🦎 Artemis (she/her) - 'Nuthatch_in_a_Nutshell' on Ao3 🖤🩶🤍💜 🦎 History enthusiast, nature enjoyer, overtheoriser and overthinker in her 20s 🦎This is my main - a random collection of everything I find interesting and amusing - nature, animals, history, etc. I post about Sherlock Holmes on my side account, @I-dont-talk-for-days-on-end 🦎 Header image is Duria Antiquior by geologist Henry de la Beche depicting life in ancient Dorset based on fossils found by Mary Anning 🦎 This once was a Fantastic Beasts blog, but I am absolutely disgusted by JKR and her views and I do NOT support her! Non-binary identities are valid and trans rights are human rights! 🏳️⚧️
I have this bird feeder in front of my window (maybe 3 meters away from where I use to sit at my desk). The birds coming there are fairly used to me, but (understandably) they dislike it if I look at them directly. They turn one of their little black eyes to me and stare at me disapprovingly for two seconds and then they fly away if I don't turn my head. But recently I have discovered that they don't realise that I'm looking at them when I'm using binoculars. So, it's a win-win situation: I can watch them in close-up and full HD while they don't even realise I'm looking at them.
Today I learned that my grandpa's favourite song is "Forever Young" and I really had to pull myself together so I wouldn't cry because how precious is that???
After I learned that, I used to call him every time it came up in my playlist. He has passed now and I deleted the song from my playlist because I just couldn't listen to it and was constantly jumpgrieved by it, but maybe it's time to put it back in. It's been a while.
Today I can't stop thinking about that one poem by Rilke that begins with
Das ist die Sehnsucht: wohnen im Gewoge
und keine Heimat haben in der Zeit.
I know it is poetic. But it also is so terrible accurate. I don't know how to feel about it, other than a little devastated. Feeling lost in space is lonely enough, but time ... There is nothing you can do. You live in the here and now, and you can't go back, and you have to go foreward, and there's just so much happening. Terrible.
I changed my mind, actually. I think nostalgia is dangerous! Obsession with the past is allowed in a whimsical or critical way, but no wanting to go back for me. I don't think we're heading into "better" times (we most likely aren't), but we have nothing but hope and actions.
So, one thing that makes me feel humble and fulfilled and fond of existing is that there are so many things and creatures in this world that are strikingly beautiful although they were not meant to be perceived. You know the philosophical question whether a tree makes a sound when it falls and nobody is there to hear it? There's sound waves but no sound. Here's such a majestic, fragile creature, and just think how unlikely it was a human being would look at it, and that it would be at a moment in history (time!) when they could take a video! And now for me to lie in my dry warm bed and think my silly little thoughts and feel embraced because I can look at such an unlikely thing and feel the beauty of it.
Maybe it’s the autism in me but I can’t wrap my head around people who say “I just don’t understand gay/trans people.” in a derogatory way. I don’t GET anyone. I don’t have to understand why someone is the way they are to accept that they are that way. Why are you trying to make a woman explain what it feels like to be a woman to defend her womanhood? You can’t understand it anyway. I truly do not give a fuck if you don’t get it. There are many beautiful works of art I do not get that I accept are important and meaningful in ways I cannot understand.
Studies from life of some swifts I met, who were under the care of a wonderful swift rehabilitator.
The climate crisis-fuelled heatwaves in Europe this summer have resulted in large numbers of swift nestlings jumping early to escape the heat of their nests. These are some of the lucky ones who were found and given a second chance at taking to the skies of our changing world.
My woke take, as someone who has worked in both a public library and a school library, is that we desperately need both more books that are at a higher reading level but a less mature subject matter, and more books that are at a lower reading level but a more mature subject matter, because 8 year olds who are advanced readers are still 8 year olds and don't want to read about graphic violence and torture, and teens and adults who have learning difficulties or who are just later readers for whatever reason are still teens and adults and don't want to read about Billy the Bunny going to school or whatever the hell.
As if Joanne couldn't get any shittier, she misgendered and insulted a woman who called for support, all because the woman had PCOS/PMOS and "didn't sound feminine enough."
Fuck her.
Your shitty children's series isn't more important than people's lives.
The thing about gay sailors in the Victorian era is that England and America had totally different takes on it. In the british navy they could, and did, literally kill men for having consensual relationships with other men. But in the US navy, even tho John Adams literally copied England's naval regulations when making America's version, he chose to leave out every proscription against sodomy. And no one knows why!!! England was like hmm yes the death penalty and America was like i dont really see how thats my business. And like gay American sailors could still be charged with things like "uncleanliness" or "indecency" (charges that were vague enough to cover a lot of different things) but bc it wasnt specifically forbidden in the regulations "the commanding officers [were given] wide discretion to prosecute, punish, or ignore."*
And by and large US officers seem to have ignored it. We literally have the records of every flogging (the most extreme form of punishment allowed during these specific years) onboard a naval vessel for the years of 1846-1848 and almost all of the cases that involved homosexual activity "unambiguously refer to male/male homosexual activity involving attempted assaults on children, not consensual couplings between adults."* There are also multiple recorded instances throughout the Victorian Era of an American sailor coming forward with a charge of sexual assault and pulling in other sailors or even officers as witnesses who tell their captain yeah i totally saw them and didn't say anything until this sailor told me it was nonconsensual. There are even records recorded by naval recruitment officers of men with extremely explicit gay tattoos being allowed to join the navy. Why did the US navy not care enough to even include it in the regulations while the British navy literally hanged men for it??? Were we so hard up for sailors that John Adams was like bitch we need every gay sailor we can get????
And weirdly enough this was true on American Whaling ships too! In the recorded cases where homosexual activity led to sailors being disciplined (in some cases punishment so mild as just being dropped off their ship at the next port) it was usually in situations where rape was involved and/or there was a high degree of ship disruption related to it (guys getting into a public knife fight for example). Idk I just think thats so interesting especially when America and England were so similar to be so different in this particular area is fascinating
*quotes from Unruly Desires: American Sailors and Homosexualities in the Age of Sail by William Benemann
everyone loves to shit on david cage for making his games so heavily prompt based but let me tell you it’s the prompts specifically that elevate his work to the level of modern masterpieces