Got any unhinged thoughts about Jester you want to share?
He is a stunningly complex character that has so much nuance to him that you can get a whole group of people in a room who all love or hate him for entirely different reasons and they would all be so valid— of course I know you can say that about a lot of characters, technically, but Jester I think represents a sort of abrasive, ugly, and incredibly complicated sort of personality in a way that makes you both intimidated by him but also sortof.... attracted at the same time?
Admittedly this might just be because I interpret Jester as having dealt with a lot of issues similar to my own, and I am a HIGHLY empathetic person so that only makes that connection stronger. I see someone who has endured years of mental and physical mistreatment, stolen bodily autonomy, sexual harassment, discrimination and grief from personal and cultural losses.
So, because of those feelings, he represents this steadfast, hardened individual who genuinely wants nothing more than to see himself and his family living a life of happiness and freedom, someone who wants to share that with other monsters and has put past any sense of self-doubt and regret. He has seen the cold hardship of the world and has decided that to allow others to enjoy things untainted, he has to get his own hands bloody and endure the weight on his shoulders.
That isn't to say the others in the troupe aren't each with their own traumas, grief and pain— Jester just reminds me of someone who has operated off self-sacrifice for so long that its an expectation he places on himself. He has to be strong, poised, he has to have control over the situation. I don't ever seeing Jester submitting to someone else (even another monster) without having a deep and genuine trust for them.
And as someone who has been through a lot of painful things in life, I want that for him. I want him to smile, to lower his guard. I want to be vulnerable with him and him to be vulnerable with me in turn. And it doesn't have to be via submission! I think it can be explored in another aspect of Jester that appeals to me so much: the BDSM-esque vibes. I am again somewhat inebriated as I write this so words are a tad difficult, but I want to see that look of love in his eyes between him and a submissive who understands him inside and out, someone that understands and respects his boundaries and preferences and triggers and discomforts. I want someone to help love and protect his family, someone who won't shame him, someone who is his equal and he sees as his equal.
I love his confidence, genuine confidence, and I want to match his wit and charm when he talks about his books and the authors he likes, to be considered endearing by him in a way that can only be experienced between a monster and a human— not in a bad way that showcases our differences, but highlights our similarities.
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