Hollander ur having panic attack

she/her. 30s. sideblog for BBC Merlin and Heated Rivalry. mod for Hollanov Bingo things I've made

[nebulastars]

drive for @hollanovbingo 🧡 Coming Home by Mary Oliver

[citrusses]

lotophage (rated m, 9k)

"That's Ilya Rozanov," Yuna supplies, when the camera zooms in on one of the players. He looks unremarkable to Shane, the way all of the helmeted players in identical gear flying across the rink do. Another faceless white uniform on white ice. "He plays the same position as you."  "Forward," Shane says cautiously, trying not to phrase it like a question.  "Center," his mom corrects gently. She's so gentle with him, no matter how many mistakes he makes. It's the curdling sort of gentle that makes Shane want to rip off his own skin, and all he can do is endure it. He has no right to insist on not being treated gently. This woman is his mother, even though Shane, as he is now, is not really her son. 

hollanov, memory loss, mcdonalds

During a game against the Boston Raiders, the Metros’ star center Shane Hollander sustains a concussion. Six months later, he still has no memory of his life before the injury.

[nebulastars]

losing it over ur charlie xcx edit.

For some reason this did not show up in my inbox until now 😳

Thank youuuu, I appreciate it so much! 🫶 (For anyone wondering)

[mina-logan]

I had to make him into TLG Shane

[russianblush]

the 9 inches: before & after

[frogdivorce]

author unknown // author unknown // Taylor Swift, Seven // Mike Flanagan, The Haunting of Hill House (2018) // Avina St. Graves, Skin of a Sinner // Makenzie Campbell, 2am Thoughts // Tom Kitt and Brian Yorkey, I'm Alive (Next to Normal) // Clay McLeod Chapman, Ghost Eaters // shierboundandbusking, Even If It Is Full of Love, All a Ghost Can Do Is Haunt // Joshua Jennifer Espinoza, Things Haunt // Florence + the Machine, Cassandra // Alice Notley, Songs and Stories of the Ghouls

[hollandar]

Heated Rivalry — 1x06 ⤷ PHONE BLOWJOB

(sources below)

Faking It — #1, #2 Deadline — #3 Variety — #4, #5 Vulture — #6 The Wrap — #7 Vulture — #8

[nebulastars]

"I love you" for @merlinbingo Heated Rivalry (tv show); Merry Christmas You Filthy Animal, Meghan Quinn; Solitaire, Alice Oseman; Unknown; Unknown; Unknown; Collected Poems, Edgar Allen Poe; Beastly, Alex Flinn; Unknown; Unknown; The Complete Tales of Winnie The Pooh, A.A. Milne

[pov-rosie]

All the little kisses Ilya gave Shane — a full compilation.

[citrusses]

lotophage (rated m, 9k)

"That's Ilya Rozanov," Yuna supplies, when the camera zooms in on one of the players. He looks unremarkable to Shane, the way all of the helmeted players in identical gear flying across the rink do. Another faceless white uniform on white ice. "He plays the same position as you."  "Forward," Shane says cautiously, trying not to phrase it like a question.  "Center," his mom corrects gently. She's so gentle with him, no matter how many mistakes he makes. It's the curdling sort of gentle that makes Shane want to rip off his own skin, and all he can do is endure it. He has no right to insist on not being treated gently. This woman is his mother, even though Shane, as he is now, is not really her son. 

hollanov, memory loss, mcdonalds

During a game against the Boston Raiders in October of 2016, the Metros’ star center Shane Hollander sustains a concussion. Six months later, he still has no memory of any part of his life before the injury.

[adhd-merlin]

insp.

[sunnypeachyy]

My eyes adore you ❀‎ܓ

[the-apocrypha]

a pox on all your houses Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov || T || 19k || Part 2 of 2 [COMPLETE] Part 1 || Part 2

Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Getting Together, Sort Of, Situationships, Relationship Status: It's Complicated, Tuna Melt Canon Divergence, Pre-Tuna Melt, Fluff and Crack, Crack Treated Seriously, Ilya Rozanov Fucked Around Now He's Finding Out

"Chlamydia?" Ilya has never heard Hollander's voice reach such heights in the absence of a cock. "You have chlamydia?" "I did not get it on purpose," Ilya complains.

Read Part 2 on AO3

[gaygoatshane]

ilya apologizing for being the first draft pick

[shilyas]

He wanted to see Rozanov this weekend. He wanted to be with him, alone, behind closed doors; he was tired of lying to himself about it. HEATED RIVALRY — CH. 16

tampa!shane + his small, happy smile ✨

[bakerharrystyles]

@merthurmicrofic prompt: numb Word count: 178 words

“Wha’ i’ tha’?” Arthur asked, around the dentist’s fingers, eyeing the needle moving towards his face.

“Just a local anaesthetic. Nothing to worry about. It will help with the pain,” the dentist replied calmly.

“A’a—wha--?”

“Anaesthetic, Arthur,” Merlin repeated. “Remember, we talked about it in the car? It makes your mouth go numb. He was homeschooled,” he added, as an aside to the dentist.

“I- do—” Arthur shifted in frustration, and the dentist removed his fingers. “I don’t need that. I’m perfectly capable of managing my pain on my own.”

The dentist laughed. “Oh, I think you’ll definitely want it for this. We won’t be able to give you your crown without it.”

Arthur frowned, glancing over at Merlin.

“Not that kind of crown,” Merlin sighed. He reached out and took Arthur’s hand.

“You’ll just feel a little scratch and then a bit of pressure, but no pain,” the dentist said.

“I’m not worried,” Arthur said quickly.

“I’ll leave you to it, then, shall I?” Merlin said.

Arthur’s grip tightened on his hand.

Merlin stayed.

[aemelia]

brat summer 🍏☀️ @shanesummerfest