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i lowkey got a pocket full of sunshine https://www.goodreads.com/nat-asha

[orgasming-caterpillar]

It's May already???? What's next, June?? And then? The snow in the mountains was melting and Bunny had been dead for several weeks before we came to understand the gravity of our situation?? And then WHAT, 2027??!??!!!?!?

[allaboutthedrama]

I actually liked If We Were Villains, but I felt very frustrated by the comparisons to The Secret History, because IWWV is written from the assumption that its group of weird-ass college students as fundamentally good people, while The Secret History absolutely does not. And that doesn't make IWWV a bad book, but it does fundamentally change the tone in a way that makes the points of comparison much less relevant.

[spookedstarzz]

i love thinking about richard hanging out with judy and her friends post bunny's murder imagine it's you and the girls and the most depressed guy ever

[thepoetsandtheplays]

far be it for me to agree with richard papen but he really was onto something with the whole i am nothing in my soul if not obsessive thing like yeah. that’s exactly the kind of poetic, pretentious shit i’d say to romanticise the fact that i have never liked anything in a normal way either

[thejackalking]

Oh, darling, you ain't fooling anyone with those eyes..

[betryl]

Discovered photobashing and of course I had to try it out with the Greek class

[pottetto]

THE SNOW in the mountains was melting and Bunny had been dead for several weeks before we came to understand the gravity of our situation.

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[darkmatilda]

richard papen

[twtuwuowo]

Richard Papen is truly god's strongest soldier because imagine being in love with every single member of your friend group and then learning said friends regularly host hedonistic rituals in which they all sleep together and to which you alone are not invited

[nat-asha]

my goodreads this week courtesy of The Secret History

[stealingpotatoes]

while palpatine sucks as a guy, you do have to appreciate how his wardrobe went from esteemed galactic chancellor to backalley goblin overlord after only about 3 seconds of dictatorship

[sailermoon]

babe are u okay ur crying about closeness lines over time by olivia de recat again

[sirwilliamlucasstanaccount]

Elizabeth and Charlotte are portrayed as very close friends, but they’re 6 or 7 years apart. It seems unlikely they’ve always had an equal relationship, more likely it’s sort of an idolized-older-kid dynamic that has recently come onto more equal footing. And it makes me sad to think that Charlotte had to navigate so much of coming of age by herself.

I imagine a young Lizzie watching Charlotte get dressed in fancy dresses and do her hair and go to balls and having such love for her as to imagine she must be a catch for any of the boys!! And to be so excited to hear all the second-hand gossip and the drama and think Charlotte’s prospects should always work out if she wants them to! And any time a match doesn’t work out for Charlotte, she wants to hide her own pain or embarrassment, or she doesn’t want to stop Lizzie being excited to enter society, so she tells Lizzie they weren’t in love or he was vain, and she’s still searching for the right guy.

And Lizzie loves her so much she couldn’t possibly think there’s more than what Charlotte’s telling her, and by the time she’s joined her in being out, Lizzie just believes Charlotte’s put herself above these options and she’s still waiting for someone new, and better, and why not? She deserves it. Lizzie’s not blind to how people speak of Charlotte in society, but it’s because they’re rude, or pompous, or perhaps it’s a coping mechanism from the time Charlotte rejected them, and she cannot for a minute believe it’s been what anyone halfway decent has always thought of her.

Then when Charlotte picks Mr. Collins, it makes absolutely no sense! He isn’t any better than some of the options that have always been around, and hasn’t Charlotte been the one to place herself above those boys? Haven’t they always been after her for her charming personality and quick mind? Hasn’t she been able to choose any of them at any point but has decided not to?

Beside the shock to learn Charlotte was perhaps desperate to marry, and that she would be willing to put up with a Mr Collins to do it, I think there must have been a very deep grief in reconsidering that maybe no one in this town had seen Charlotte for how wonderful she was, nor had loved Charlotte so much as Lizzie had and as Charlotte deserved. And by refusing to see this earlier, and refusing to engage with anything beyond optimistic ideals, Lizzie had left her to carry the feelings of disappointment and rejection all alone.

[lamignonette]

[nat-asha]

happy tears for circe

after everything she got the life she deserved. I was worried she would be turned into a tragedy (I just finished “if we were villains”-d1 tragedy)

my girl made it out. maybe I’ll reread song of Achilles at some point. not now. I am relishing the joy and would hate to open an actual tragedy

[nat-asha]

something poetic about this balloon I just haven’t yet put my finger on it

[faeryhound]

thinking about how james farrow chose a passage from pericles, a play where someone is thought to have been dead at sea only to be reunited with the protagonist, as his letter to oliver makes me feral