* / THROWAWAY BOY.

YOU FINALLY MADE YOUR BROTHER CRY.

[natsutodoroki]

can't believe it's the end of the era ...

[natsutodoroki]

you .... beautiful darling angel.

[natsutodoroki]

LISTEN I HAVENT GONE HERE FOR A WHILE BUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAA @musclar ‘s HEADCANONS ARE NOW CANON AND IM JUST SO HAPPY FOR HER!!

[natsutodoroki]

MY BABIES  🥺🥺🥺

[zenaz-en]

“ Is it really you…Touya? “

“…Natsu-kun“

[natsutodoroki]

i feel like one day dabis just gonna come into a fight and someones gonna call him touya but when we get the text spoilers we’re all just gonna skip over it as fantranslation or something bc they’ve hinted at it far too many times.

[natsutodoroki]

HEADCANON: natsuo, touya & trauma that comes from death. (aka the sibling loss meta i keep on going on about doing repeatedly. )

one of the most important parts of natsuos role in bnh.a is his relation to his older brother, touya. his appearance sparks a form of catalyst in the family, he shows a more negative view of end.eavour from his own family, presents a completely dependent character. natsuo is the member of the family who brings up that something happened to touya, and his consequent arc is the one that finally confirms the fact that touya is actually dead, and that there’s a big chance that endea.vour was involved in this. - it’s as fuyumi says, he was the closest to touya. we may not see touya’s POV for a long long time, but the question still remains? just how much did touya’s death affect natsuo?

when someone around them dies, children just like adults may feel intense sadness or grief over the loss of a loved one. however, some children may experience greater than usual sadness and upset and have a more intense reaction known as childhood traumatic grief. this is characterised as symptoms which are associated with PTSD. 

natsuo himself suffers from this, and i am here to explain why.

childhood traumatic grief has a wide variety of traumatic grief reactions, each of which are different in regards to a childs age and status. natsuo was about 9 when touya supposedly died. this means he would have experienced the symptoms below:

May repeatedly talk or play about the death. / avoid talking about the person, or about places and/or things related to the death. May avoid reminders of the person (for example, may avoid watching TV news, may refuse to attend the funeral or visit the cemetery). 

these may seem like claims that completely contradict each other, but seem to fit in terms of natsuo well. while natsuo has always mentioned about touya, and that something has happened to him, he actually refuses to state touya as dead. the times he talks about him, he uses vague language when he describes other events fine. in fact, he chooses to not acknowledge it to the point that it is his own father who speaks up to him that touya is in fact, dead (ik this is the fantranslation but its all i could find). natsuo is also the one member of the family who has completely moved out of the house, and his conversations when not led on by someone else tend to form a lot about life outside being a hero, or a sibling. such as asking shouto about his school friends and life, compared to what it’s like working in the hero course. fuyumi also seems to talk about the whole events when natsuo isn’t there, such as commenting on their relationship once he has left, as she knows this is a difficult subject for him. he wants people to acknowledge something happened to touya, but he wants to avoid exactly what. 

May have nightmares about the death  /  May become withdrawn, hide feelings (especially guilt). 

this one really explains itself, but natsuo confirms that he’s had touya in his mind constantly. being constantly connected to the memory of his brother it’s most likely he’s had nightmares about the fact: he is stressed when he brings it up. as well as this, it’s brought up by shouto in the first instance in chapter 192 that natsuo isn’t like he was when he broke down. along with pysical confirmation from fuyumi, it’s safe to say that this is something he’s kept hidden from someone who at least became a mother figure towards him. it’s not something that he’s open about. he’s kept it hidden for at least ten years. 

May have difficulty concentrating on homework or class work, or may suffer a decline in grades. 

it’s mentioned in natsuos character page that the main reason he was convinced to go to university was because he was told by fuyumi to go and do what he wanted to pursue, suggesting the college education was important to him. after touya’s death, i headcanon that natsuos grades did slip, due to this he had extreme difficulty focusing. of course this went unnoticed by most people, but fuyumi picked up on it. and she helped him do better. this is why university and fuyumi’s words become so important to him. this is the opportunity she gave him once before, and he has used her help for a lot, he wants to make her proud of him. 

May worry excessively about their health, their parents’ health, or the health and safety of other people. 

this one is quite straight forward. natsuo is currently studying medical welfare. he wants to help other families before they enter a situation like his own. he’s one of the first to check on a persons mental, physical or otherwise wellbeing. he constantly visits his mum in hospital, despite the mixed emotions he felt along with her closeness to shouto, and seems to come to family dinners for his sisters sake.

[natsutodoroki]

The study found that adolescents confronted by the loss of a sibling often experience trauma associated with the loss or witnessing the decline of their sibling as well as a sense of disenfranchised grief, where the intensity of their grief may not be recognised by other people or may be seen as lesser than that of their parents.

h.

[natsutodoroki]

to add onto yesterdays post but like ... natsuo teaches shouto how to drive when he’s old enough. because thats the one thing touya never taught him to do.

[natsutodoroki]

sometimes i think abt how natsuo was taught so much by touya and how little time hes been able to spend with shouto so some days shouto comes home telling them smth he was taught by aizawa / his friends and natsuo starts to feel guilty once again because even though he’d learnt it from his family, he hadn’t been able to give shouto the chance to learn it from him and i just.  🙃

[deafmic]

🔥❄️ Todorokis ❄️🔥

 I made this as a way to refine my painting and under painting technique a bit! it was really interesting to work with a lot of blues and try to work them into skintones. These characters were perfect to do it, lol.

[jamscandraw]

my brother my brother and me

[azotho]

I wish his happiness😢

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[natsutodoroki]

thinking about natsuo giving someone a hug

[saridellart]

happy birthday natsuo !! 7/1

➡️ Don’t steal, edit, repost and use my art ⬅️

[natsutodoroki]

please take editing programmes away from me 

[natsutodoroki]

what she says: i’m fine. what she means: people base natsuos personality on the one time he stands up to his father although it’s pointed out by both shouto & reflected by fuyumis expression that natsuo isn’t usually like this, even though he walked out & tried to diffuse the situation & anger he was feeling by leaving the room before he was pushed into replying. while natsuo is bitter, he’s not generally angry, & shout ups are rare for him, as he’s seen to be very calm & collected even while angered ( such as his discussion with rei, it’s handled in a mature & professional manner. ) natsuo isn’t some angry kid & nor would he hold the same resentment towards someone he grew up with & looked after him with someone who caused his family pain. that’s just not how he is. although the situation may be complicated, he has never been sure that he ’ hates ’ dabi, or instead finds himself telling him he’s on his own. there’s more to him than the bitter & anger created by his father & that’s why we got to see him interact with everyone else before because horikoshi wanted us to see that, too.