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[nbeanery]

Yall how do I know if I’m trans? Am I faking it or repressing it? Where is the lineee

[depsidase]

[sollun-tea]

𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐒 𝐌𝐀𝐍/𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐂 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

I don't know if anyone has done this before, but I will make one anyway. When I was still questioning, I was in search of different works that represented transmasculine individuals, not just as side stories or background characters, but a story witten from the eyes of a transmasc character and focused on his/their journey. It took a lot of work to actually find some of these but I did. So I decided to compile a list of books I've found so far, the gender of the main character, genre, and romantic pairing where applicable.

For some of the ones I've read, I have added additional information, but I'll try to leave out spoilers. I may make a mistake with that though so please let me know if that's the case so I can edit it. Also, just because I didn't add the romantic pairing for some, doesn't mean there's no romance in them; they may be key to the plot, minor parts of the story or are non-fiction.

In addition to the above, for books marked as horror --especially books by Andrew Joseph White, this man does not joke-- PLEASE READ THE WARNING PAGE ON THEIR BOOK SITES. THERE ARE ALSO WARNINGS IN THE BOOKS, DIGITAL OR PHYSICAL. READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION.

Please note some of these stories may or may not contain some level of transphobia, homophobia or other forms of discrimination. I have not read many of them so please look into them before you read.

Fiction

• The In-Between Bookstore by Edward Underhill (trans man)- Contemporary, coming-of-age, time travel fiction || It's a cozy book, the time travel isn't anything big enough to warrant a scifi label.

• Can't Take That Away by Steven Salvatore (genderqueer)- Contemporary, music, YA.

• Between Perfect and Real by Ray Stoeve (trans boy)- Contemporary, YA || Theatre kids, mostly focuses on the main character growing to accept himself and how to handle that topic with others.

• Man o' War by Cory McCarthy (transmasc nonbinary mc and nonbinary sc) (t4t)- Contemporary, YA, mental health, romance|| The main character comes to terms with their transness while dealing with some internalized transphobia and dysphoria.

• Second Chances in New Port Stephen by TJ Alexander (trans man) (mxm)- Comedy, romance, contemporary.

• Most Ardently: A Pride & Prejudice Remix by Gabe Cole Novoa (trans man) (mxm)- Romance, YA, historical || It might not be as enjoyable if you try to compare it too much to the original Pride & Prejudice story. Just think of it as an author's canon-divergent AU.

• Felix Ever After by Kacen Callender (transmasc, poc) (mxm)- Romance, YA, contemporary.

• Old Wounds by Logan-Ashley Kisner (trans boy and trans girl mc)- Horror, paranormal, YA, Contemporary.

• Compound Fracture by Andrew Joseph White (trans boy, neurodivergent(autistic))- Horror, contemporary, thriller || I absolutely adore this book and especially the author for all his works. It handles the topic of generational trauma and existing as a neurodivergent person so well.

• Lakelore by Anna-Marie McLemore (trans boy and nonbinary mcs, neurodivergent(ADHD and dyslexia)) (t4t)- YA, fantasy, romance, contemporary.

• The Transition by Logan-Ashley Kisner (trans boy)- Horror, paranormal, fantasy, YA, werewolves || A book I also adore, especially for our horror werewolf fans. This book really hit close to home for me, I also highly recommend.

• The Spirit Bares Its Teeth by Andrew Joseph White (trans boy and trans girl mc) (mxf, t4t)- Horror, YA, historical, fantasy, gothic || Also a good read, not finished with it yet but it's amazing so far.

• Rules for Ghosting by Shelly Jay Shore (trans man) (mxm, c4t)- Romance, contemporary, comedy, paranormal.

• Self-Made Boys: A Great Gatsby Remix by Anna-Mari McLemore (two trans boys, poc) (mxm, t4t)- Romance, historical, YA || Remember, Canon-divergent™.

• Cementery Boys by Aiden Thomas (trans boy, poc) (mxm, c4t)- YA, romance, contemporary, fantasy, paranormal || Many recommend this one.

• Hell Followed with Us by Andrew Joseph White (trans boy) (mxm, c4t)- YA, post-apocalyptic, (body) horror, survival thriller || Also recommended.

• Sunbearer Trials by Aidan Thomas (trans boy, poc)- Fantasy, YA, mythology.

• Venom and Vow by Anne-Marie McLemore and Elliot McLemore (trans boy and bigender mcs, poc)- Fantasy, YA, romance.

• And They Were Roomates by Page Powars (trans boy) (mxm, c4t)- YA, romance, contemporary, comedy.

• The Passing Playbook by Isaac Fitzsimons (trans boy, poc) (mxm, c4t)- YA, romance, contemporary, sports.

Non-fiction/Memoirs and Autobiographies

• Sorted: Growing Up, Coming Out, and Finding My Place by Jackson Bird (trans man)- Memoir & Autobiography.

• He/She/They: How We Talk About Gender and Why It Matters by Schuyler Bailar (trans man)- Memoir, educational guide || Not finished with it yet, it's a book more suited for allies or people to help understand trans folks in general. He talks about his personal experiences and journey, and also includes explanations and educational information on trans people, our care, and experiences.

• Self-Made Man: Autobiography of a Black Transgender Man by Kevin Thompson (trans man, poc)- Memoir & Autobiography.

16+ (Older teens/Adult)

• The Build-a-Boyfriend Project by Mason Deaver (trans man) (mxm, c4t)- Romance, contemporary, new adult, fiction || Explicit sexual content.

• Idlewild by James Frankie Thomas (trans man)- Coming-of-age, fiction, contemporary, dark academia.

• All the White Spaces by Ally Wilkes (trans man)- Horror, survival thriller, historical, mystery, cosmic horror.

• The Natural Mother of the Child by Krys Malcolm Belc (transmasc nonbinary)- Memoir & autobiography || Experience with gestational parenthood and childcare as a transmasculine person.

• Something That May Shock and Discredit You by Daniel Mallory Ortberg (trans man)- Metafictional memoir.

18+ / Mature Audience

My blog is already 18+, but to the minors who may stumble on this post and stubbornly and curiously peer into this section, this part is NOT for you. There are appropriate books above you can pick from but the books listed below are not, they are MA for a reason.

Now for the rest of us, here are books categorized as either Mature or Adult. We will start with Fiction:

• You Weren't Meant to be Human by Andrew Joseph White (trans man, neurodivergent (autism, non-verbal))- Horror, thriller, scifi, contemporary, psychological horror || This book is visceral, explicit and blunt. Body horror is a major part of the plot among other very dark themes so I repeat, read the warnings on this book. It is my number one book from this author, and I connected so much with the main character I can't even begin to explain it. But others may not be able to read through the book, especially if it is triggering. So please read the warnings.

• The Leech by Hiron Ennes (trans man or intersex, unclear but he is trans and uses he/him)- Horror, scifi, gothic, fantasy, dystopian.

• The Woods All Black by Lee Mandelo (trans man)- Horror, novella, historical || The romance in this one is a little problematic to some and not others due to the age gap. Outside that it's quite good.

• A Gentleman's Gentleman by TJ Alexander (two trans men mcs) (mxm, t4t)- Romance, historical.

•Ponyboy by Eliot Duncan (transmasc) - Contemporary, mental health and addiction.

• Dead Collections by Isaac Fellman (Trans man) (mxf, c4t)- Fantasy, romance, paranormal, vampires, horror.

• Confessions of a Fox by Jordy Rosenberg (two trans man mcs)- Historical, literary fiction, metafiction || Get's pretty explicit with sexual content and gory or visceral depictions.

• The Church of the Mountain of Flesh by Kyle Wakefield (trans man)- (Body) horror, fantasy, adult, religion, thriller, historical || Again read the warnings, the religious trauma is strong with this one, amongst other things.

• I will also like to add another indie trans author named Mars Adler who writes horror and dark novella and novelette with trans or queer main characters. They often include t4t representation as well. You can take a look at his books and stories here or on Pinterest: https://marsadler.itch.io/

Of course, the gender of the character depend on the story you're reading, but there are trans men and transmasc representation as main characters among others. I put this in this section because the author mainly writes stories for a mature audience.

Now for non-fiction:

• Beautiful Monster: A Beginning by Miles Borrero (transmasc genderfluid, immigrant poc)- Memoir & biography || For heavy themes.

• Young Man by Lou Sullivan (trans man)- History, memoir & biography || Compiled private journals written by the American trans activists and historian, Lou Sullivan.

• A Trans Man Walks Into a Gay Bar by Harry Nicholas (trans man)- Memoir & biography || This was one of the first memoirs by a trans man that I had ever read when I was figuring out my identity. It helped give me some perspective to my experience and understanding on navigating the gay scene. It was a good read. He does delve into his sexuality and relationship on a very intimate level so it gets explicit.

• Stone Butch Blues by Leslie Feinberg ( - ) - Historical, social realism, coming-of-age || It follows the journey of a stone butch lesbian and transitions through life both societal and gender wise. According to what I've read, it's supposed to be fiction but the author's life is highly reflected in the story and the main character enough to nearly be non-fiction, so it's in an interesting grey area. Please search up trigger warnings as it delves into very real but triggering experiences.

• We Both Laughed in Pleasure by Lou Sullivan (trans man)- History, memoir & autobiography.

•Pageboy by Elliot Page (trans man) - Memoir & autobiography.

This is not an exhaustive list, there are very much books I am missing from this list so please feel free to mention them in the comments (Only books where the main character or one of the main characters is a trans man/transmasc please). I'll update the list accordingly when I can. And again, please let me know if I've made any mistakes here.

I know a lot of us are starved for representation, but I promise you their are out there. It's not easy to find but it's there. We do not find much representation in movies, series, games, etc, but there are many books with us represented in it, and many written by other trans men and transmasculine people.

I also plan to do another for nonbinary and transfem representation but it may take a while before I get to that.

In the meantime, enjoy!

[xalatath]

I have never, and will never, use "ofc" to mean "of fucking course". It literally stands for OF Course...

[natnormalatall]

roald dahl was antisemitic and misogynistic. george orwell was openly homophobic. edgar allan poe married his 13 year old cousin. dr seuss cheated on his wife (and was racist as well as antisemitic!). hp lovecraft was racist as fuck. anyways they’re fucking dead it’s not like you’re enabling their behaviors in the afterlife or something. then again I think they bleed into the books so uh keep an eye out for that

the difference between these old white guys and jk rowling is that the former group is all dead. jk rowling is alive and using your money to oppress trans people

[tall]

[theconcealedweapon]

[maarvarq]

Always bear in mind that there is absolutely no legitimate evidence that Luigi was actually the one who killed the insurance company guy.

[theconcealedweapon]

Of course he wasn't. He was at a party with me that day.

[tiny-space-whale]

No but like literally, actually. All bits aside.

He didn't do it.

The cops very clearly planted evidence on him because they had to make an arrest because all eyes were on them and whoever actually did the deed was making them look stupid.

Why would the real killer hero have kept the weapon on his person and traveled two states over while carrying it and a manifesto in his bag, conveniently turning the crime into a federal matter? The same guy whose bag they found in a park, filled with monopoly money? Why did the police turn off their bodycams, take Luigi's stuff, drive a block away, turn their bodycams back on, go back into the restaurant, and then arrest him?

From the moment of his arrest, even left-of-center media has been presuming his guilt without examining anything (e.g. calling him "the killer" instead of "alleged" or "accused") and then when I say he didn't do it, the nearest person chimes in with some quip that tells me they think he did do it but should go free anyway. Don't get me wrong, I would have the same attitude if he had done it. But he didn't. It makes me feel like the only sane person in the world, even among my staunchly leftist friends.

[elexecution]

there are too many things happening this summer that i'm thinking we are going to need an extra 6-12 months of june and possibly another 3-4 months of july. probably no extra august as the problem should hopefully sort itself out by then. we are also looking into extending the day night cycle to 55 hours and extending the human lifespan to 10000 years.

[depsidase]

[valtsv]

i refuse to apologize for being weird or offputting actually that's your problem i'm having a fantastic time

[jackkdaniels]

when i was a kid i decided that killing people was bad therefore war was bad therefore the military was evil. and adults would tell me it's more nuanced than that and i would understand when i grew up. well i'm a grown up now and idk i still think that killing people is bad and war is bad and the military is evil

[liberalsarecool]

This Pope is not staying silent on Trump's Epstein War. #SundaySermon #PopeLeo

[psychotic-gerard]

sorry i will never understand cis grief. your daughter is living her best life and going around with friends and feeling like a human being. your son doesn’t feel like he needs to crawl out of his skin anymore and can actually smile. your children are happy and no longer see their existence as the worst thing in the world. why are you grieving this lmao. grow up.

[teaboot]

Do you think the devil grieves for angels

[tetress]

Over Thanksgiving, my wife's mom said to her that she grieved "the son she lost". It pained my beloved so much that she asked me if I ever mourned her like that (we had been dating for like 10+ years before she realized she was trans). I said no; and, when asked why, I thought about it for a second.

Being a very metaphorical thinker, the image of a butterfly came to mind. This beautiful thing that grew out of something else. No longer what it was before, but something new and wonderful. A continuation, a becoming, a realization of self.

I turned to my wife and said "you do not mourn the caterpillar".

She loved that so much that I got @vaspider of NerdyKeppie to put it on a pennant to hang in our home.

[vaspider]

(I'm ordering stickers this week.)

[ineffectualdemon]

The thing is when my kid came out to us it didn't make them magically a new person

It just made them happier

Our main concern was how other people would treat them and we wanted them to know that we were firmly in their corner

But they were still the same kid

Researching trans and non-binary stuff also unlocked my own gender journey but that's unrelated

But my husband, who is as cis as they come, was like "yeah that's the same kid"

And maybe that's because we had put no expectations on our kid. We just wanted them to be happy

[wanderingjunkdrawer]

I'm filled to the brim by this series of blog/reblogs. I want to proselytise this parable of metamorphosis.

[hail-dondus]

Finding out Hans Zimmer is a transphobe genuinely had me falling to my knees

[cartoonistfreak101]

Thank you blastybaku for explaining this!/gen

[poetry-protest-pornography]

If you've ever heard a movie score and thought "holy shit, this is incredible", there's like, a 50% chance it was Hans Zimmer who composed it.

This is a pretty major letdown, ngl.

Anyways, fuck transphobes, which includes Hans Zimmer, apparently.

[excessively-english-jd]

Anyway shoutout to John Williams, amazing composer and probably the one who made the other 50% of "holy shit amazing" soundtracks (Jurassic Park, Star Wars, Superman, and incidentally the original Harry Potter theme and score) who famously worked closely with the first openly transgender woman to be nominated for an Academy Award, Angela Morley. He respected her, and so far as I can see, has never made transphobic remarks.

[depsidase]

[mawofthemagnetar]

Cold take but all languages are beautiful actually. Every single one. Every single human language on earth is a collection of stories interwoven into the very fabric of the words that are spoken.

“Oh but this language sounds scary-“ have you heard a child speak it while pointing at a butterfly?

“Oh but this language sounds silly-“ have you heard someone’s grandma recite a recipe with such practiced ease it comes off as poetry?

“Oh but this language is really weird-“ and yours isn’t? Everyone’s language is weird, dumbass, it came free with your fucking humanity.

Every tongue that is spoken is a work of art. Every language a unique window into the world.

Isn’t it wonderful?

[depsidase]