the monotony the repetition

wash | 27 | they/them

[997]

karma got its kiss for me……. thats 2017 in one video

[itchycoil]

I’m trying to find this girls social media rn

[robxhelm]

[steamandcream]

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

[steamandcream]

sorry to put your tags on blast on this insane breach containment post I have since muted, but you're right and you should say it.

It is defeatable. Go for the throat.

[threedollarsdotcom]

gently and lovingly drags you over broken glass

[hjeojeo]

finished traditional hand-drawn stickers commission for @cyb0rgsunset !

[aphel1on]

"character doing a c+ job of breaking the cycle of abuse" is such a crunchy dynamic forever. what if i'm giving my all to give you a better life than i had and i'm succeeding but "better" just isn't quite enough. what if my blind spots and deeply ingrained trauma and inexperience mean that you will be indelibly scarred by me despite my best efforts. what if my abuser's influence still bleeds through at times because i know nothing else. what if i go so far in the opposite direction to avoid it that i hurt you in ways i couldn't have anticipated. what if my undeniable love and unforgivable shortcomings came part and parcel with each other. what if your love and gratitude and resentment and pain came part and parcel too. what if we both knew you deserved better but i was all you had. what if we had to move forward and reckon with that. what then

[akashicrecord]

I have an unhealthy relationship with most physical pleasures including food and having sex would you like to be best friends

[fairycosmos]

advice for people that are actually doomed for real

[lizlemondyke]

4 non blondes were right. I DO wake up in the morning and I step outside and I take a deep breath and I get real high and I scream from the top of my lungs what’s going on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[nosimpincurly]

You’re not depressed. You just need $250,000 in your bank account.

[catherinebunnington]

Reblog to materialize $250,000 in prev's bank account

[libertineangel]

Incredibly stupid facet of human biology that stress can weaken the immune system and exacerbate illness, like "oh things are going badly, let's make more things worse too"

[dovegraveyard]

Cheers 🥂

[fatartappreciation]

Nova (2021) by phenomenal Canadian artist Nicole Sleeth … nicolesleeth.com/

[fatartappreciation]

With @fatartappreciation’s first anniversary coming up this month, I thought I’d start sharing some of your more popular choices over the course of the year — hope you don’t mind seeing them again during this February!

[makesomenoise]

How Jacob Wysocki accidentally created the internet’s favorite affirmation

YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY

YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY

[dropoutdottv]

jacob how poetic

[achillesinhighheels]

choosing to ignore my weirdly symbolic dream because i have a lot going on rn already

[ishowdespair-deactivated2026012]

[stupit]

yall rly came out SWINGING...

[notwellbitch]

[throathole]

I need to go rub one out. *goes to my secret chamber where the walls are covered in tally marks and I erase one mark* *it is unclear what happens when they run out*