-Fatt•Boii-

I'm a fat Neurodivergent Trans adult man in the South. This account is to just scream. '99

[mxfattboii]

Pt 4 of trying to Kill My Art Block: Today is MxFattBoii in the flesh: Also my first LGBTQ+ art of Pride month! It's a little late but from one Queer dude to other Queers:

See I've been trying to get better at digital art as I've always been kinda ehh about it (my lovely partner lets me borrow their iPad)

But I really wanted a base/reference (okay it's a bit of a idealized "more" transitioned dream version) of myself. (Someday I'll be a beefy short king, someday! Ps my partner already said I'll never be a bear T3T)

Ignore my persona having no arms I had no time for that today lmaoo (but this means that's my next practice lolol)

Also Imma dump some pics of this one art piece I've been doodling in for almost 4 months now, it's kinda giving backrooms/weirdcore/dreamcore so I wanted to share while I remember it lol

My little dude is looking at your toes. Be warned.

[mxfattboii]

Pt 3 of trying to escape my art block today I'm photo bashing my Eridian OC (I need to figure out a more simple design for them tho lol), just a WIP but meet Pumice (Puh-meh-s?), this little turd is a Caregiver.

(My friend said he looks crunchy)

He personally takes it upon himself to visit any eridian that could possibly be sick/hurt/disabled that he tends to them, and makes sure no one is forgotten...

He has off balanced himself as one of his appendages is grinded down from a nervous grinding habit where he used to till he couldn't anymore would just rub his appendages on something hard.., one of his other ones has light wear of the same thing but he's trying to get out of doing it, very hard!! He also has a few rub spots on his main body from same habit but very much less.

Grace originally almost named him Slag after the rock, but he realized it might hurt this low-key sensitive spaz as who wants to be named after a rock byproduct (also my partner told me what else eit meant heh).. because of the uneven surface of his body he cannot really have the beautiful craving that other eridians have and he's high key very envious as he wished he wasn't so bumpy.. He sings as he works

He wishes to be beautiful! He also enjoys making jewelry as a side hobbie and enjoys buffing and craving into things.

When Grace told him what his name was he found it funny, and enjoys puns.. Grace explained birds to this little dude and now he's obsessed at the mental image though it looks nothing like what a bird looks in real life.

[mxfattboii]

Pt 2 of me trying to cure my art block with Jeff

Had issues with his hair cuz I wanted him to still clearly have issues with it growing but I also wanted him to still have enough to tug on 𓁹‿𓁹

[mxfattboii]

Have you seen this Entity lurking in your dreams??

Here's the pics I drew of them

Here's the dream:

I was in a cramp boarding house, it was hectic but i moved through it though like water between rocks as I had an Alter to set up which for some reason was in the middle of this very busy place.. I reached the alter and placed pink glass roses on the table, that were almost flat like a coaster except for the indents of the flower petals and it was width wise the roundness of a can. There were bones, gold pieces, more roses of the same glass though different shades of red and pink and lots of small sticks

in the dream I realize I'm missing some things and speak without words that I must gather more before phasing through a wall and ending up in a wildflower field near some woods.. Automatically start gathering sticks, and bones for my alter when l look up to see this being standing there.. Their skin was a greyish color, they were quite tall possibly 7 ft super skinny under a very oversized whitish grey Robe, with very long dark black hair.. They didn't really have a face though they did..

They pointed at a tent made out of sticks propped up, it looked tiny and I could sense they wished for me to enter, so I pushed through the curtain and felt a very warm energy overcame my senses then NOTHING! Start up darkness!

But the next dream started and he was in it as well though he intervened in the nightmare that followed, basically killing what was causing freight in it.. So for straight 6 month he popped up in almost every dream, it being almost 5 years later he doesn't appear AS often but I still see him in a reflection or out of the corner of my eye..

At the same time, I had these GAINT three wick candles that kept finding their way to me, my roommate was scared of the candles because she thought the Entity was in it because I joking asked if he was with us with the candle and the flames acted super flickery when the others around them were still.. So even though also a pagan she doesn't like being around the candle (Kinda amusing tbh)

He's never personally harmed me by what I can tell but he scared the shit out of the ex roomie

So just wanting to rack some others brains on if YALL have ever seen this being?? Thank you

[mxfattboii]

Trying to battle Art Block rn (a few years without drawing constantly and regularly so my abilities have really dipped because of it) so I'm pulling a middle school me and am drawing Jeff.. Idk felt like seeing if I could do it from memory (the largest Jeff)

These are my favorite out of the doodles.. Saw an artist draw a Older BEEFY (in that chunky way) Jeff and I got sparked with Gender Envy!

Usually I don't get that from the Creepypasta dudes cuz they all scrawny and bones, and as a plus size trans broski it wasn't easy to really relate to the boys growing up, but that art really brighten my Month (bi polar been kicking my ass) so here's my sloppy but not AI art!

[mxfattboii]

Favorite Ship Tropes will always be Crime Boss and Little shit that screws him over. That Tom and Jerry type of dynamics, ya know??

Love a pairing that has a healthy dose of throwing hands every so often

(Reading Bad Apple and I found it kinda funny)

[mxfattboii]

Other pagans and Witches, I have a question about Ancestor work, Reddit hasn't answered

I don't know/have connections to my family history really on any sides besides some superficial stuff and also knowing I totally had racists in my family (I'm white, had family in both sides of the Civil War) so I feel confused on what I'm supposed to "work" with them about cuz idk I don't really wish to work with Racists (also I don't exactly fully understand the concept of Working with Ancestors fully, are y'all just asking for energy/help or ?)

I wasn't raised in any REAL culture as my family didn't really have traditions/didn't pass on anything from whatever Scott-Irish-English (got told we could be traced back to the mayflower/one of the other ships with it in a grandfathers side idk idc truly, they were probably also racist) ancestry we have, my family relied heavily on their nationalism to give them culture (military family)

I feel a tad lost because i saw a lot of folks saying it wasn't good to not be doing Work with your Ancestors, but I'm kinda ehhh cuz I don't like my bloodline at all.

I don't do deity work for this exact reason because I feel uncomfortable trying to touch cultures that I wasnt raised in, I worship direct concepts instead. I just really wanted some advice because I'm on my shadow work journey rn and I wish to be the best/most conscious Witch I can be. Thank you!

[mxfattboii]

Spoilers

[mxfattboii]

How dare I not curse y'all on Tumblr the way I cursed Reddit with this image I created lmaoooo

[coyotevalentine]

Rlly makes you wonder...

[ttrust-no-one]

Tumblr is not a social media, it's an online psych ward.

[mxfattboii]

Recently diagnosed...

But didn't lose my partner to the psychosis.. Never had an episode before two months ago the way it hit..

I guess I really as messed up as I've always felt but I didn't know what was wrong... Then this bout of paranoia took over, I started feeling like a tin foil hate man (thought I had stalkers when I didn't) and kept hearing knocking as well as phones setting off, so weird I even heard my mother's alarm from when I was 5 just quietly going off in the background.. Was some really fucked up stuff while in the hospital...

At least I finally have a name for it, it felt like being "possessed" like I couldn't stop myself from the words or the feelings..

Never had such deep hallucinations before, a shadow flash here, a spider there whatever but the knocking? The phone alarms? That was scary, thinking people were listening to me through my phone (the episode kinda killed my phone addiction with me being scared of my phone)

I am now slowly trying to get in my feet (I quit my job during the psychotic breakdown, I thought people were following and watching me) luckily my partner took that 80% I couldn't do.. still anxious but they're helping me slow down... I'm tired of feeling this way..

[guerrillatech]

[mxfattboii]

Why this dead zombie from the new RE:9 looks like RFK lmaooo

[mxfattboii]

Recently diagnosed bi-polar (already ND), did any of y'all have a professional try to tell you to not continue transitioning?

Had a RN tell me she wouldn't with my mental health issues, though the doctor never said anything regarding my transness.

I wanted to ask was anyone else ever made to feel this way? Is this going to be commonplace as I fight for medical care? Just wondering, I'm gonna do what I gotta anyway as I'm not a quitter just a complainer

[kyown]

no one told me that wonder man was gonna be extremely heartfelt age gap yaoi. idc that they’re calling it a bromance that ending scene was one of the gayest things marvel has ever put out period.

[wonderful-anarchy]

yall should i go watch wonderman?

[agaygothicsunfish]

Yes, it’s extremely amazing.

Dare I say one of the best things marvel has put out ever. Each shot feels like it could be a photograph on its own. The story is amazing and very deep. It doesn’t feel like a marvel movie at all, there’s no meta or 4th wall breaking with some snippy quip. It’s authentic. It takes itself seriously. The soundtrack is also amazing. The show also does an extremely good job of pacing, it makes sandwiches with serious and comedic elements. The comedy is never a disservice to the story, and just allows for more room to see how these characters behave (ep 5 is a great example).

Even if you hate Disney and find marvel movies/shows to majority of the time suck (me), I still recommend watching this show.

[mxfattboii]

Agree. I'm a brain fried shirmp head with the attention span of that wack ass squirrel from 'Hoodwinked!' 05. And I didn't touch my phone while watching this cute ass show.

[delicatuscii-wasbella102]

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