slack? The calendar's marked so I don't lose track That one way ticket isn't mine, I got it for Jack Don't pull the "logic" on me, that's something you lack I'll go make some coffee now would you like a snack? Oh I know we're out of milk, I just plan to have it black Don't be dramatic here of course Ima be back

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Had it all then had none just like that, all was gone daydream to a nightmare big world where nothing's fair dont wanna live dont wanna be alright venom in my veins I love the fight nobody gets it they dont understand I made peace with death walking hand in hand up through sleepless nights but not scared of thunder counting seconds to lay six feet under I aint got nothing to loose high on life popping pills with booze kissing on the devil we love to make out danger and thrill is all what I sought risking it all on the daily fuck buddies with pain lately

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Saw a pretty angel in disguise got heaven in them soft eyes and sky printed on his chest with couple stars on the vest the voice is like a church choir his smile setting hearts on fire did a double take, actually four she felt something in her core concealed it to not be a whore

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Picture of a dream

Do you ever have a picture in your head Like there is that little boy heading ahead He bumps into a brick wall and drops dead Cuz he didn't listen to what the stars said Like the little girl who liked diving deep The moon warned her yet she took the leap And right into her lungs all the water seep Left behind a broken tune like a sad weep Like a joyful cat who loves chasing the rat Bolting into a cave ignoring the wise bat Right in a little crack the rat went and sat And the cat got stuck how greedy and fat Like a loud dog barking at the bird on a tree Got the old painter raging like the dark sea Pulled the rifle, one shot, two, thatطs three Puppy got a ticket to heaven and it was free Like an angel in love with the devil Mr. King Flying down to hell's gate nightly to sing Dreaming of a warm embrace and a ring Caught by reality and losing each wing Like a snow man wanting to play with sun His name might be Olaf, it might be a pun He insisted like a toddler who chases fun Little Olaf died not needing to use a gun Like your big dream that you always delay Pushing the work aside every time to play Is it really fun walking the opposite way Do you enjoy murdering future day by day?

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A sacred oath

I want to talk to you with all honesty sir I think something is wrong up in the air everybody here is acting really insane harassing whoever stays straight in lane Perhaps it's a decision from the vice president "having common sense is now prohibited" so men are trading their minds for extra inches hoping to compensate for their lack of rizz you know, 6'2 overall or a nice 7" down to make up for behaving like a silly clown emptied their head in hopes of getting one nothing good would come of this so go run run far into the distance as far as you can this is worse than a beast, this is a man brain dead creatures who think they're superior and any ambitious woman is considered inferior but I'm no ordinary woman, I am your nightmare strip you down from power leaving you weak and bare it doesn't matter if you're a single one or a hundred final treasure is mine regardless, earned, not by a bid you messed up bad then lied out your way I wonder when facing god, what will you say? you don't realize the weight of what's going on and it's due to being brainless as a jellyfish son

these aren't mere rhyming words babe, this is an oath I'll burn you down, for I'm the flame and you're a moth

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He said "you sound like my girl

the pretty girl that can be making my life fair a girl that is there and would always care" I know how you see your mother in my words I got her wise speech but minus the swords and you saw your older sister in my eyeliner both love it colorful but mine is kinda finer I am a lot like your ex in the meaning of name but deep down you know we ain't the same I get you lost, you cant tell what you want want me in your arms then again you don't you want to dance in the kitchen every night but I'm like my father so we would just fight we're made from sun but from different parts then I chose moon and you took rain darts like each others mirrors, same and opposite you kiss yours, but I lose it and on mine spit I want my hair short, shorter than allowed you want yours long, on us society frowned we get lost in nights air, music and coffee you chase love but the fame is my trophy I'll get your back, but I ain't the one for you and you fear for me but can't be mine too said "cross my heart, pull a knife and take it" I say cross mine, pull out a gun to break it but we're walking around with hollow chests different takes on love, but been its guests you thought we were together in past life but it's my first while you're on number five so maybe in the next one and maybe never maybe one day I will wait across the river

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من يناير لديسمبر كان عاما طويل شهر مايو به قد مر مرورا ثقيل ام ان هذا الامر كله بدأ منذ ابريل بل ان مارس جرف الراحة كسيل فبراير آلمني لكنه اسرع الرحيل ومنذ يناير ماعاد للفرح اي سبيل العام الماضي جعل الروح تميل في الاساس بدأته بحزن وعويل ربما الجائحة وجرحاها والقتيل؟ لا، فمن قبلها انطفأ ذاك الفتيل اذا هكذا ولدت، هفوة وبلا خليل

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ان يحبك احدهم بلا قيد ولا شرط كما انت بسوء ماضيك وبَعثرة حاضرك وتشوش مستقبلك ان يحبك لانك انت، هذا الحب الوحيد الصادق الحب الذي لا ينجو خارج اغلفة الكتب وشاشات عرض السينما.

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لله الخالق الواحد در سحر تلك العيون ترى بها البراءة والوفاء لكن جمالهما يخون كمثل حسام اهوج هما بالكحل او بدون من يطيل النظر لهما غريق لا ينفعه عون ليت شعري اي سر يكمن بذاك اللون تمسي زمردا ثم تصبح كشهد او ليمون ان اطرقت بهما اشابت المحب الحنون وان كرمت برفعهما اصابته بالجنون دية سبيلها عمر والعمر بسبيلها يهون لي تاريخ ترحال ولم ارى مثيلا بالكون

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Midnights are for who were let down by others, dawns are for who let themselves down.

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self love>

كان يا مكان في زمن من الازمان على ارض جميلة كلها الوان، عاشت آنسة ميسو القطة الذكية جنبا الى جنب مع زعتر الضفدع المرح والعديد من باقي سكان البلاد المسالمين. كانت ميسو المُحِبةً للآداب والعلوم والفن تُمضي اكثر وقتها بقراءة روايات ومسرحيات شكسبير كاتبها المفضل الذي تحفظ قصة حياته عن ظهر قلب بينما كان زعتر الذي يحب النهر والسماء والحياة والسعادة يمضي اغلب وقته متجولا على العشب او يقرأ كتاب قصة اطفال ملون على الاريكة في منزله. في احد الايام تقاطعت طرق ميسو و زعتر الذي أُعجِبَ بالاولى كثيرا وبقي تلك الليلة يفكر اين يراها مجددا وكيف يلفت انتباهها ان فعل وفي اليوم التالي كان زعتر ذاهباً الى النهر مجددا وفي طريقه الى هناك التقى بعض اصدقاءه وقرر سؤالهم عن القطة فعرف اسمها وحبها لشكسبير واين يمكن ان يراها وبالفعل انتظر زعتر عدة ايام ثم استيقظ بعدهم بنشاط ذات نهار وراح الى موقع متحف المدينة ليجد ميسو هناك كما توقع وكان محظوظا كفاية ليصنع الحديث بين زعتر وميسو ذاته ويمضوا باقي اليوم معا حيث اخبرها انه لديه كتاب لشكسبير ايضا لكن الصدمة كانت انها لم تعرف الكتاب عندما ذكر لها اسمه فطلبت منه ان تراه ليرد بدوره ان الكتاب ليس معه بل في منزله ويمكن ان ارادت ان ترافقه هناك كي تراه عادت ميسو مع زعتر الى منزله لرؤية الكتاب ليقابلها مجلد قصة اطفال صغير يحكي عن العم شكسبير الكاتب الذكي الكبير راحت ميسو تحدق بزعتر الذي يقف امامها بفخر تحاول استيعاب ما يجري وعندما اوشكت على المغادة لم تستطع للطافة زعتر فقررت منحه فرصة وتبادلوا ارقام جهاز التواصل السحري عادت ميسو لمنزلها وطلع القمر ثم غادر وحل الصباح فالقمر التالي حيث الموعد المُتفق عليه لعشاء ميسو وزعتر معا، بدأ اللقاء وانتهى وادركت ميسو اثناء نظرها لعيني زعتر انه وان كان ظريفا الا ان مستوى حماقته يبقى اعلى بكثير لذا يستحيل ان يناسبها فشكرته على اللقاء ثم عادت لمنزلها وحذفت رقمه من جهاز التواصل

مر يومان على هذا اللقاء والعديد من محاولات زعتر الفاشلة بالتواصل ليدرك اخيرا ان ميسو تركته لذا قرر ان يصير ذكيا مثلها كي تعود اليه وتوجه الى المكتبة بحثا عن كتب شكسبير لكن سرعان ماغير رايه بعد ان فتح اول كتاب ووجده مليئا بالكلمات كثيرة الحروف وخاليا من الصور ليعيده مكانه على الرف مقررا ان ميسو وان كانت ذكية جميلة الا انها لا تستحق هذا الكم من العناء ثم توجه الى النهر مجددا ليلعب ويقرأ كتب الاطفال. الخلاصة اصدقائي ان المشاعر الصادقة تستحق التنازلات لكن ليس لدرجة ان تفقدوا الراحة كما تستحق التغيير لكن ليس لدرجة عدم تمييز انفسكم.

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He was as if warm chocolate cookies on December's evenings became a human.

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حسناء قلبي

اني لااسى على امرئ القيس لانه بها يوما لم يلتق "وليل كموج البحر ارخى علي سدوله بانواع الهموم ليبتلي" قالها مرهقا ولو كان لاقاهالما نظم مثل ذا البيت او شقي فصبح مثير كموج خصلاتها اشرق على احلك الهموم لتنجلي ثم قدح قهوة كعيناها سكب على الجراح بلسما لتشتفي وجمال غناء العصافير امام عذوبة لحن صوتها يستحي "ولم ادري ما اشجر وادعى الى الهوى اخفقة برق ام غناء الحمام" انظراتها اشد سحرا ام لحن السلام اذا ماتكرمت علينا بالسلام لها رمش لو رف لاصاب الافئدة باقوى من حد نصل اي حسام حلوة الشعر والاعين والوجنات يعجز عن كف كمالها سواد اللثام لا ليلى ولا افرودايت ولا بثينة او جولييت فلم تخلق مثلها بالانام حملت من الحسن ما يجفف الحبر ويدوم بعد نفاذ جميل الكلام

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ثم ماذا

ثم اني اخشى ان تعتادني وتضمن وجودي فلا تعود تبذل شيئا في سبيله وترى كم اني عادية فيبهت في عينيك ما كان لامعا مني ثم تلحظ تكراري لجميل الفعال فتكف عن حبها فتحملها ثم تسأم منها ومن تفاصيلي وانا لا ازال عالقة باحاديثك اقارن نبرة صوتك بنوتات الموسيقى كي احفظها او ان تنسى شكلي وتعجز عن معرفتي وانا اميز قدومك من صوت الخطوات وبعدها تجد بديلا عني, شخص مميز بذاته دون ان يهلك بالمحاولة كما افعل انا فتلقيني احتياطا او امسي منسية اراقب الذكريات وضحكاتنا تمحى من سجل حياتك لاصير كاني لم اكن يوما

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Copy cat

He stopped at the rooftop edge and turned around looking at her with lifeless eyes "lets play a game, you give me one reason other than 'think about those who will miss you' and I will back up immediately and start all over again by sunrise" he told her she took a moment to think before stepping forward next to him and saying "I don't have one for you, but I don't have one for me either other than you.. I thought we could keep going by keeping each other company, guess I was wrong" nervous now he ask "what do you think you're doing?" "whatever you're willing to do, you used to call me a copy cat remember?" she replied smiling

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people pleasing

So tired of feeling like I'm trapped inside my damn mind I'm aware that I said I'm fine but fuck it man, I just lied sealed my day with a smile then when night arrives I cried I be looking filled with life but it's been a while since I died out there helping them with no rests, so they say I'm kind but once I slow down to take a breath they push me aside didn't need to fall, just stumbled and they called me blind waiting for me to carry them even when my hands are tied covered my eyes on a highway and then asked me to guide knowing no seats were left they still asked why I didn't ride I let it pass, all the pain and all of the mistakes that I denied unsatisfied with the damage they've done so they hit rewind they feel no guilt and think I don't feel hurt because I smiled drilling holes in my chest with their bullets to see who I hide they ask why didn't I quit, its cause I got something to find and if you wonder, yes it hurt but I'm used so I don't mind