Meghan. 24. Washington State. Angry feminist, coffee addict, obsessed with cows. She/her pronouns. I just wanna save all the animals and love everybody tbh
Reporter: We are live in front of the Avengers Compound. Word is that Captain America is training on the building! We hope to see a peak of this heroic man’s life !
Steve, opening the window, naked and fliping the bird: FUCK YOU TRUMP
Talkshow host: so, captain Rogers, there’s a rumour going around that President Trump is going to invite you to the whitehouse
Steve, doing his best “USO War Bonds” smile: is there now? Because I sure would hate for there to be a situation in which I can personally beat the stuffing out of him like I did to the Nazis in the ‘40s
Okay this ad campaign is actually great and every time I see it in a Tube station I laugh a little bit because it just reminds you how terrifically bizarre the human race is
my mom was talking about how she didn’t like a series of unfortunate events that much because it falls into the “adults are stupid” trope which she doesn’t think is realistic and i… really just don’t know how to explain to her that the point isn’t that adults are stupid, it’s that children don’t get listened to. some of the adults in the series are actually very smart, their problem is that even the good and decent adults in the series seem to staunchly refuse to believe the baudelaire children are just as smart as they are, or that they may know what they’re talking about, out of the sheer fact that the baudelaire children are children. it isn’t always a story of “adults are stupid, kids are smart, kids rule, adults suck,” it’s a story of “children are often mistreated or taken advantage of or at the very least condescended to, and don’t get their voices heard because adults don’t trust them enough to validate a child saying they are in an unfair or even abusive situation”
You’re going to be okay, you’re strong and i’m proud of you. Catch your breath and wash your face. Grab something to drink or to eat and remember to take any medications if you need to, okay?
You’re amazing for making it so far into life; thank you for staying alive.
I saw your personal post (and other post, I'm glad you're back!) But what's been going on with you? You went from being in a happy relationship (I think?) To making out with a 40 year old, do we all need to go beat some asshole up?
Aw nonny thank you for your concern haha! So, long story short? Who am I kidding this is too long of a story to cut short lol so here goes nothing. Put under the cut because honestly who cares but I appreciate the ask so I can ramble about my sad sad dating life haha
SO. I was dating a guy for a while, like on and off for a year, but the past six months or so we had been pretty exclusive and I thought things were going well. I loved him, he loved me, we hung out all the time and we decided to go to Las Vegas together for new year’s. That’s not something you do with someone you don’t have feelings for, right? Well Vegas was pretty good except for the few times we fought and got into some yelling/screaming matches with each other. (Mind you, we never really fought as a couple before this trip so that was shitty and things were not as perfect as we wanted them to be on this trip together) So last day in Vegas, we’re in the hot tub and he looks at me and goes “idk how to say this...but I think we should just be friends.” Just like that. I fought him on it as much as I could and said this wasn’t how I wanted it to end and I still loved him and wanted to see him and he basically kept saying that he didn’t want to be in a relationship and wanted to be single but he still cared about me and all this...but he kept treating me pretty much the same way. Seriously, like the rest of that day he kept kissing me and saying “I love you” like he always did, and he held my hand the whole time on the plane ride home. Then he dropped me off at my house, kissed me goodbye, told me he loved me, and said he would text me soon.
So basically he broke up with me but still wants to be with me or be friends with benefits or whatever without the actual relationship part, but I think it’s mostly because he wants me to find someone else and he knows I don’t want anyone else right now so he’s gonna let me have him still until that happens. Fucked up, I know. If I had freaked out and said I didn’t want to see him anymore and I hated him, I think he would have been kind of sad but he would have been okay with that option too. Idk man it’s just a really complicated, mostly fucked situation that isn’t looking too good. I’ve been trying to treat it like a real breakup because idk what else to do and I know that we’re probably never gonna be anything serious again so it’s easier. And I still love him so I’d rather have him in my life like this than not at all. But I still had a pretty damn happy relationship go to shit. Which sucks. Kind of blindsided me tbh. Which makes it worse.
And because I know I can’t really have him anymore and I should back off or whatever, I’m extremely emotionally unstable right now. Breakups make me do really stupid shit. Like always. I don’t handle them well and usually cope with a broken heart by sleeping with a shit ton of people or getting drunk a lot. Or both. Super unhealthy, yes, but it works temporarily and I get it out of my system after a few stupid mistakes. Then I move on. Usually. This is a special situation so idk if I’ll ever really move on for a while but I’m trying to cope I guess. Which resulted in me going to this bar that I was actually supposed to meet my ex at last night for the first time since Vegas, but he got stuck working late. I went anyway because I was super bored at home and my parents were getting on my nerves so I went all the way to this bar to sit by myself and drink. I regretted it about an hour in and thought I was kinda pathetic for being so desperate, but I decided I would at least finish my drink and then go.
And that was a good plan until this guy sat down next to me and he wasn’t that attractive but I was bored so I eventually started talking to him. He was playing those pull tab games at the bar (which have terrible odds, like worse than lotto tickets, and I told him so) and then he bought some for me to play and we were just talking and hanging out for a while. I had enough drinks at this point that I knew I should probably just leave but that little voice that tells me to do stupid shit? Yeah that little voice told me to keep talking to him and then flirt with him. And then somehow I put my hand on his leg. And he didn’t stop me. Then he paid for three of my five or so drinks and asked if I wanted to get out of there. So of course I said yes. I was tipsy enough that this was a great idea. Also this entire time we’ve been talking, I told him I was 22 but he keeps bouncing around on his age, making me guess but never telling me if I’m right. He has quite a bit of gray in his beard but I’m terrible at ages so I guess 35 and he laughs and says “sure.” Later in his truck (which I realize now was so unsafe to just get in his truck, fucking Ted Bundy style like wtf drunk Meghan THAT’S HOW YOU GET MURDERED) he admits that he’s 40. And this is after we had driven somewhere and fooled around quite a bit in his truck. I guess I can now say I’ve been with an older man? Like hella old though. Idk if I’m proud or ashamed.
So yeah. I got dumped in a weird way and still have a weird relationship with the guy who dumped me, so my natural reaction was to get drunk alone in a bar and make out with a 40 year old carpenter who was 10x more attractive after three long island iced teas. I’M COPING SO WELL. CLEARLY. *throws confetti*
You know I've always been the kind of person who does not handle breakups well and who always has this feeling of "I need to do something really stupid to feel alive and not like my heart is breaking" but flirting with then making out with a possibly 40 year old man at a bar I went to by myself on purpose is like an incredibly low point for me I gotta say
me: okay martin - can i call you martin? - i have a question for you, just a quick one, won't take a minute. you are obviously aware of your appeal to women, and men as well, and that a large percentage of your fans are in fact fairly young, much younger than yourself. are you aware, however, how many lesbians find you just as alluring? my data is of course just a sample but within the sherlock fandom you'd be hard pressed to find a lesbian who isn't attracted to you. now, some have posed that it's due to your increasing resemblance to judith butler - and you must agree there are striking similarities between you two, i mean just look at these photos - but i have a feeling that's not the only reason. what do you think?
this just confirms to me that he’s not just cut up about the fact mary died, but the fact that he feels guilty that all he wants and all he’s ever wanted or needed is sherlock
Exactly. She disappears twice - when the game is on and when they hug. Which means that Mary is not necessary anymore as long as John has love and work. With same the person. With Sherlock.
And Mary is his subconscious. So John himself notices that spending time with Sherlock makes him better. We got to look inside John’s head and it was filled with thoughts of Sherlock.
It is clearly hard for him to accept. Which is why he keeps saying mean stuff about him, mostly when he talks to Mary. A debate, with himself, about the worth of his feelings for Sherlock
I loved this episode BECAUSE it showed us John’s inner psyche, that John CONSTANTLY thought about Sherlock. LITERALLY EVERY SINGLE TIME MARY IS ON SCREEN, IT’S BECAUSE HE’S THINKING ABOUT SHERLOCK. EVERY. TIME. John needed to have that final debate with himself, to let himself know that it’s okay to love Sherlock.
