Your entitled entitlement is showing, Dear eldest sister.....
Why oh why dear eldest sister, do you honestly believe that I want to hear from you again?
After I walked away; a second time from the family.
A second time from the lack of support
A second time from the gaslighting
A second time from the abuse
A second time from the toxicity
Why oh why do you honestly believe that I would be happy to see your name pop up on my screen saying that I received a message from you on LinkedIn?
Not only are you entitled, you are... Delusional as well.
Also, Linkedin is for job networking, not contacting someone who wants nothing to do with you.
You say your a systems person? But you're using this system out of scope. And every system has a scope. A framework, a purpose.
Ah yes, you know all about that don't you? Dear eldest sister.
The framework was our family dysfunction and it was my purpose to be the buffer, the scapegoat, the emotional regulator, the fixer. And it was your purpose to make sure that I would conform to that and stay that way. To uphold the family toxicity and dysfunction. You so needed to be the responsible eldest daughter, and uphold that framework and maintain the definitions and purpose that was assigned to all of us.
"you need to be more tolerant"
"you need to be more compassionate"
"you are the only one who can soothe her"
"you need to be more supportive"
More... More... MORE! IS ALL YOU EVER TOOK FROM ME SO YOU COULD DO LESS!!!
I would call you crying because I needed help, your response, "I moved to new york to get away from all of this, you need to fix it" and then I hear you hang up. And then ever so quickly you're on the phone to the sister who was abusing me checking in with her to see if she was ok. You both discussing how cruel and selfish I am. And you accused me of betrayal when I walked away to find myself.
You claim to fix burnout? HA!
You caused it! You allowed it ! Dear eldest sister.
You are just as abusive as the other sister is. You are just as abusive as our 🤢 father. You are just as abusive as our 🤢 mother.
You are abusive. Dear eldest sister....
Why oh why do you still have the delusion that I would want to talk to you, after all these years?
Do you honestly believe that it will fix the bond? Repair the bridge? Pave the road?
YOU broke the bond last time, MULTIPLE times and you expected me to maintain it?!
I am not fooled by your fake offering. You make out that you want something and then bring none of he materials to build... And expect me to bring the tools and the resources. It's the same pattern. It's a choice... And I choose to not to fall for it again.
You expect me to be more.... And I expect you to be a non existent when it comes to my life, dear eldest sister.
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