PLETHORA AND TIDBITS

Jay Albaos. I write. I do things. I wander. I get lost, most of the time. This blog is the plethora of my humanity and the tidbits of my heart. This is where I keep things I chase after my meaning.

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I can't figure out where this profound bitterness is coming from. It's trying to take over.

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Inspired and humbled to be with people who constantly hurdle life with leaps of faith.

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She is the metaphor that makes me tremble every time I try to write parts of her into poems.

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One day you’ll come to realize that in you lies a bounty of harvest and an endlessness of rivers.

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I'm sorry but I have to say no. I can't break my wings for you.

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Took a walk last weekend because the sun was up. This part of the world can be unforgiving: long dark days of winter. It literally blinds and slows. It tests the resilience of the spirit. You see, the difference is that it doesn't come unexpected like any calamity. It's part of the fate, of the lived, of the cycle. There is no breaking it. Some might have doubts calling it lucky but you get two months of sun. My walk turned into movements. I found myself dancing.

[neverheard-nobody]

You told me you'll come But then nothing You're still a liar And I, a fool.

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As I ran around the dark and snow-covered, far-off Finnish forest naked, I realized that the cold was never meant to be evil. It exists to make us appreciate warmth and allow the steam of burden escape from our body and be purified by the breeze. And with this bodily release, your soul opens up, giving you the rare opportunity to converse with the spirits of the earth.

Altered States: Shamanism, Finland, January 2016 

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I want to elope to somewhere vast. I want vastness to fill my pores, to caress my flesh and to lull my soul - my weary, tired soul. I want to hide to somewhere vast so that I can freely weep. The vast sea might do. Or vast blooms. Any vast. Any vast will do.

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It has been a long time since I last penned something here in Tumblr. It feels weird, almost distant. But I think I should start sharing my thoughts again or else burst from keeping my wondering all by myself. 

The last year has been disorienting for me, being in a foreign country studying for sure is not a joke. I have been adjusting to almost anything: weather, people, homesickness, academic atmosphere, finances, myself. And it’s nice to realize that I have been so busy adjusting that I did not notice it has already been a year! 

And now the school year is about to start I feel giddy and nervous. But more confident this time. I’m looking forward to more of this experience. It’s hard, for sure but it’s all worth it. 

[neverheard-nobody]

Having the sun after long months of darkness gave me one of the best feelings ever. 😊

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I went away for a while. It was temporary. It's not forever. I'm coming back. I'll be back to collect the broken glasses and the shattered letters on my floor when I left. In my return I hope that I'm okay. Okay enough to clean, to collect, to accept that in my cleaning I'm risking myself from cuts and from glimpsing to the name my unsent letters were addressed to.

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There is definitely something out there, something worthy of all the courage I gathered to get out of where I was yesterday.

Apparently, Norwegians have an adventurous approach on the Holidays. We trekked another mountain on New Year’s day where the magnificent view of the whole Manger and Radoy awaited us. Breathtaking was an understatement. What a way to start the year! :) 

New Year Mountain Trek 2016

Radoy, Norway

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The world surprises you with people and irresistible others you meet along the way. Christy @chasingthesunforever​ and I are not really into cats but this Garfield suddenly showed up and approached us while we were strolling along the narrow roads of Lervik. It was so irresistible - we went on cuddling and caressing its soft fur for we don’t know how long. This Garfield definitely changed the way we look at cats. 

Meeting Garfield, Manger, Norway 2015

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"I am chasing after my meaning." ❤️ Bless you both! 😄

Thank you! I hope you’re chasing yours as well. Happy New Year! Cheers! :)

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It was my first time trekking on a mountain of pines and molds. The ground was soft because of the growing algae and fungi in it. It felt like I was in The Hobbit movie. 

I felt like I was a Hobbit who was going to meet Gandalf somewhere. 

Trekking on a Mountain After Christmas Day 

Manger, Norway 2015

[neverheard-nobody]

As long as there are hopefuls, there will always be flickers of light in the darkest of night.

Spent the Christmas break hopping from places and meeting wonderful, inspiring people. 

Aarhus and Copenhagen, Denmark

Christmas Break 2015