i'm shore my name is river

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[neuroticbrainiac]

I've gotten so unmotivated it's getting irritating. How come I can't write a poem anymore without staring at a mere blank page for hours on end? How come the simple act of getting out of my bed has become such a challenge? Why must I always feel down even when I'm around those who care? The universe has always found a way of forcing me to push myself past my limits, my comfort zone. Yet it's now exhausting to constantly go through the day burnt out and detached. This is a hardship I do not believe I can go past this time.

[neuroticbrainiac]

Living in that house didn't kill me.

It didn't kill me, but I'm constantly on edge and so vigilant it's hard to enjoy anything.

It didn't kill me, but I tense up whenever somebody yells

It didn't kill me, but whenever I make the smallest mistake I feel like I'm going to get punished.

It didn't kill me, but my anxiety has seeped throughout my entire body and now mentally and physically harms me.

It didn't kill me, but my self esteem and confidence is concerningly low.

It didn't kill me, but I still have bruises on my heart and body.

It didn't kill me, but I detached to protect myself and now can't come back.

It didn't kill me, but I genuinely believe everyone is out to get me

It didn't kill me, but I think I need to be of service to everyone or they'll despise me.

It didn't kill me, but the thought of arguments makes my stomach curl.

It didn't kill me, but it almost made me kill myself.

[redstonedust]

i think people really under sell the physical side effects of mental health disorders sometimes. like sure the depression and anxiety may be 'just in your head' but when what's in your head happens to disrupts your sleep schedule and prevent you from going outside regularly and eating consistent meals and exercising and generally taking care of your body. well it sure takes its toll huh.

[muichisyummy]

hashtag let that nerd and that emo boy kiss

[neuroticbrainiac]

During the beginning of summer break I had promised myself that I'd be productive and carry out my more useful traits. I had even made a list of goals I wanted to achieve, and tactics to control my endless anxiety despite getting medication.

It's now less than a month before I go back to school, and I've had estimated 16 panic attacks along of getting hardly anything done. All I've been doing is swimming, writing nonsense I end up hating, cutting people off, and distancing myself from the outside world.

I think this summer was a win.

[lemon-labia]

broke my routine so now i have to kill myself

[coqui444]

I just saw comments saying how cruel and coldhearted the left is for being joyful over Kirk's death. I just think it's funny that the people saying this are the same ones who were happy at the idea of feeding immigrants to gators. They only care if it's one of them.

I will also add: 'Nobody should be killed for their beliefs' (same people in tiktok lives hoping protesters get shot)

[dogpuppy]