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dubiouspunk, radqueer-crit, anti-censorship ask pronouns | system | 18 owner of @hopefulwand & @doomfulpage previously ran @rottenoracle & @writhingdirge

[necrophagism]

Rhett or Roma, 18, ask pronouns. A system with partial dissociative identity disorder. I may post about plural experiences time to time and alters may post here, but that is not a main focus.

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@hopefulwand - main coining blog @doomfulpage - flagless coining blog @oraclerot - archive blog for my terms

HUGE HUGE HUEG WIP WAIT

[kinarchist]

really really hype for the idea of a space for Jewish alterhumans to talk about our experiences, because I feel so self-conscious in both goyische alterhuman spaces and Jewish non-alterhuman spaces talking about my stuff I’m absolutely welcoming this.

also kinda hype about having something to call ourselves in Hebrew? i barely know any at the moment (learning is slow-going;; i have the resources but not the strength of will;;) but just. Having that feels good after feeling subtly alienated by mainstream narratives and discussions for so long.

so i guess first post that goes in these tags is:

yo, where’s the Jewish lore™ that mirrors alterhuman experiences?

all I’ve really found is a story about King Solomon judging the legal status of a two-headed man as either one man or two, for the purpose of inheritance. it spoke to me as a pluran and I brought it up when I had to explain plurality to my rabbi (he was amused and enlightened.) But so far that’s it! I haven’t found anything even close to having a spiritual connection to nonhuman beings, I’m still hunting for references to angels on earth, and I’m always interested in anything that points to the possibility of soul transformation by G?d.

i have a … veeerry loose hypothesis that taking on my fursona’s name at the mikveh may have had something to do with my later experiences of *being* my fursona/having mental and phantom shifts/etc, but like. I’m very aware that sounds too wild and cringe to put in regular Jewish tags, and most alterhumans in the general communities I’m aware of/participate in won’t get it or be able to comment, so I’m throwing this to the other Jewish alterhumans to be gentle with and help me piece together? :V I’m also starting from a place of being an angel fictive from Supernatural and trying to justify … like that whole universe existing at all, first off, let alone some other stuff that *did* happen (a lot didn’t) but has *no* connection to Jewish belief or myth (e.g. Lucifer *definitely* existed for me). I’ve got nothin’ so far, but boy am I open to thoughts \o/

I’d this is a lot of random thoughts i’m throwing at the wall, but i’ve not really had a space to put these yet and i’ve been trying to find explicitly Jewish ways of understanding myself for a long time without anyone to really talk to about it, so here’s what i got to bring to the table :V

Feel free to DM me or send me an ask if you want the link to the PDF with that story about King Solomon btw. I’d put it in this post but Tumblr hides nearly all posts w/ external links from tags for some reason, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[gertritude-art]

classic online experience

[gertritude-art]

big thank you to the tumblypoos for understanding the spirit of this post (the curse of being chronically online and nosy) and not typing one million comments going "yeah! fuck teenagers," as has been the trend on twitter

[milf-king]

Just a reminder that Saudi Arabia is responsible for one of the world's largest and most severe man made humanitarian emergencies. Their blockade of Yemen, which prevents food, water, medicine, and fuel from entering the country has caused a significant death toll. Emphasis here on man made as these were preventable.

Yemen relies on most of its food and medicine via imports and this blockade (land, sea, and air) has created an environment where 80% of Yemen relies on aid for survival. It's lead to so many people, mostly children, dying of starvation.

The rate of child malnutrition in Yemen is among the highest in the world with 2.3 million children under 5 requiring treatment for acute malnutrition. At one point a child died of starvation every 75 seconds.

This blockade is ongoing btw.

[milf-king]

Here's a pretty comprehensive source

[stoptheantisemitism]

Isn't this exactly what the Trump administration wants to do to Cuba?

[huzni]

It is, and it's arguably what they're currently doing to Venezuela too. Sanctions haven't been taken down despite the oil industry seize and the humanitarian crisis stemming from the recent earthquakes, may I remind you folks.

And if Milei's government coalition survives another election cycle somehow, this is a very likely scenario looming on Argentina as well, along with a likely balkanising scenario if the zionist settlement in Patagonia materialises. They've made welfare there go right down the gutter in absolutely all respects.

[mindnagerie]

A Drop in the Bucket.

[oidial]

bappy saturday!!!

i love when cats are like 'pet me pet me pet me!' and then bite you. you dont even know you dont want to be pet and thats awesome.:) im allowed to do that too. BYE

ive been meaning to finish this comic for like 2 months but i decided it would be the bappy today, even if it was late. OOPS hehe, OK BYE :)

oh and background is reference to my this :) baseballll yeahahhhh!!!OKBYE

[missastridisagoofygoober]

TRENT IS THE BLONDE ONE BTW

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Revolver magazine, 2005

[vampas-confectionery]

I have nothing appropriate to say

[trentch]

trent reznor photographed by lili wilde, 1994

[matriach1]

listening to a nine inch nails song and getting really scared when it gets quiet because that's when he attacks

[myfootyrthroat]

Someone will say "as a queer person in the heart of empire, my life is in danger every day" and you'll find out they're a developer for Amazon and live in San Francisco or Seattle or some shit, and then you'll meet a trans girl from Alva, OK who's like "Yeah, things are pretty good. AutoZone moved me to full-time."

[myfootyrthroat]

Someone in a queer group in my current blue city said that they didn't like expressions of solidarity because it "diluted their oppression".

[teaboot]

[cutecipher]

thank you for putting a random white boy on my post i guess

[cutecipher]

he will be going in the acid though goodbye white boy

[aberrantemotion]

OP NO. ADDING A WHITE BOY TO A VAT OF ACID CREATES A "THE JOKER.:

[cutecipher]

fuck.

[checkyourasianbias]

[sonichedgeblog]

An animation of Sonic going “no”, from the DoCoMo chara-den which were avatars you could use for videophone calls on keitai. Thanks to @rockmancosmo.bsky.social for getting us the footage from DoCoMo’s tool’s, which were obtained from a P902i phone.

[mapsofnonexistentplaces]

Visit Original Link

one of my absolute favorite podcast bits

[remxedmoon]

hiii. ok. so im hijacking my partners account to make this post for the sake of reach but uhh. happy disability pride month. today i want to come offer advice to people who self harm. as a guy who does this sometimes. your blogger will assist in little doodles.

ok SO. let me just lay some stuff out here. im mostly going to focus on the stereotypical cutting here, because it's what ive done the most, but some of this can and should apply to other types of self harm too, so take things and apply them as you will.

important note here: i dont think self harm is Good. but i do think it needs to be treated more normally than it is. because staying up all night isnt Good either but we can all be pretty normal about that. and not treating it normally just leaves people to do it anyway but in a more unsafe manner.

one last little thing: even if you dont self harm, these are good tips for open wound care, so it's worth a read anyway. also, at the end, there is a message specifically if you are a Friend of a person who self harms, or might self harm, etc. so stick around anyway!! okay!! SO with that out of the way heres my little tips!!!

1. ok im putting this first i dont care its so important. You need to be cleaning, disinfecting, and bandaging any open wounds. i didnt do this for a long time when i was younger and it is seriously not good. You know what you don't want to have to deal with? an infection.

don't know how? don't have the stuff? do what you can. anything you can. you do not want anything to get infected.

here are some steps and some things you can do in cases where you don't have access to everything you need:

a) Clean your wound. the most optimal way of doing this is getting a little cotton pad wet (or using an antiseptic wipe, in the best case scenario!!!) and gently dabbing/swiping away any blood. get it as clean as you can; be gentle on it. if it hasn't stopped bleeding, hold the cleaning pad there until you can get your bandaging stuff at the ready, both to minimize blood loss and to minimize the amount of bacteria that is getting access to your open wounds. make sure it's clean before you put your bandage on it.

b) DISINFECT. this is SO important. infection is nasty and it hurts HORRIBLY and you do not want to deal with it. you can use a number of things for this; antiseptic wipes, creams, ointments whatever you got. it is no longer recommended to use rubbing alcohol or hydrogen peroxide to disinfect open wounds, as it is likely going to irritate the your skin and especially the wound (not to mention it's much more painful!!) and instead it would be better to just use warm water and some soap, if you don't have antiseptic, so keep that in mind!!

c) Bandage it up!!! this is how you prevent stuff from getting in your wounds after you cleaned it. which is part of preventing yourself an infection. its important! if you have typical bandages (think bandaids) please try to be conscious of not putting the sticky part on an open wound, if youve done some lines close together. you can use scissors to cut off part of the bandage, then stick the cotton pads together with the other's, extending the length of the bandage. you can also just use normal cotton pads, and have some medical tape or gauze overlaid on top of it. try not to use med tape or gauze on top of the wound without some kind of absorbing pad underneath; med tape and gauze are intended to keep a wound dressing secure and in place, not to be the actual dressing. im a bit of a freak about wound care so i use med tape over bandaids, because they come off a little easier than you'd want with sweat and stuff, but if they'll stay on that's all that matters.

so, why is this so important? if youre hurting yourself anyway and youre doing it for some kind of self hating reason, why should you bother taking care of it?

well, ideally you are kind to yourself in general when you do something like this, but since i know for at least some that this is irrelevant to you, let me provide another reason i think it's helpful!

for me personally, i am in an environment where i dont feel safe with the people in person around me knowing i am doing this. it tends to cause an overreaction that would endanger me much, much more than the actual action of cutting.

in cases like this, an infection makes it so much more likely that you get caught.

infections make a wound infinitely more painful and sensitive. if someone brushes up against an infected wound, as opposed to a properly dressed wound, you are so much more likely to react to the much more severe pain.... and that reaction will get people to know something is hurt there if they didnt before. if it's for your own safety to keep anyone from knowing, disinfecting and dressing it will make that safety a little more likely.

2. drink some frickin water!!!!! or tea, or soda, or fruit juice or whatever you gotta use to hydrate yourself. just stay hydrated ok? its good for you. you should really be doing this in general anyway but in regards to open wounds and stuff i think its extra good to stay hydrated. theres a lot of stuff hydration does for you when youre wounded but some of the most important stuff here is that it helps you heal faster. your body has a shit ton of water in it. it's mostly water. if you're losin blood, youre losin water. get more water.

3. eat a little snack!!! this kinda corresponds with 2, but hey! your body needs fuel to do things! including healing! even if it's hard to tell, your body IS using up energy trying to heal itself when you've hurt it! food will help it do that faster! also, it'll make you feel better!

4. ice your wound! you dont have to do this but it's cooling and it prevents swelling and it makes ya feel nice, and you deserve to feel a little nice sometimes. also, yucky stuff that causes infections tends to not like the cold. this is something you learn with food but it also can apply to your open wounds. because you're one big sack of raw meat.

5. rest and be easy on yourself! in a similar vein to 3, your body is using up energy trying to heal itself, and that's gonna make you tired and hurting sometimes. be gentle with yourself! its ok to take it easy while your body is working!

this last little message is for if you know someone who is or might be hurting themselves, and it's really important, okay?

it is so, so important for someone who is hurting themselves to have a kind and loving party who does not encourage or enable the behavior but also does not overreact or condemn. this could be you. it SHOULD be you. it's good for your friends, okay? it's important.

be kind to your friends hurting themselves the same way someone would be kind to their friend who has a nasty hangover. it's one of the best things you can do. please. i am begging you. be nice. be normal. be kind to disabled people.

happy disability pride.