Niki Maria

I am a muscician, mom, lover of music, yoga, hiking, connection, and a hopeless romantic. My only hope is to share my joy with everyone!

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Graduate now holding a Bachelors of Arts in psychology with a 3.98 GPA, Phi Theta Kappa, honor society, and Summa Cum Laude. I am proud of myself and all my friends and my younger cousin who worked hard and graduated right by my side. ♥️♥️♥️ I feel blessed to be the woman I have become today. #recoveredfromptsd #livingmylifemyway #happiness #hardworkpaysoff https://www.instagram.com/p/Ceb8BvWOIoZ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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The mom squad this morning at Mother’s Day Brunch this morning and of course family pics. Good times, so grateful for this crew. ♥️♥️ (at Palm City, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/CdTtEjpOXNP/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Happy Mother’s Day to all the beautiful, hardworking moms all over the world! Grayson and I did a little photoshoot with Snapchat to celebrate Mother’s Day yesterday. Love this little stinker!! (at Stuart, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/CdS6YLruiu5/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I love my friends and family and music. On Monday night, I got to perform again at Terra Fermata and it was a privilege and an honor to be surrounded by so many amazing people and musicians. It was the perfect night! Thank you to everyone who came out and @i.am.the.narrator for such a lovely evening. Xo 😘 (at Terra Fermata Tiki Bar) https://www.instagram.com/p/CdIkSlwOw2R/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I’ve been working super hard on an online course and ebook about overcoming anxiety and trauma. This has been an effort of painstaking research, dedication and strength to do what I have dreamed of doing after recovering from the experiences myself. As I prepare for grad school, I am only about a few months away from my first ebook and online course being published for anyone and everyone who wants to become a warrior of their lives. This is the beginning of an awesome new chapter where my creativity is going to lead the way as I work toward helping those who have suffered as I have. I can’t wait to tell you more in the coming weeks. Xo #anxiety #anxietyawareness #trauma #depressionawareness #buildingadefense #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthwarrior #mentalhealthadvocate https://www.instagram.com/p/CZ7q31Vv43K/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I wanted to share something that I learned from my crazy birthday weekend, that it’s okay when plans change. It’s okay when not everything goes according to the perfect plan I made, because if my life is planned too much, I forget to enjoy the moments when it just falls into perfect harmony. I loved witnessing the snow again. I felt alive in a new way and I am grateful I got to experience that again. It was a beautiful way to rest and just be. Maybe the Lord decided I needed to take a break for once, and I am grateful for it. Thank you everyone for the happy birthdays and a special thank you to my tribe for caring for my kids when I got trapped in an unexpected blizzard. I am beyond thankful and grateful for all of the friends and family I have been blessed with. I will always try my best to never take any of you for granted because I don’t know where I would have been without you through many situations in the past year. I know my words could never convey the true gratitude I feel for so many people who stepped up to be there for me, but I hope it is a start. ♥️🙏😁 #blessed #snowstorm2022 #northcarolina #mentalhealthmatters #thankful https://www.instagram.com/p/CY67q0yLK4l/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Good bye Atlanta. Back to the mountains to see our people! Loving every moment of this life. You and I, We will see great things together. You are my happy place, and I am grateful for you! ♥️😘🙏 #itsokaytoloveagain #lovethatworks #therightone #gratefulforhim https://www.instagram.com/p/CYhgPeZPKio/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Not too many things bring me as much joy and comfort as making my own music. The highs, the lows, and all the in betweens of each song are like a rush of happiness and peace to me. So much music runs through my head, I wrote and produced over 20 original songs and made 50 or more beats for other artists last year. I officially received almost all of my copyright awards for the new original songs I wrote and I plan to start sharing them very soon. I am deeply curious, what is your passion? What do you do that brings you joy when everything feels overwhelming or challenging? #inspiration #music #hobbies #talent #whatinspiresyou #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters https://www.instagram.com/p/CYch7WBPPpy/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Happy New Years to everyone! This next year will be my best year ever! I am ready for the next chapter and I’m excited to keep building myself and my people up. I am happy, healthy, and I have some of the most incredible people by my side rooting me on. It’s gonna be my year! #smashinggoals #2022willbeawesome #2022willbemyyear #lovestory https://www.instagram.com/p/CYLOxMJsjYc/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I recently met an awesome #mentalhealthwarrior who started an organization call The Rise of the Phoenix. This incredible website is an excellent resource for anyone struggling with #sobriety #mentalillness #bipolar #depression #anxiety #ptsd #panicattacks #spiritualgrowth #selfimage #healing and much more. They are a valuable tool for mental health warriors because they are dedicated to your needs and offer a place to be less alone. I was recently told that new members will receive a free membership for the month of January 2022 to try out the platform. I highly recommend it to anyone who is struggling or looking for the right people to share your thoughts and feelings with. You will be accepted on this site and supported through anything you are facing. Check out these videos I shared and also follow @nav.phoenix or @grounded_spirit_psychic for more details. @navidparvarriseofthephoenix www.theriseofthephoenix.xo.uk is the site. Link in bio. #notalone #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #depressionhelp #anxietysupport #mentalhealthsupport https://www.instagram.com/p/CYB4h_9ridQ/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Christmas was perfect! So thankful for friends, family and the amazing blessings of being together. I am a little late, but Christmas was exactly the way I hoped it would be. https://www.instagram.com/p/CYAHShePa-t/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Time to chill in the mountains with the fam. It’s cold and I’m loving it. #feelingmyself #familytime #mountaintime #mentalhealthtips #connection #bondingtimewithfamily https://www.instagram.com/nikimariafl/p/CX_M9xNrEIK/?utm_medium=tumblr

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This year was a tough one for me, but I got through it. I couldn’t be happier with the lessons I learned this year and I am excited for 2022. #lessons #lessonslearned #2021lessons #what2021taughtme https://www.instagram.com/nikimariafl/p/CX07NOJLF5Z/?utm_medium=tumblr

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It SURVIVED 20 years, and I will not say that I didn’t struggle, because I did tremendously. The last time I spoke to him, I was a bright, happy teenager dancing around my house while he told me he loved me. The next day, he was gone, and my innocence was dead. I was shocked, heartbroken, devastated, lost, and the decade of my life following his suicide, was a fight to survive that I almost lost many times. . I was angry for a long time, but underneath the anger was a sadness that words couldn’t convey. I felt like my love wasn’t enough, like no matter how great I thought I was, I simply wasn’t a hero. This thinking had me full of guilt, shame and disappointment in myself that a 17 year old healthy man died because I was too naive and uninformed to see that he needed me badly. . I learned something in that decade that I believe will shape my future research into trauma and suicidality, I learned that no one can ever imagine the depths of trouble and sorrow someone is facing when they chose to die. We cannot imagine the horrors they are experiencing or how empty or lost they are. I stared down that void too feeling like my only escape was death, but I didn’t want to die. . After this heartache, surviving was my ruthless task, thriving never factored into it. Now, I am thriving. I am imperfect, still make mistakes, still sensitive and complicated at times, but I am doing life better because of the lessons I learned. . Every 40 seconds, someone dies from suicide. It is the 2nd leading cause of death in the US for 10-35 year olds and it is a major public health concern. Do not forget that nothing matters more to your struggling loved one than being heard. Listen to them, empathize with them, give them your time and presence because they can’t stop the pain alone and you will be at their funeral if you think you will get to it eventually. Suicide is an emergency and many of those that commit suicide never wanted to die, they just couldn’t face it alone. . #suicideawarness #suicide #suicideadvocate #sᵾɨcidesurvivor #bethe1to #bethe1toask #bethe1tolisten #bethe1tokeepthemsafe #bethe1tohelpthemconnect #bethe1tofollowup https://www.instagram.com/p/CXjEhP6rNBe/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Trauma and grief were a large part of my adolescent life. I spent my teenage years surviving many losses and learning to cope with the darkness that filled my developing mind. Everyone has a different sensitivity level to trauma. Trauma for me was haunting. I had flashbacks, I experienced unforgiving depressive episodes where even the colors of the world were muted tones that drifted passed me. I felt that life was calling for my participation and I wanted so badly to pause it like a movie and to buy time to choose to live. During that time, I was so broken, I felt that I was the definition of unloveable, marred, roadkill, and lacking and resemblance of beauty. Today, I reflect on those moments and I realize, the brokenness I survived was the most beautiful thing about me. It created the strong, kind, compassionate woman I am today. The friend, mother, daughter, niece, cousin, etc. that loves with healthy boundaries and a new understanding of myself that helps me to survive and thrive. . If today feels like the last day of your life, if today you want to give up so you don’t have to fight anymore. If today you are facing down the choice to give up or face the pain; I ask you to let the darkness out in writing, music, poetry, dance, painting, coloring, sports, sculpting. If you choose life for today, it is a moment for you to fight back, bringing you closer to yourself. You are beautiful no matter how broken, lost, or empty you feel. You are worthy, no matter how insignificant you feel. You are valuable, no matter how insufficient you feel. You are breathing, despite how dead you might feel inside. I would rather sit with you then any person who has never felt this way before, because you are more beautiful and precious to me than anything else in the world. You are the key to saving the lives that will end too early, please let these words be the force of your strength when you can’t see the light. 7 Cups is a free place to talk to someone anonymously, and free, the link is in my bio. You aren’t alone! https://www.instagram.com/p/CXgO2SWLOor/?utm_medium=tumblr

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An awesome Albert Einstein Quote to start off your work week. #Einsteinquotes

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Music is how I and so many others survive the day to day ups and downs in life. Got some new toys! This is one of them. New songs are coming in soon. I am pumped to share this album. Some of the lyrics I wrote when I was a teenager learning about how much love can hurt. Stay tuned... #music #musicislife #makingmusic #muscian #singersongwriter #singer #femalevocalist #newmusiciscoming #newmusicisontheway https://www.instagram.com/p/CVef-TusqkD/?utm_medium=tumblr