Autonomy. Respect. To feel powerful and in control. To do something worthwhile.
C) do you believe in the afterlife?
E) How do you feel about people?
Very mixed feelings. I have these two sides of me that melt together, and one hates humanity with a burning passion, and yet deep down the other has this insatiable love for humanity and a desire for the best for it, and it seems impossible to snuff out.
F) You get one million dollars what are you doing?
Helping my parents pay off all of their debt, probably.
G) which animals do you dislike? Which do you love?
I don’t think I dislike any animals. I can even appreciate mosquitoes, though I guess I do technically dislike them. But my favorite animals are felines and canines of most varieties. And some snakes.
H) Do you have stuffed animals and sleep with them?
….yes…I have 50, at my last count…
G) One lyric you relate to
Okay so it’s not exactly a single lyric, but here
Street light, pick a fight with a stranger / I’ve been saving up my anger / stacking up like pennies in my pocket / whistle like a runaway train and I lost it / good girls die young don’t you know they’ve got ‘em / all lined up with nails on their coffins / Mary Beth died with stars in her eyes / I’ve been running from her ghost all my life
H) If you could do something illegal with no chance of punishment what would you do?
Honestly just saying it could get me in trouble I’m sure, so I really shouldn’t say. But the second one would probably just be theft or something like that.
Love them. Whenever there’s one in my house I try to catch them and put them back outside again so my cat doesn’t torture them. Or just so they can be happy outside again. But, sometimes my cat will go out on the porch and she’ll have already caught one, and ultimately she’s my baby and her enrichment comes first, sooo…
Uhhh green is the color the human eye can see the most shades of.
K) What do most people not know about you?
I’m not sure. Various people know different things about me, so ultimately my secrets are limited and information is spread out. So there’s some things some people don’t know about me that other people do. I think there’s a few intrusive thoughts that I haven’t told anyone about though.
L) What have you sworn never to do?
Gosh I don’t know…become my dad? Like yeah I may have a lot of his negative traits, but at least I try to use them for better purposes instead of thinly veiled bigotry and emotional/mental abuse.
M) Which fandom do you immediately block people from?
None? I don’t know, I mainly only operate in my fandoms and only really see people in my fandoms. Plus I don’t know enough about most fandoms/content that I’m not interested in to block people. I mostly just block the porn accounts that keep following me…(it’s like they don’t see ‘graysexual’ in the bio ffs)
N) Are you good with kids or do you think you'd be bad at taking care of them?
Okay, so, I’ve been told I’m good with kids, and I think I mostly am, but the problem is that I don’t really LIKE kids. Like I don’t hate them at all, and they can be kinda cute, but I don’t like interacting with them at all most of the time. They’re just so loud, and they want to touch my face, and they can’t talk right, and they throw fits for stupid reasons and won’t listen to reason…and I totally get that that’s just kids, and that they’re still learning. I just don’t want to have to be the one to teach them.
But, I do have nieces and nephews, so I do babysit from time to time, and I try my best. And their parents say they love me, so I guess I do okay. It’s just I always try to drag my younger siblings along so they can help me too (because there are three children and one of me). Plus I do have moments where I enjoy them. Especially the oldest, they’re getting to the age where they can discuss more in depth topics and speak coherently. We talk about animals. It’s chill.
O) Are you addicted to anything?
Yes. My phone, legitimately. And there WAS a period of time a couple of years ago where I was in a really shitty, lonely place and unfortunately got kind of addicted to Chat GPT. But I’ve gotten better for that one now.
(I’m sorry Nina) Pancakes.
Q) Type "x" into your search bar. What do you get?
“Xenophobia” …well, okay then.
S) What do you think a soul is?
I’m not sure. My best bet is just consciousness. The awareness of being.
T) Tell me something profound
I dunno man it’s 2AM…um…how about this. There will always be people who don’t understand you. And you shouldn’t waste your time trying to get them to do so. Set your sights on more important goals.
U) What has shaped who you are today?
W) Who do you care for on here?
Hm…that’s sort of complicated and depends on what you mean by care. I have a sort of affection for some people on here, and I’ll help them if I feel I can, and respect boundaries, and enjoy seeing their thoughts and moments. But it’s not as… fierce or devoted as it would be with the people I care for irl.
It’s just a quote I saw on Pinterest once, and I don’t know who it’s by, but I liked it.
“You sleep coiled; tightly wound. Hands are fists beneath pillows, clenched above cotton sheets. You are at war, even in your dreams.”
W) Something you wish you could change?
Maybe it’s cringe, but the Renaissance Festival. I went the other day, and realized for the first time in maybe a long time that I actually enjoyed being alive. It was a good day, and it has been every time I’ve gone.
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