a friend encouraged me to post this, i don't think it's that good, but i hope y'all enjoy it
The doll is cleaning the kitchen, she's wiped down the counters, dusted the shelves in the cabinets, and has swept the floor. Now she's ready to get to mopping the floor. She knows that while she's done this before and messed it up, she knows she can make her owner proud this time! She's shown her how to do it right, to wring out the mop, to move it across the floor, she's positive she can do it.
The doll starts to mop, and shortly after beginning, she accidentally tips over the bucket and drenches the fabric of the legs. She doesn't want to inconvenience her owner with her mistakes again. She doesn't want to think that the time that was spent caring for her was wasted. She rushes to get towels to wipe up all the water on the floor. She doesn't want to be scolded and punished like her last owner did to her. Owner has forgiven the doll every time she's messed up but is worried she'll be really mad this time.
"Are you ok, doll? What's the matter?"
Dolls should be obedient. Dolls should accept everything as they come to them without complaint. It'll have to happen again.
"I tipped the bucket over while mopping the kitchen. I'm sorry, it won't happen again."
She will. "I can't help but make mistakes. She's going to be mad and I'm going to be punished.", she thinks. If a doll could cry, her eyes would be leaking tears.
"That's okay, doll. Do you want help wiping up the water?"
She stops and turns to her owner. Emotion breaks through her voice.
She looks at her owner with concern on her face, concern for herself, worry that this is a trick of some kind. Her owner gets up from reading her book to hug her doll.
"I'm not, dear. What would I have to be mad at you for?" Her owner says.
"I made a mistake. Dolls shouldn't make mistakes. Dolls should be perfect. Dolls should not be a nuisance to their owners and should do everything right the first time. I apologize, I'll fix it right away. I'm sorry"
She starts to walk off to wipe up the water, but her owner grabs the collar of her shirt. She walks up to her doll, and gives her a hug.
"It's ok to mess up, doll. It's ok for you not to be perfect, it's ok for you to take a while to get something right. You're not a nuisance, I love you for everything you are, including what you think is wrong with you." The owner says this in a comforting tone, she wants her doll to feel safe, that she isn't a problem that her owner has to figure out.
The doll sniffs, she can't cry tears, but she would be right now if she could.
"But I've messed up so much. What if I never get it right? I mess up every time I clean, I get something wrong, I miss some spots, I drop plates, I've scolded your hands when I've poured tea, I don't want to be an issue." The doll says.
"You aren't an issue, and you aren't a problem. I want you to be happy, I want you to be loved. It's ok if you always mess up, it's ok if you never get something right, it's ok if you always get something wrong or never figure out something. I'll never be mad at you. You don't deserve to worry about those things, I'll always love you, alright?"
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