Hi everyone! It's been a long time hehhe... I'm sorry for dissapering on you guys, espeically does waiting for deep updates.
The thing is that I have finally started my adult life (confetti, loud music) Just kidding, It's been hectic. I finally graduated university last december and quickly got hit with reality. It's been crazy adjusting and writing was thrown to the back of the box and well has gathered dust.
But I miss it deeply (pun intended) .
I really miss writing and feel I have grown emotionally, mentally and well in general hahaha. I reread a couple of chapters and wanted to throw my computer across the room LMAO. I felt humble after each word.
I want to write again, I really do. So i'm going to try and commit a day of the week to write. if that results to short chapters or even a long time between updates I hope everyone can be understanding. Of course those who are still here and waiting for my stories, and no hard feelings to those who moved on, it was me I was the problem hahaha.
You know, lately I've seen a lot of authors complaining about reader's engagement. Something's happening, people are quieting down. I don't see it, but I'm not the author. So you are not the only person who's notice this.
Write about whatever you want and feel. It's your blog; who's going to stop you? And I think "Deep" is a really good story. It's just that people forget about it because of the inconsistency in posting. Don't get me wrong, i know that life happens, and I know you've had a rough time since November of last year, but I remember the last chapter. Chapter 9. Oh, it was good! When you write, you write with passion and commitment, and you can feel it! I'm still waiting and wanting to see their stage in life, how they separate, how they develop, and maybe they'll understand more thanks to it? Or maybe it'll be too late? Only you know. Write what you want, how you want, and I hope you feel supported.
And btw you are the reason I joined tumblr
I agree that a authors consist updates is necessary and thank you for understanding about why i've been away for a while.
Thank you you're kind words. I think today I just hit bottom and had to rant somewhere to feel heard because I can't really be open to those around me at times. fortunately we can all sometimes turn to the internet and find friendly strangers who can help us.
Also. Are we going to have any updates on Snatch? Or is it discontinued, you know....the comments and all. I personally liked that story too💕
as of right now its a no for snatch.....if I ever do decide to try it again I would change a lot of things. but as of right now there are no plans of snatch ever returning.
Back here after an year and the first thing I searched for was your account. Just read Dear Namjoon's latest post 💕💕. I don't know if I'm sad or happy 😭😭 they finally got to see each other after so long, but.....🥺
And I'm definitely reading 'deep' from the very beginning❤️ I remember the story but forgot what part I read the last😅
Ngl Your stories have a separate place in my heart 😅💕
thank you so much sorry for the inconsistent updates. thank you for reading my stories. 💜
I feel like my stories are just mediocre sometimes, sigh I don't know why I came here to rant. maybe cause I'm not having a great time right now and I felt like writing.
and although it should be a good thing, it's not.
cause one bad day for me, could make me wanna change the whole plot. or just delete everything I had already written and saved.
Deep | M.YG
✧ Pairing: Min yoongi x reader
✧warning(s): explicit sexual content,explicit language,oral (f.rec),angst,unprotected sex,multiple orgasms
✧genre: angst, fluff,smut,fake dating au, contract
✧ synopsis: you're in love with your childhood friend but he does not see you more than just a friend. one day you ask him to be more than just friends, he agrees.
✧word count: 3.1k
a/n:hello everyone, it's been a long time now hasn't it. I had to deal with a lot of things at the beginning of this year. as you guys know i lost someone special to me in December last year and it took me a long time to recover from it. even after I dealt with my grief I couldn't write at all it was hard for me to write. I then put this all aside and started doing things i liked and rewatched shows and reread books (outside of fanfiction) and today I was listening to a sound track of my favorite movie. which helped me write this chapter. because I had written this scene more than 10 times. although the soundtrack has nothing to do with lovers and the ending is rather intense compared the rest. well this chapter was born from it. Not sure you guys will like the song but I decided to add it here to. if you want to hear it and go on. ill put a star where i felt like the song kicked in. it's called "harry & Hermione" they weren't ever lovers but their song. its my favorite.
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Yoongi's phone buzzed sharply, dragging him out of his restless sleep. He groaned, rubbing his face as his blurry vision focused on the screen. with a heavy sigh yoongi answers "yeah?"
"yoongi" his father's voice came through sharp and direct as always. "we're having dinner with her tonight" yoongi hums, still half asleep not caring enough to fully wake up, funny enough from his experience he knew the conversation wouldn't last long and he'd have the luxury to go back to sleep soon.
frustrated with his son he slams his hand on a surface "do you not care about your future, this is for your own good!" yoongi groans at the sudden rise of voice "this is why we are setting you up with her" his father continues.
yoongi blinked, the fog of sleep clearing as his stomach tightened. Her? wasn't this about y/n? "What?" unease creeping in. His father snapped "Chohee, the one we've been trying to set you up with, but you as always can never show up when called"
"aren't you having dinner with y/n?" he asked his words slow, as if he were trying to process the situation.
His father's tone shifted slightly, annoyance seeping through "yes, she'll also be present. but I'm hoping she can knock some sense into you. You're being stubborn. Maybe she'll talk you into accepting what's best for you"
yoongi's blood ran cold. the thought of y/n being dragged into this made his temper flare. the last thing he wanted was her caught up in this mess, and have her misunderstand. "Wait, you—" Yoongi started, but before he could finish, the line went dead. His father had already hung up, cursing under his breath he tosses his phone aside. His jaw clenched.
Throwing the covers off as he quickly swings his legs over the side of the bed. His hands were shaking slightly, but he didn't waste time thinking about it. pulling on a shirt and jeans he quickly moved to leave. buttoning his shirt as he rushed through his apartment gathering his things. In the car he calls her phone once, twice, three times but no response
"dammit"
By the time he arrived it was night, and he knew that the damaged had already been done. after repeatedly trying to call your number with no result he knew to expect the worst. He didn't even care to stop at home, driving directly to your place.
To his luck the lights were all off, attempting to call you once more he waited but there was no response. "honestly this..." groaning he makes his way towards your old bedroom window. hoping you wouldn't shut him out the moment you saw him. Seeing your bedroom curtain shut made him curse once more.
it was as if you knew he was coming. tapping on the window a couple of times he waits but there was no noise, annoyed he tries to yank the window up and to his surprise it worked. climbing into the room he looks around in the darkness "y/n" he whispers but there was no response. he had your room memorized, slowly and as quiet as he could be he walked to the light switch.
You weren't in bed.
and he stood frozen. Thinking of any place you could be.
"y/n? I thought you were st-" before he could jump out the window or hide, her mother opens the door and looks yoongi dead in the eye as she jumped of surprise.
"yoongi?"
"i'm sorry I was looking for y/n..." fuck fuck fuck
"oh..I didn't hear you come in-" a breeze then moves the curtain
"is this new, or has it been happening"
"me climbing in through her window?" he asked, he looked like a child ready to get yelled at.
"well is it?"
sighing he rubs the back of his neck "No, I've done this before"
she stared at him for a long time as if she wanted to say something but couldn't find the right words. "she's not here, stayed at your parents home after dinner. it ended late" giving her a small nod he purses his lips.
"please use the front door. you don't have to sneak into this house. and if you're sneaking in then it's because you're doing something you shouldn't be doing. is that the reason?"
"No ma'am" he answers quickly.
"hmm..alright then" stepping aside, yoongi quickly exists the room. after she shut the window she comes outs as well. there was a change in her stare, it was as if she had realized something and was trying to contain herself from...exploding?
"goodnight"
"goodnight" he responds, closing the front door behind him.
parked outside his parents home he felt miserable. He didn't want to be caught in a conversation with them and to his luck the living room light was still on. "shit..." he made his way around the house to try and attempt and enter through his bedroom but he knew that he had closed the window the last time he was here, and his parents never cared to enter his room.
the light was on.
he knew that it'd be her sleeping in his room.
and he was right, there she was laying in his bed, reading a book she had grabbed from one of his shelfs. trying to pull the window open he groaned to see it was locked. tapping softly on the window to get her attention, which worked as he turned alarmed towards the window.
he gave her his gummy smile but she just stared at him for a few seconds before walking over to let him in.
"I thought you weren't coming"
"dad called"
she didn't respond nor did she look at him, instead she laid back in his bed and went back to reading. "y/n, about what happened tonight-"
"you don't have to explain anything, your parents are right to try and make you settle" her voice was nonchalant, flipping to the next page she didn't care to glance his way. "you didn't have to rush here to explain"
he sat on the window sill, listening to her voice.
"do you think I should settle then. marry her?"
shrugging she turns the next page, and he knew she wasn't reading. she was just avoiding his eyes "you dated her before, didn't you ? wasn't she your first girlfriend? that's the reason why your parents are trying to set you up with her.. she was your longest relationship"
why wont you look at me? Nothing she said was making sense to him, all he could hear was the sound of her voice but the words didn't process in his head. He couldn't help but let his eyes wander all over her, the slight puffiness of her eyes indicating she might've cried...no, she did cry. her hair tied up into a messy bun. and one of his shirt, his shirt that was wrapped around her figure, his shirt that made her look as if she was wearing nothing el-
"why are you not saying anything"
oh, right. He looked into her eyes that finally were looking at him. she was angry. "what do you want me to say? that I don't want to marry her? well I don't. that's why I've been avoiding my parents and avoiding coming here" he knew what she was doing, she was trying to read him, see if he was lying. "then why did you date her for so long, that was the big question of the night you see"
because I wanted to see what you'd do
but he shrugged instead.
she scoffed, shakes her head and goes back to the book. he didn't move from where he sat, wanting her to take out her anger at him before he tried anything else. "there are more you know, they were just trying to be considerate by picking someone you had dated and knew" she turned another page. "y/n..I don't care who they try to set me up with i'm not-"
"I told you, you don't have to explain anything. I'm just being a good friend and telling you what happened." her voice was harsh and the glare she gave him made him want to laugh.
"you must've been a shitty boyfriend by the way, she only came to dinner to say she wasn't interested in marrying you. and let me not even get started at how she hated me and hated seeing me there"
cause she found out I was in love with you.
there was a silence, and he wanted to speak. but all he wanted to know was why she cried. knowing her, she wouldn't be happy with him asking that and he might just make everything worse.
suddenly she put the book down, and turned to stare at him. "why are you just sitting there"
and so he shrugged "was waiting for you to finish, and not be angry at me anymore"
"angry?" her cheeks turned pinkish "I'm only angry because you didn't tell me, didn't even warn me! I came into this blind and it caught me by surprise!"
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"I'm sorry" he quickly says.
slowly she got off his bed, walking over to him. "what were you doing before you came over here" she was a feet away from him, there was a spark in her eyes that made his chest tighten . "I was in your bedroom, got caught by your mother actually" her eyes widen "what do you mean?"
"she found out i've been climbing through your window, I couldn't deny it."
"you-you lie about so many things but had to confess this?"
"i was caught red-handed, would've been a bad idea. plus that women basically also raised me she would've seen right through my lie"
groaning she closes her eyes, yea.. it was going to be a interesting talk when she gets back home. this time she walked right into his space, standing between his legs as she stared down at him "you're so annoying" she looked upset. and he knew she wasn't upset about her mother finding him in her room. but something that happened that she just wouldn't say.
"i'm sorry" he says softly
and her bottom lip quivered but she quickly pursed her lips. her hands gently take each side of his face as she tilted it back, slowly she lowered her face to his and kissed him. he didn't move, he let her pressed her soft plum lips against his and waited. "you really..you're such a handful" she says
"I'm sorry" he apologized again
pressing her lips against his again he let her control the kiss as her tongue slipped into his mouth. he closed his eyes at the euphoric feeling, clenching his fists to stop him from touching her, his mind lost as he takes in her scent. In the end he couldn't help but place his hands gently on her hips.
but he was taken out of the trance when he felt something wet on his cheek. his eyes shot open and he looked at hers. she was crying.
"y/n-" but she didn't let him talk, wrapping her arms around him she kissed him harshly. at first he tried to gently pull her off of him but her grip would just tighten, he knew he could pry her off of him but chose not to. instead he picked her up, making sure to return her kiss as he walked to his bed.
there he laid her down, hovering over her he breaks from her lips. whining she tried to pull him down to kiss him again but he didn't let her. his hand gently brushing against her cheeks as he wiped her tears away "why are you crying" she didn't answer.
wrapping her legs around his hips he stared into her eyes again but she still didn't say anything. she needed comforting, he wanted to talk but she wanted a different form of comforting. had it been someone else he might've not cared and had had sex right away. but it was her, "why" he says gently once more.
she shook her head and began to unbutton her shirt. He kept his soft gaze on her as she worked her way down the line of buttons. he'd wipe every tear that left her beautiful eyes. pulling the shirt off his shoulders he tosses it aside. giving in.
pulling his shirt over her head he began to kiss her breasts, not having anything under, ha, he was right. sucking on her harden nipple he pinches the other giving it a slight twist as she moans, quickly covering her mouth.
he continued down to her stomach as he began to pull off her underwear he kisses her inner thigh. her back arches as he begins to kiss her most intimate part. she wrenched a fistful of the bedsheets as his breath played with her sensitive folds. her thighs tensing and her backed arched each time his long fingers as he caressed her folds. "y-yoongi, please just...put it in" he felt his stomach tighten,felt himself get even harder with the sound of her pleads. undressing he reaches into one of his shelfs as he pulls out a box of cigarettes but inside were condoms. "are they-"
"I bought them last time we came" slipping the condom onto his harden shaft he spreads her legs once more. he took her mouth to his as he deepen the kiss, aligning himself to her entrance he slowly entered her. both their breathing hitched as he thrusted into her. lifting her hips up to angle himself better he begins to thrust into her faster, deeper.
her nails dug into his broad shoulders, her eyes were shut tight. soft whimpers leaving her lips. he felt himself getting bigger as her walls clenched around him. it was as if he'd never leave her insides, as if they'd be stuck together forever.
she pulled at his hair, and he obliged letting her kiss him once more. he found her irresistible as she tried to remain quiet. bitting onto her breast she let out a low scream but that didn't stop him from sucking hard the same spot he had just bit. he could hear her saying something, something about getting caught. and the idea excited him, would that be the solution to everything? to their relationship? to his parents?
if they walked in and saw him making love to his best friend would they leave him alone, would they run and tell her parents who'd probably marry them.
he pressed his hips into her, hitting the spot he knew would make her loose her mind. but she just squirmed underneath him. "wa-wait i-" and her backed arched, her body twitched as she finished. but he wasn't even close to finishing. gently pulling out he kissed her "you know my favorite don't you" and she looked at him with dreamy eyes, nodding. with his help she get on her knees, lifting her butt and he felt liked he'd nut right there and then from just the view.
He thrusted into her once more. brushing aside her long hair that had long been out of the shape of the bun it was once in and nipped at her nape. teasing between her legs he kept rocking his hips back and forth and if he felt as if he was deprived of her all his life and was finally having a taste but his mind wouldn't let him be at peace as the sight of her crying haunted it. with one quick move of his hips he filled the condom of his semen and her body fell rigid on the mattress as he pulled out. tossing it into the bin he felt her sit up "yoongi" she whispered his name and he looked at her "yes"
but she just stared at him.
"y/n what's wrong"
she made her way to him, climbing onto his lap. "can't..can't you just be..." but she didn't finish her sentence. instead she lifted her hips and grabbed his hard cock "stay still" she whispers.
he didn't stop her, he had promised her this anyways. slowly she lowered her hips, his tip slowly entering her. moaning into his shoulder she, his breathing was hard and fast as he felt her take him fully. it was total bliss, more than he had ever imagined.
laid back against the headboard he grips her waist as she tries to move her hips in circles. "h-help me"
he thrusted his hips upwards into her, and she let out a loud moan, not caring to cover her mouth this time. letting him take over she sucked on his neck, devoured his lips at any chance she had. they quickly switched positions, with him on top of her as he held her legs over his shoulder thrusting into her.
"where" he asked, barely any voice inside him. wanting to fill her with his semen but he still asked. her walls clenched around him once more, making him loose his mind.
her body twitched as the knot in her stomach exploded, the bedsheets fully drenched at this point. "in-inside" she managed to say, and that was his last straw. his semen flowed into her, filling her completely he let out a low growl as he finished.
she was completely out of it, her walls clenching around him as he pulled himself out. her body twitched as she felt his semen dripping out of her. clenching her thighs together at the new sensation he couldn't help but pry her knees apart and rub his length against her opening both their juices mixed as he teased her entrance with his tip, slightly slipping it inside and out. "you were complaining of having me nut in you"
he grins "and yet you can't keep it in" she whimpered as he pushed more than the head of his cock inside her.
he slipped out of her. reached for her shirt he had tossed to the floor and handed it to her. kissing her once more he walks to his closet "we should shower, if my mother comes you can just say you wanted to shower."
they showered together, and got into bed after yoongi changed the sheets. she fell asleep in his arms that night, but he couldn't sleep at all. the next day she didn't mention to him anything about why she was crying and he didn't try to get it out of her. his parents were surprised to see him.
after having a long discussion with them that he would find his own significant other he left and made his way to y/n's house.
