natasha parker

[natasha-parker]

Guardian ⚜ Lev & Natasha

[ofxtoxins]

“Traveling.” he said repeating the words. She had been traveling and now of all times, she decided to stop by? for some reason that pissed him off. and he was upset. For a vampire, she had been around the world, over and over again. Why would she make herself appear? if she wanted to be seen, than she showed herself. Which meant that she wanted him to see her, she wasn’t careless, and she was well to cover her tracks.

“You could go anywhere you want, unseen, like a ghost if you want, and yet you let yourself be seen. Are you really traveling?” if he was honest with himself, this moment in time. was a defining moment. A decision in which she chooses to let him go for good or not. Because he had tried,  he had tried to move on, this was the first time in months where he actually went on a date. Not even he could go through with it, because he didn’t want to. It just wasn’t the same. Not after their history together.

Sometimes he felt like he was going mad. He missed being an angel, traveling to places he wanted to go. Being able to sense her before she could even see him appear. Now he was a simple human, who could die at any minute.

“It is.” he sad looking back at her. This is where he lived. Lev saw the smile on her face, And it broke his heart.She wasn’t going to stay. This he knew. And part of him did wish this was a dream, because it was going to hurt him once she left, like it always did. He just wasn’t enough.

[natasha-parker]

Natasha now wasn’t sure that her stopping by and checking on Lev once in a while was a good idea, not now. Questions... questions... that’s all she could see happening. She didn’t want to answer them, or tell the truth. She didn’t want to make it seem like she wanted to be with him, or that she missed him; he deserved to live his life. It was a short one after all. Well, compared to her immortality. 

She sighed, “Yes. I am.”

Lying. She was good at that. It was technically  a fib, but she didn’t care. “I didn’t know you were here--- if I did, I would have left. I don’t want to put you through any more drama. You deserve better.” 

Natasha looked into his eyes, stepping closer to him she touched his cheek with her four fingers before letting them softly go down his face before they touched his jawline. Moving her hand away from him she gave him a weak smile, “It’s a nice city.”

[natasha-parker]

Guardian ⚜ Lev & Natasha

[ofxtoxins]

“No.” he said looking back at her. “I’m sorry.” he said nodding his head. He was the one that had kissed her because he couldn’t contain himself. It was all the emotions swirling inside of him that had him reacting the way he did. But with a history like theirs? it wasn’t something he could hold back. Time took away a lot of things, but she, she was ever and will remain endlessly beautiful in his eyes. He missed her.

She didn’t kiss him back and he understood.  But he wanted her to at least say anything. Something. It wasn’t like her to be so silent, she always had something witty to say, along with her own flare of a smirk. The way she was looking at him, it was filled with uncertainty, as if she wasn’t even sure if she should stay here.

“What brings you out here?” he wondered, she just showed up out of the blue, after all this time. How did she know where he was? or was this by accident? there were so many questions in his head, he wanted answers and he hoped that Natasha was willing to give them. She owed him that.

When he realized that her apology held something different, it all hit him at once. Natasha was apologizing for their past. His stare turned cold for a minute, remembering everything that passed. No matter what had happened, he couldn’t be cruel in his heart, she had hurt him, but here he was loving her all the same, if not more.

[natasha-parker]

He asked her why she was out here; she couldn’t say, she wouldn’t say. She felt foolish. As if she shouldn’t be checking up on him. It wasn’t an everyday occasion, it was just now and again. Something she had to do for her own peace of mind, Lev was human, a human life is nothing compared to Natasha’s, but she wanted him to live out his. She knew this was what he wanted. But her standing right in front of him, right now? This wasn’t good for him. She wasn’t good for him. 

“Travelling,” she shrugged, playing it cool. He couldn’t read her as good as he could all those months ago. He was human. He couldn’t sense her lie--- or more a fib, there was slight truth in her reply, she was travelling, travelling to see if he was in one piece. 

The vampire picked up his cold stare, she felt it. She didn’t blame him. The blonde deserved it, she treated him badly--- she ended it badly, she guessed the plus from all of this was that he didn’t have heightened emotions. She could see that he had moved on from her viewing in the bar and maybe that was for the best. He didn’t deserve her, he never did. Lev was always too good for Natasha Parker. 

“....and you? Is this your current location?” she gave half a smile, figuring he at least deserved small talk. Her just turning around and leaving wouldn’t do any good, he’d follow her. She knew he would.

[bitchylittlebeth]

Ashes of the dead

[bitchylittlebeth]

She couldn’t help herself, she smirked. The familiar voice of Natasha Parker —she had many memories of the undead girl. From the time the vampire broke her arm and she threw vervain at her to victimizing her as a demon and seeing her deepest fears and memories. It was a weird collection of memories to have; they had fun times after that. Until Diana soiled every relationship she  had build with people over the years and she had to leave them all. —Some deserved it but others not so much.

She took a second to think whether Natasha had recognised her before stopping here or not. It wasn’t that she was entirely different than she was all those months ago but she had changed. Her hair was longer now, elegantly trimmed, colored more like honey than sun and she had taken to heels more often than she had in her high school days; truth be told, she was mingling with a different crowd now and had to look the part anyway.

“It’s still pathetic.” she said looking at the ruins. “This town buzzed with life once; it was the center of the world in a sense.” Beth turned around to face the other girl with a smirk on her lips. She was kind of curious to see her after all those months.

[natasha-parker]

Natasha was still the same woman. Looked the same. Acted the same. She hadn’t changed one bit-- well, she changed when she met the Angel, but that was in her past and she was moving forward. No matter how much she may have loved him, it wasn’t there any more. Notice the loved. She realised she needed to be by herself, she liked it that way. Her company would always top others. Maybe that just screamed Natasha, she looked after herself, put herself first, and from time to time, she’d make an exception. Beth was that exception. Natasha didn’t know why, maybe it was to do with the history they had together. The demon made Natasha Parker vulnerable, something she hates, and the girl before her saw her at her worst.

When the blonde turned, Natasha returned her smirk. She looked different--- grown up. But there was something she noticed, something she couldn’t quite put her finger on. 

“So what brings you here? Intrigued to see what it looks like? Wasted trip in my opinion--- especially in those shoes.”

[rihannafenty]

[bitchylittlebeth]

Ashes of the dead

She stood outside the carefully marked perimeter looking at the ruins; the ruins of the town she had grown up in. It was ironic how she always said she wanted to get the hell out of there, be nowhere near that blasted town, but now this place called to her. From where she was standing she could see the half-ruined redbrick clocktower in the town square with everything standing between that and her torn apart. —This wasn’t the place she knew but then again she wasn’t the same girl who lived there either. No, that was a lie; she was still that girl only now her scars were so smooth and polished that she almost seemed normal to the untrained eye.

She wondered if she had enough power in her to reverse this; to turn back the clock and revive this town, the world she used to live in, but she wasn’t that naive or strong. But she was sharp and wary, her senses were yet to fail her so she knew. —She knew she wasn’t alone. “Pathetic isn’t it? —What this town has become. Ruins. Nobody trying to fix it…” she mused not turning to look at the other person standing there, watching.

[natasha-parker]

The view before her would have been almost heartbreaking to those who would have called this town a home. She knew that. Natasha had her own memories here; ones she would never forget, and ones she was quick to push away. As towns went, the blonde liked this one. Shame it was now in ruins, but she had lived long enough to see this happen to most places so she didn’t hold much of an attachment. 

Maybe it was just a coincidence that she came here the same time as Beth, Natasha was one to recognise a face instantly--- or even just the presence, one she had not seen in several months. A part of her wondered how she was doing, another couldn't care in the slightest. 

“Nobody does. People can move on at just the click of a finger, not surprising at all really if you think about it.”

[prettymysticfalls]

[natasha-parker]

Guardian ⚜ Lev & Natasha

[natasha-parker]

humanxlev:

When she spoke he knew that it wasn’t a dream. Which only confirmed that what he was seeing was real. She was here. Lev’s heart was still racing, and it didn’t matter what was going on in the bar behind him, and the past three years didn’t even cross his mind, because when he was with her, he forgot everything else entirely.Again, his feet moved him forward without really deciding to do so. He marched on over to her, and without a second to stop himself, he placed a kiss on her lips. If this was the last kiss he’d ever give her or have in his life, he wanted to remember this moment. It was selfish of him to do this without her permission but he needed it.

Stepping back a little, his blue hues gazed into the eyes that had never escaped his memory. “Sorry, I had to.” his voice was above a whisper, “Hi.” he said with a smile.

She didn’t expect that. Not at all. He took her by surprise and she didn’t know what to do. A kiss was the last thing on her mind. Maybe it was a bad idea to turn around. She expected him to feel a little different. She expected questions shot straight at her, but this? She didn’t know how to take it. Though this wasn’t to say that she didn’t miss him, no, she did. His kiss made the life inside of her jump, but she didn’t kiss him back. She couldn’t. It wasn’t right. Not yet, anyway. 

The blonde stood back a little just as he did; she didn’t break his eye contact once, she held it. Natasha was lost for words. She wasn’t quite sure what to say. She didn’t actually know WHAT to say. What could she possibly say? How are you? What have you been up to? It was tricky. She was almost scared, scared enough to the point of her feeling a little awkward. Lev didn’t know that she had been watching over him; in a sense, he had no clue and here she was. Would she tell him what she had been doing? Or would she leave it? She didn’t know. 

That was the thing with Natasha in this moment, she didn’t know what to do. Running her hand through her hair her features on her face could tell she was looking a little lost. But she still stood there. She couldn’t run away now. She owed him much more. She knew that. That’s partly why she remained right where she was. 

“Sorry,” she mumbled. She wasn’t quite sure where that came from. But she said it. Sorry for leaving him. Sorry for not saying goodbye. 

[natasha-parker]

Guardian ⚜ Lev & Natasha

[natasha-parker]

humanxlev:

The brunette smiled at him, like she was happy to be there. He almost wanted to feel sorry, his friends wanted what was best for him. That didn’t mean that they should have brought someone he wasn’t quite sure he wanted to get to know. It was quite rude of him, if he was being honest with himself. His heart never quite healed from the wounds.  People should at least be heard, even if he wasn’t into it, Lev was going to be respectful. He got the woman who, if he heard correctly, was named Lia, a drink.

Being human, sort of changed his life. He remembered long ago what it felt like, to be human. Compared to now, with no powers at all, it was something he had to accept. He chose Natasha instead of going back to Heaven. A decision he didn’t regret. Even if she wasn’t with him now. Every choice he made, anything thought he ever had, he wouldn’t change the events of the past, because with each passing moment, it led him to her. The best blessing her ever had.

One of his friends asked for a refill and Lev placed his beer down to get the bartenders attention. In all the commotion, he heard someone make a big deal of being bumped into, followed by other distant whispers and curses among the crowd. He reached the bartender and asked for another beer, turning around for a moment, he thought he heard a familiar voice, and for a second, Natasha came to mind. But he’d be crazy to think that right?

Lev saw a flash of blonde hair, and his feet suddenly took off running, he didn’t process it, he didn’t even make the cognitive decision. It was like his body pushed forward before his mind could even think. Lev could feel his heart racing, because even if for a second if he thought he saw her, to see her face, to feel her near. A rush of memories flooded him.

“Nat?” he spoke, once he was outside, and it was cold, and he didn’t care.

The very moment she heard her name being called, she turned around. She couldn’t help it, it almost seemed natural. Natasha did consider making one swift movement and disappearing, but she knew she couldn’t. She owed him much more than that. After all, she left without a goodbye. Seeing his face just made her want to move closer to him, but she stayed exactly where she was, she didn’t move. The only movement which came from her was turning around. The blonde didn’t know where she stood with him, of course she had kept a close eye on him after all these years, but that was didn’t. She was making sure he was ok. He was human and no longer possessed the abilities he had before and Natasha felt she owed him that much. 

“Hi,” she said, with a small smile. 

[natasha-parker]

Guardian ⚜ Lev & Natasha

[natasha-parker]

humanxlev:

He hadn’t heard of her, and the last time he had seen her was three years ago. A part of him blamed himself, that if it wasn’t for what had happened, if he had not been taken back to heaven, maybe things would have been different. Back in Mystic Falls he had tried to explain that to her. That he missed her, every single day. It wasn’t his choice to go, they had taken him. It seemed any effort he tried, it just didn’t get through. Nothing broke him more than that. Still with each passing moment, he couldn’t rip himself of the memories of her. Of everything that they shared with one another.

Lev had found himself going back to Chicago, his hometown. He got a job as a guidance counselor to help assist those that do not know which way to go. So even as a human, he still felt like he was everyone’s guardian angel. The University of Chicago is where he spent most of his time. On occasion whenever he’d go on vacation, he’d visit his place back in Hawaii.

Heading over to the local bar, Lev decided to just have a night to relax. Even inviting a couple friends, who in turned invited a couple of their female co workers. “There he is!” he could hear one of his friends shout out as soon as Lev arrived. “Hey, I want you to meet someone.” Lev approached the bar, and one of his friends set him up, to which Lev said no, but it seemed he did it anyways. Lev wasn’t quite ready for that, to move on, even after three years. “Hi, my name is Lev.” he shook the brunette’s hand. He looked around the bar for a few minutes. There was a feeling that he had, that he often just thought it was nonsense, but it’s happened more then once, like he was being watched. He wasn’t sure. Shaking his head, he ordered himself a beer. 

The vampire’s sense locked onto Lev as he walked into the bar, she didn’t obviously stare at him, she merely took a quick glance and went back to her drink. Despite her being in the corner she couldn’t start watching his every movements as it would soon become obvious. Natasha had always wanted to approach Lev whenever she checked up on him, just to finally be able to speak to him once more, but she never plucked up the courage. She couldn’t. After these years which have past, she was more than she he would have healed – or at least moved on. Her popping up randomly one day wouldn’t do him any good– even if it was just a catch up. 

 Natasha planned to go after her drink, she couldn’t stay too long. It wasn’t that she didn’t want to, no, oh she could keep an eye on him for hours to make sure he was safe. But for some reason, that knot in her stomach wasn’t settled when he shook the brunette’s hand. It wasn’t that she was jealous, she wasn’t, she was simply unsure of the feeling she got by watching that encounter. Maybe she was pushing it too far by having a drink in the same place he was, but she would do this every now and then, be in the same building as him. She liked seeing him, even if he couldn’t see her. 

She finished her drink and stood up from her chair, as she moved out of the corner she managed to knock into a stranger due to her being more in tune with Lev’s conversation than she was her own movements. “Oi!” she instantly turned and looked at the man who was drawing way too much attention to the whole, now exaggerated situation. 

“Grow up,” Natasha snarled at the man; glancing him up and down, making sure her superiority was known before heading towards the exit, her blonde locks bouncing behind her as she closed the door.

[natasha-parker]

Guardian ⚜ Lev & Natasha

Yes. This is what she had wanted. Blood. Three years had gone by since she left Mystic Falls and the blonde didn’t have a care in the world. The town had caused her to hit rock bottom and she knew the only way for her to drag herself up was to leave. She had to. The memories surrounding that very town; pained her, she hated it and getting away was the best thing she could have done for herself. Natasha left her memories behind her when she waved the town goodbye, though there was one memory she held onto. That memory was Lev. It had to be. There wasn’t a time she wasn’t unhappy when he was in her life. She loved him. Natasha had loved him; angel or human, with all of her heart. She couldn’t help it. She just did. Though she didn’t say goodbye to him when she left, she couldn’t. She should have done, but she didn’t. Natashed couldn’t face the pain. Yes, perhaps this was selfish of her, but she was thinking of herself. She needed to straighten herself out. 

Her fangs pierced into her victims neck; indulging. It was heaven. Natasha wasn’t as careless as she had been before, she felt herself. She was able to control her hunger. Though this didn’t mean she wouldn’t feed from humans, because she did. Every single time she went for lunch, she’d pick a victim, male or female, it didn’t matter, as long as she satisfied her cravings, she was content. The very second she had gotten what she had wanted from Nathan she dropped him to the ground, carelessly, yes, but that was her style. Natasha didn’t need to compel him, for she had done so previously. Telling him to forget every single thing that had happened the moment he touched the ground. So she knew she was safe. 

The vampire found herself in Chicago’s. This wasn't pleasure; leisure, nor business, this was checking up on a stranger she shared memories with. Lev. Natasha couldn’t not remove him from her life. Despite her not saying goodbye to him, she still kept a close eye on him. She had to. He was human. Incapable of truly protecting himself from actual evil. Lev had been her angel for so many years, it was her time to be his. She didn’t mind. She didn’t even speak to him. She remained undetected every single time she visited. It was only quick. Then she went. 

Natasha had decided to get herself a drink after her meal. She knew nobody would find Nathan in a hurry and she also knew that Lev was safe when she had checked up on him. She could sense him outside of the bar, but she was hidden. She sat in the corner of the room, making sure she was unnoticeable if anybody took a quick glance. Just in case he did make a visit into the bar.

[bitchylittlebeth]

Can we not --?

[bitchylittlebeth]

I think it’s mostly cause we’re awesome. I’m sassy, you’re lethal; we’re a good combo..but we really suck at compassion.

[natasha-parker]

Ah, couldn’t have said it better myself.

[ofxtoxins]

“Anywhere really.” he said with a smile. “I feel like seeing the town lights.” or at least a view of the town. Something he did often when he was in Mystic Falls.

[natasha-parker]

“So I take it you feel more free being human?”

[marstuart]

Alison, beautiful, smart and popular, is that type of girl that makes other girls feel cool when they’re hanging out with her, casual chic. (x)

[ohmyviscount]

there was no in-between for her. it was either all or nothing. she wanted everything but settled for nothing. //insp.

[bitchylittlebeth]

Can we not --?

[bitchylittlebeth]

Sometimes I wonder why we’re friends…

[natasha-parker]

I think many people would.

[ofxtoxins]

“Alrigh.” he said as he walked wherever his feet take him.

[natasha-parker]

“So... where are you off to?”

[bitchylittlebeth]

Can we not --?

[bitchylittlebeth]

You make me feel so comforted.

[natasha-parker]

Then my job here is done.