Never Felt So Helpless...
...Not about any of my own problems, but for my friends. So many of them are hurting and are in emotional turmoil. I’ve literally had 4 of my closest friends contact me this week alone, reach out for help, who are in this bottomless pit of depression and I desperately want to pull them out of it. But I don’t know how?! It pains me everyday to know these people are struggling and there’s absolutely nothing I can do to help them.
And with the whole EU referendum results making everyone turn on each other I can’t escape this end of the world feeling. Now I know that is such a big over dramatisation but seriously, reading twitter and the interviews and even friends facebook posts about hearing and seeing the racial abuse that is being openly thrown at friends, family and neighbours it’s all too real. Although I’ve not witnessed it myself (yet) even my friends have commented on how their colleagues and friends are fearing for their safety and security.
These are people that have lived in the UK most of their lives. This is their home. We’ve helped them build this life for them, included them in ours and accepted them as we should have always done and now 52% of the country is saying they should pack up and leave??? It’s an absolute disgrace and this is going to be the first time I’ve ever said this and truly meant it but I am embarrassed to call myself British. (Although it’s unfair to tar Scotland with that as noone in Scotland wanted to leave the EU).
It honestly feels like I’m standing on an island and it’s getting smaller and smaller as the foundation underneath me is crumbling away. The people closest to me can’t help me as they’re are struggling themselves and they are looking to me to keep them afloat, but who’s holding me up? All I know is I have to stay as strong as I can for them.
Let’s hope the police step up and start punishing the racists as they should be punished. It should never have been allowed to go as far as they have already, why is noone in any power standing up to this behaviour. Why aren’t the people on high taking responsibilities for the repercussions of the decision that they put in the publics hands. The public who who were never given enough factual information to base their vote on (I’m talking both campaigns).
I’m drained from all of this. I wish we knew for sure that it was all going to be alright.
25.06.16
