Hello, I am Amsteria also go by shey or Mer! I am mainly a self-shipper but want to change to directory of my blog. My blog will now be slender-brothers focused. I want to focus on their relationships and in my writings maybe even fanart when I hone in my art skill portraying them and their dynamics as well with my self insert.
I’d love to make my own comic? Art skill isn’t well developed or there yet and I have no distinct storyline lolll but one day….one day….
Offenderman in my Au has been replaced with Crim, I do not want my oc associated with him no longer as I don’t think offenderman deserves the attention. If you use re-writes of offenderman that is fine just when interacting with my blog distinct that Crim and Offenderman are two separate dudes.
In my Au , offenderman has died. Not sure how I’ll kill him off none of my Au is set in stone.
I have a separate blog for Crim, At the time I wanted him to be rewritten offender but have now changed that so information saying he’s rewritten offender is now entirely inaccurate.
The blog is @devour-me-faceless and yes I selfship with him, and I selfship with Splendor I’m starting to think of some dynamic between us but am not sure yet.
sorry if this is too long or rant-y so feel free to delete if anything isn’t allowed /gen. i have tiktok just for edits and stuff but the selfship community on there is a prison. for a community based off of loving characters there’s so much constant discourse and drama and straight up bullying on there.
the first example that comes to mind is the lolcow-esque culture on there and how people froth at the mouth at the chance to be cruel, harass and cyberbully you if you do something they deem “problematic” (which can be as simple as expressing discomfort with doubles) like it genuinely disturbs me how so many people crawl out of the woodworks to be evil toward people. obviously i’m not going to name drop but there’s a literal thirteen year old who, by his own admission, is mentally unwell and has been hospitalised, and instead of trying to help or showing sympathy or concern, they literally just troll and hate and flood his comments with vile shit. and they justify it as “he’s problematic” when really he’s just showing symptoms of being an already mentally ill young person who is under intense online scrutiny and is constantly being hounded by virulent, transphobic trolls who delight in being wicked to him.
that and self ship / oshi culture is blended together so if you don’t have a shrine or thousands worth of merchandise then some people genuinely think that you’re “not a real fan” or “don’t really love your f/o” and there’s an intense push of people trying to be “THE ___ yume” or “___ number one fan!” that part of the community is incredibly competitive. and yeah, i know that’s the whole point of oshi culture, but not every self shipper is also part of oshikatsu stuff, so to see people genuinely think that if you don’t have a massive dedicated shrine and lots of merchandise then you don’t really love / aren’t dedicated to your f/o is really hurtful to people who don’t have the money to invest in stuff like that.
and there’s so many pointless rules and bad takes if you even breathe the wrong way people will jump you. if you’re a minor you can’t have a crush on an adult character, that’s weird (no it doesn’t matter to them if you make your sona the same age.) if you’re a minor you can’t have a crush on a character who’s the same age as you, that’s weird. you can’t selfship if you have an irl partner, that’s cheating. you have to ask your irl partner for permission to like a character. just genuinely the worst takes you’ve ever seen in your life.
(and the nonsharing discourse is something else entirely so i won’t even get into that. it’s about as bad as you’re imagining.)
Your f/o does not hate you. Your f/o does not find you annoying, they do not view you as a bother. The last thing they want is for you to think they'd ever see you as anything but a joy to be around. You're loved much more than that.
The tenderness soothing to my cruel affliction. Wipe the tear from my cheek and tend to the heart that’s distressed in anguish.
Some days it’s difficult to tell who inside the pairing is the Terror. He hides under a mask, when it slips it’s too late. A vile nature is revealed from underneath his grin he holds so dearly. She holds her own terror intimately, in hopes to hide any signs of her weaknesses. Her Terror is fake, it is not a true evil nature it is simply a means of survival.
Ah yes little selfship excerpt, don’t really have a storyline for us but I came up with the ship name Benign terror while daydreaming about splendor in bed one day. No my splendor is not evil, simply misunderstood. It’d make sense that a monster x human has some misunderstandings about eachother or that the society they dwell in would not quite understand their pairing. I like the idea of monsters x human having completely different cultures and life and thus making it interesting or complicated for them to be together. Despite that they fight for it and stand their ground as a couple.
Splendorman is dangerous, not evil. He could easily kill people and he tries his best not to. As a slender being it’s natural and instinctual for him to have internet darker natures, something a human would not understand. People fear of him, she is curious about him. Of course there are other people who accept slenders for what they are , they just aren’t a common group of people that exist in this au. He sees directly through her barriers as a human and gently destroys them, building her into an even stronger person than before meeting him. Before meeting him, she dwells alone and has about one friend and some close family members. All are distant as she’s moved away from them. What starts off as him observing her he keep watch and protect her from other creatures lurking turns into something else.
Art is by @Miyu.png on insta!! I love them sm their art is amazing!!
Ughhh this song is so Benign Terror coded, whenever I hear this song I think about the trope of splendor’s “darker nature” in Fannon.
When you fully flesh Crim out I would LOVE to hear everything about him. What's his backstory, how does he hunt for victims, who does he target? JUST INFO DUMP EVERYTHING PLEASE!
Ahhh thanks!! I’m so glad someone shares interest in him!!
So I have some things mapped out but hardly a backstory yet, I’m presuming he’s lived years alongside humanity never quite fitting in with them due to his appearance but it doesn’t seem to bother him. Though he does get lonely from time to time so he sometimes hangs in bars and social places especially where the lighting is bad so people can’t fully see him.
As for victims he targets are abusive men, or terrible men and he uses these men to gain his sustenance to survive as a slender. He basically targets men who act like the canonical offenderman if that makes sense. He’s fond of women and goes out of his way to protect them. He’s very respectful of women too and never pushes their boundaries.
As for hunting it’s usually easy, they find their way to him in a sense and if it doesn’t he lingers around the city keenly observing men until they fuck up and that’s when the hunt begins.
My Crim is sort of a vigilante character who is heavily misunderstood by the people surrounding him. Back in the Middle Ages (he’s existed for that long probably even longer before) people assumed he was some sort of vampire. How great the times have changed he can finally exist outside with other people without them trying to immediately kill him and fail. Even though he occasionally gets stared at or whispered about when seen it’s nothing like attempting to be trapped or killed. Crim will admit those times back then were fun, he enjoyed the rush from people trying to kill him. He’s somewhat of a masochist as well so really attacking him does no harm.
It’s also important to note while I use Crim interchangeably inside the creepypasta universe as a potential replacement for offenderman that Crim exists outside of that au, like he still has his own origin universe if that makes sense. He carries the traits of a slender-being but I’m not sure if I want to label him as one, the only reason I do is in the creepypasta au to make it easier for everyone. To me Crim is an entity who carries heavy resemblance to slender-beings but might not actually be one?
Also Crim is Married canonically ;) but back in the day Crim was mad pulling so he’s got alot of experience… and yes I did say earlier people usually don’t welcome him often because of his appearance but you know there’s other people who are open minded, let’s just say anyone who chose to sleep with him never regretted it, he’s a good time.
Anyways that is it for now!! Of course once I edit and revise his character a few times I will add his info to him. It will be under the Crim hashtag if you guys want to explore it, maybe I’ll even write a fic? But I’m not sure where to take him yet :) also I’m new to writing fan fiction so if I do write it, it’ll probably be rough even if it’s posted and will go through several revisions where I’ll rewrite stuff and update everyone. Okay thank you!!
Oh one more thing before I leave, if anyone has asks for Crim directly you can leave it in the inbox and he’ll answer you directly ;)
4. Longing
Splendor shifted, rearranging and crossing his limbs, then uncrossing, then shuffling closer to the rooftop’s edge, only to jolt back, struck by the sudden revelation that an accidental plunge below would indeed be a painful one, yet persistently striving to fit himself into that perfect, sacred alignment where his cheek rested safely on Offender’s shoulder and the interspace between their bodies was no more. He would hold his breath in anticipatory thrill, waiting for Offender to casually lean his head against his, and as that soothing, grounding weight settled, Splendor would finally relax and melt into the feeling.
The idea of Crim came to me when I realized Offenderman is just too hot to completely ban from existence… SO I set off to create my own sexy faceless man who is offenderman in every way EXCEPT for the ways or reasons that make Offenderman infamous.
I remember being on Pinterest and seeing this character from Hexatomb and my god…. How he reminded me of offenderman. Beautiful pale face, sharp teeth that could tear right through your jugular… my kind of man… so it had me thinking… I can make my own version of offenderman who is a lustful beast, a creature of night… but doesn’t have the irredeemable qualities of the original. The name Crim came to me shortly after and it got the aesthetic of what I was looking for, using the name offenderman is sort of useless now considering how my version is NOT a sex offender but a being of lust, crave and desire.
For my outfit design that’s where this character called Raziel from Hexatomb comes from, I really like the qualities an associations of fandom offenderman with vampires thus my personalized version of offenderman is infact vampiric in aesthetic and nature, although I of course still love the old noir aesthetic of his former form so I interchange his outfits from being based off Raziel from Hexatomb to the exact same outfit that the original sexual offenderman wears.
I have recently gotten a commission of a character design sheet from two wonderful different artists encapsulating Crim’s form/outfit
you know, I’ve always seen Splendor as this ultimately tragic character whose restless existence is forever guided by his innermost desperate craving to fit into the world that doesn’t want to make space for him. he’d clearly love to have the normalcy that humans have and yet is resigned to chase after only a semblance of it endlessly with whatever means he can muster and believes to be helpful - and that’s usually through his absolute optimism ™ (he cannot be all smiles all the time unless there’s a catch, right?) which, funnily enough, leads to a lot of unfortunate consequences, denial and therefore even enabling of his brothers’ behavior
so I’ve been wondering is this something that’s been explored in any fanfics or anywhere in the fandom? would love to know people’s thoughts in any case!
posting an excerpt from a one-shot i was working on and never came around to finishing. i just think it’s lovely and wanted to share it somewhere.
just Splendor being a cutie and Offender being a cocky smart-ass with a smidge of brotherly bonding and a bunch of other stuff sprinkled in.
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“People seem so tiny from up here,” Splendor murmured softly, a tinge of uncertainty marring an otherwise innocent tone of his voice, and then, after a brief pause, added with a nervous laugh: “Guess that means fewer chances for them to shout things at me, huh?”
“You really should’ve let me talk to them.” Offender replied and reached into his pocket to retrieve a piece of dull, scuffed steel — his old Zippo. Still clinging to a corner was a tiny, heart-shaped sticker that Splendor placed in a spurt of light-hearted affection, fully expecting it to be scraped off upon discovery. Instead, it stayed in place and, despite the irregularly frayed edges and faded shine of the surface, refused to yield to the constant chafing against the fabric.
“I think we have different definitions of talking,” Splendor said and a meek wince flickered across his face, unnoticed.
“Alright, let’s say it’d involve some intimidation. Maybe a little bone-breaking. A bit of forced character development for flavor. Maybe, some declarations of love, and, of course, a passionate fivesome to really hammer it home.” Offender said and appended the accidental pun with a pleased smirk.
Splendor recalled today’s incident, a kind of incident that had, to his great dismay, he had become too familiar with — an encounter with ugly animosity that his admittedly zany, yet very lovely polka-dotted outfits usually triggered in certain individuals with strident voices and equally strident opinions — humans and supernatural creatures alike. And even though he understood that those pitiful members of society were ought to be rightfully reproved and educated, his overly accommodating nature persuaded him that the best course of action was to withstand the initial embarrassment and then try to tune out the volley of upsetting slurs and suggestive remarks hurled his way. Some of them were exceptionally explicit and those that mistook them for a couple distressed him the most.
“Well, they weren’t exactly nice but I don’t think it would’ve warranted going that far?” Splendor finally said, failing to suppress the weighty and utterly annoying quiver right under his sternum that pinched every other vowel, dulled the consonants.
“Why not?!” Offender exclaimed and flung his arms wide with bewilderment so intense, Splendor had to flinch away to avoid an accidental whack on his shoulder. All was lost in the flurry of the broad gesticulation that Offender spared no effort to display: the somber, unlit cigarette lodged between his fingers, resigned now to a few more minutes of dormancy; the miniature petal of fire that hid away into the lighter; and the steel lighter itself, reduced to a plane through which flecks of last sunlight would jump at Splendor to successfully distract and blind him. “Call it public service — I nudge them in the right direction, they clean up their act — stop harassing people, stop getting wasted every night, get a job, start getting laid (that’s a huge maybe), and then, I dunno, do other human stuff, like accidentally make kids or rack up credit card debt they’ll never pay off.”
As soon this outburst fully caught up to Splendor, he replied, setting aside all the unsavoury rationelle for a moment and giving way to fond amusement: “You really think you’d inspire all that?”
Offender shrugged. “I mean, most people don’t get past the ‘what the fuck just happened’ stage. It’s either filing a police report nobody believes, or waking up the next morning convinced they had some kind of bad LSD trip. But I’m patient. I’ll keep trying — for the betterment of human society.”
“How very noble of you.” Splendor teased, nudging him gently with his elbow and earning a smile from Offender that never failed to coax that winsome, golden sensation to his fingertips.
Because I free-balled and wrote that fic chapter in a morning I might go back and change the entire thing lmfaoooo idk yet I just wanted to throw something into the ocean rq since I’m complacent and too comfortable in doing nothing.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Beginning to write a fic, I don’t really know where I’m taking it but I’ll post it here just because. I think the majority of what I want to focus on as of right now is developing a personality for my Splendor man and giving him complexity in the best way I can which will simply improve with time. Slenderman is in this fic too I’m not sure I want to write him as a complete villain yet but it seems angled in that way, really free balling it so there’s no other chapters right now since this wasn’t planned.
The overseeing watcher torments those who enter his forest, there is another who warns people of this fate but is feared as well. A woman moves into this forest unknowing of either and is tormented by the faceless creature inside her dreams. It wants to bend her and shape her into its mold, although they are both unaware that Splendor is there too. Splendor yearning for connection with humans, the woman wanting to leave behind humanity as she’s lived in the cruel world first-hand. They are both naive to each other’s worlds, and splendor has a darker secret, hidden underneath his mask of joy.
