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fizza, 20 // occasional shitposter // football side blog

[blumenundpoesie]

We have always loved and we will continue to love. Oh, the beauty of human connection!

[odetojupiter]

uhhh so the number four is associated with death in certain cultures, including japanese, which is fitting for the butcher’s son, yes but just remember neil was supposed to be number three and jean was supposed to be number four ,and in every draft but one jean dies. he is symbolically saved from that fate by dodging the number four (being given, instead, the number three which represents REBIRTH of all things - i made a whole post about that if ur curious) because it means he was never marked for death. so in this draft, where he’s number three, but was supposed to be number four, he comes so close to death - to the point where renee doesn’t know how he’s still alive - because he was supposed to die, doomed by the narrative, but that number three saves him. that number three represents resurrection, and so he doesn’t die like he was supposed to. because he’s not number four, he’s number three. he comes back. he transforms, he heals. he becomes number 29 (i will eventually make a post about jean and the 29)

neil, though, was marked for death. he had the number four tattooed on him, and he goes through his own narrative believing he will die by the end of it. his survival, however, is foreshadowed in the very moment neil thinks he’s about to die - when he is kidnapped. lola burns the number four - the signifier of death - off his face, leaving him scarred, yes, but not marked for death anymore. and so he lives. and guess what: the number 10 represents the start of a new chapter, that one cycle is coming to an end and a new life is starting, one that you’ve worked hard for. so for the number four to be burned off of neil, that tells us neil is going to live. and when neil becomes neil legally, he settles into the number 10 properly. and his new life begins.

[againstpollutions]

andrew minyard character of all time. he's toxic. he doesn't talk to cops. he has an identical twin brother and they hate each other. he made his identical twin brother promise not to have any other friends and then doesn't even talk to him. he might be a misogynist. his only friends are a born-again lesbian who can beat him up, the runaway son of a yakuza-affiliated serial killer, and his therapist. he's a student athlete. he hates sports. he killed his mother. he's a Mean Girl who runs his friend group like a cult. he's a crim major for the bit. he has an eidetic memory. he's petty. he likes to get people gifts. he does coke sometimes but says it doesn't have any effect on him because he has too many mental illnesses. he's the love interest. he doesn't smile. he was right about wwiii. y2k goth. repeatedly risks his life to help people in situations that have absolutely nothing to do with him and says it's out of boredom. when they picked him up from the psych ward he got in the driver's seat and blasted screamo the whole ride back and didn't say a single word to anyone. oh my god he is exactly five feet tall. he's even gay

[minorista]

Listen I love the "the-foxes-are-oblivious-to-andreil-even -though-it's-very-obvious" fics like any girl, but I just finished rereading the series (again) and the amount of side eye neil didn't realize he was getting from wymack Kevin and Matt after almost any interaction of him and andrew is A LOT

[rainbow-femme]

I think an early and overlooked aspect of why Andrew starts liking Neil is simply that Neil is the first person to casually engage with him on his level

Nicky, Aaron, and Kevin love him but they don’t really get him in every day interactions. It’s a lot of “… Ok, whatever you say, Andrew.”

And we know the upperclassmen tend to just outright dislike anything he says or does and uses it as proof of him being heartless and violent

Renee gets the closest because she does get him and goes along with him but they ultimately have very different views of life

Whereas Neil, before he even likes Andrew at all, just matches his energy.

“If I can’t get an answer from you, I’ll get it wherever I can. How about I start with your parents?”

“Good luck,” Neil said, feeling cold all over. “They’re dead.”

“Did you kill them?”

He [Andrew] said it so casually, like he was asking for the time, that Neil could only stare at him for a minute. It was such an unreasonable leap of logic Neil didn’t understand how he even thought to ask it. Then he remembered who he was talking to and asked, “Did you kill yours?”

—

“Neil said. "I'm not afraid of you."

“That's why you're so interesting," Andrew said. "How aggravating."

He sounded amused, not annoyed, so Neil said, "I'll try to be more boring in the future."

“How considerate.”

—

And for a guy who desperately wants connection and has never fully gotten it, it must have been as close to fun as Andrew has getting to bounce back and forth with Neil. He could threaten to saw Neil in half with a rusty blade and Neil will just be like “Hotdog or hamburger style?”

[starrryking]

[mushroomheadgirl]

now that we canonically know that andrew hated people knowing about the assault and abuse he went through as a child, now that we know he sees it as something that will make his family lose faith in him and view him as weak, I wonder if part of his "hatred" for neil is that neil knows all of this ugly history, put himself in harm's way to protect andrew from more abuse, and still views him as this strong and steadfast person. in andrew's mind, it seems pretty black and white - he is either the protector or the victim. he spent so long building this identity as a protector, but his abuse coming to light means he is now a victim. so for neil to see him as a protector but also believe he deserves protecting as well, it shakes something pretty foundational in andrew's world view, which we know he never takes well. there are many reasons andrew hates neil, but this makes for a very interesting development.

[manekkii-art]

[quelmdn]

[palmetto-polls-deactivated20250]

Can Neil flirt?

Yes

Only accidentally

Kind of

No

Voting ended onDec 9, 2024

[stringcage]

What in the hell would you call all of this then

[cubbyyyy]

neil can’t flirt for shit, but that’s because usually he’s not interested. w andrew though..

[theotherwesley]

Faux Pas: French for "fox pass", this is when a behavior or comment that is otherwise considered socially unacceptable is allowed because a fox did it and foxes cannot be held responsible for their actions. It is spelled wrong because the French like to feel special.

[ofsunshineandfoxes]

Neil Josten would say this

[rianphin]

you just genuinely have to not care about things to be happy like when i hear how people talk about being slighted in interpersonal contexts, my recommendation is just assume the best of people and don’t care. don’t dwell on it, don’t remember, don’t assume they were being rude, just don’t even care. don’t make generalization or judgement just genuinely move on. people who sound crazy / anxious / depressed are always recalling the past and interrogating. detach imo

[fake-married-my-dead-fiance]

Four more episodes of Family by Choice but it's just Noodle Dad playing with and cooking for his grandkids for four straight hours

[kalena-henden]

Korean shows love their puns to give things multiple meanings. I just realized that Ha Eungyeol (the communications bridge for his family to the world) sounds alot like Hangeul (the name of the Korean language). It hit me when Eunyu said his name tonight in a way that blended together.

[deadbeatmaker]

an old drunk man told me to enjoy my life and have fun because I’m only 24 and I have so many years and so much life ahead of me and then he went “and you know what? in ten years when you’re 34 you’ll still be young and have your whole life ahead of you” and it was really comforting to me

[neiljosten-ed]

rewatching the untamed again and i'd forgotten just how down bad lan wangji is for wei wuxian right from the start. and like lan xichen clocked it immediately with the barely concealed smiles and the "were you equals when you sparred" after which lwj just WALKS AWAY. i love him

[strangereddie]

Okay I don’t want to hear a single person ever say again that having representation is too much on a TV show or not realistic because heartbreak high had autistic representation, lesbian representation,  non-binary representation, asexual representation, Aboriginal representation, and Asian representation all in one show and not for one fucking second did I think this is unrealistic, especially in a Sydney based school. That is exactly what kids are like and is exactly what real life is like!!!!!