I spent the rest of the day making distractions. Cleaning the pantry, washing my clothes, organizing the shoe rack, mopping the floors, buying things I don’t need off of Amazon, watching mindless movies… going thru the junk mail even. And now I sit here after staying up so late, and your memory still caught me. Still found me in my one moment of relaxation. Still made me realize how much lighter and brighter to me the world felt, how much easier it was to laugh when you were rotating on the same earth with me and not flying amongst the stars.
Tomorrow will be two months without you…
I just wanted you to know, I don’t let many people fully know me… and you knew me. You were there making memories with me for the entirety of my life. And the number of memories I recall about my life will continue to grow as I make more of them, but they will all be missing a big aspect of my life… and I will always find myself missing you.
You were my peace. I felt secure, loved, seen, heard, valued, and understood when your presence was in the same room with me. Now I feel lost and broken knowing you’ve left this world… Simply put, I lost my peace when we all lost you. I think of this very often and I oh so wholeheartedly hope that thru this experience, you’ve been able to find yours. Love you so much friend, and I miss you with all that I have.















