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tulip 🌷🌙 | they/them | nonbinary queer dhampir

[nonbinaryalucard]

figure i should have a pinned post, so- hey there, i’m tulip.

known tulip facts:

i’m nonbinary

neurodivergent

famous for being an Alucard Liker. i don’t really care about netflixvania, though. but i have played SotN 40+ times. it’s normal to do this

my art blog is @platinumtulip​

my special interests include: castlevania, late 90s/early 00s computers/tech, among other things

please don’t follow me if you’re a minor. no hard feelings, i just feel more comfortable around adults.

[nonbinaryalucard]

every time i have opened my tumblr dash in the past month or two, i have either gotten dizzy from sheer stress, or i've had to wade through takes that are by people who are neck-deep in circles of overly specific discourse. i don't want to use this site anymore. bye

[sylvies-kablooie]

i do unironically think the best artists of our generation are posting to get 20 notes and 3 reblogs btw. that fanfic with like 45 kudos is some of the best stuff ever written. those OCs you carry around have some of the richest backstories and worldbuilding someone has ever seen. please do not think that reaching only a few people when you post means your art isn't worth celebrating.

[doodlemancy]

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuughhhhhhhhhh

so here's the deal re: this fucking horseshit.

i, personally, have mostly given up on trying to dodge inclusion in AI datasets. the stuff i make generally isn't what they're looking for anyway and there's no real way to 100% avoid being scraped short of becoming entirely invisible online, which would um, lead to me having no money and dying. that's part of the cruelty of all this, but also, in a way, it's the same risk artists online have always taken; if you want people to see your work, you have to post it knowing that some of those people are fucking lowlife piece of shit scumbags who will try to resell it on redbubble or something for a quick buck. AI is just a new and exhausting way for garbagey people to stink worse. i am not in any way excusing that behavior or trying to imply people should not be mad about it or that we shouldn't condemn this move and fight back. "if you don't want your work stolen, don't put it online" is the kind of shitty Internet Tough Guy talk i've always hated since my dA days. it's as useless and heartless as telling people that if they don't want their bikes stolen, they shouldn't leave them at the bike rack. i'm saying that i, personally, will not let a bunch of soulless thieving shitheads drive me offline. i belong here. they belong in a wifi-proof dumpster.

nightshade and glaze eat my artwork alive. they make it look terrible. when you have to sell things on the basis that they look nice, it's a big problem when protective measures make them look like dogshit. my work is not a good candidate for these processes. even if that weren't the case, i don't have the stamina, especially right now while my chronic pain is flaring for the third month in a row and my adhd meds are scarce, to go back and shade/glaze everything, and it wouldn't work on reblogs anyway. given the way midjourney and its equally stinky siblings have already scraped years and terabytes' worth of image data from popular websites, it doesn't seem worth my time.

i think some of the doomsaying about AI and what it will do to us has been overblown-- they need you, for marketing purposes, to believe that someday their shitty robot will be as good at "drawing" and as practical to work with as a human-- but the consequences of "AI" (which is not even actually AI) are already real and visible and obvious to anyone paying attention. i unfortunately am not infinitely wise and powerful and therefore do not have an ideal all-encompassing solution to this deeply stupid problem that the Most Unlikeable Manbabies On Earth have imposed on us after NFTs fizzled out.

what i do have is a very large repository of nice anime and game screenshots i've taken, knowledge of many archives of nice public domain images, a computer that can run nightshade overnight or while i'm off doing other things, and, most importantly, near-infinite capacity for pettiness. i do kinda feel like the jury is still out on how well nightshade/glaze will work in the long run, but in the meantime, i suppose it wouldn't cost me a lot to... perhaps... every time i get Mad About AI™, channel that anger into dumping some thoroughly-but-not-spammily-tagged, high-quality, inconspicuous poison onto this godforsaken hellsite via a secret side blog. i could make a batch of poison ahead of time, keep it on my phone, use my Toilet Scrolling Time or my Public Transit Time to post and tag up an image here and there. it could be a fun challenge to try to make some pretty robot poison that some humans will still enjoy.

the other thing we need to poison at this point, IMO, is the word "AI" itself, by being loudly and mercilessly critical of any company that dabbles in it, the same way we all clowned on any company that pushed their luck with NFT/crypto shit a couple of years ago. we need to have every corporation terrified that association with AI will tank their sales and hurt their brand. AI must = number go down and lots of people screaming at you. companies will fuck around. we must provide the finding-out. we shouldn't have to. but we can!

so make sure to let tumblr know you hate this. maybe you could include this interesting link (tw child abuse) about how Stable Diffusion was trained on some extremely serious crime. or these screenshots of Midjourney devs just sort of admitting what their whole thing is, which i got here but which have kinda been spread all over since January.

spite and anger can be forms of hope. that's all i have to say, or at least all i'm willing to type with my left hand tonight.

[platinumtulip]

for obvious reasons: i have a cohost account that i have been posting to and active on for nearly 2 years now. if you're considering giving cohost a shot, feel free to follow me there. i post a lot about toying with weird computers and my art is also there

[weeklyinternetarchive]

The Art of Computer Designing

- a book by Osamu Sato published in 1993 - The computer is a magic box. Many graphic images are hidden inside it. […] This is an everyday guide to computer illustrating, a collection of design ideas and a compendium of Mr. Sato’s own computer art works. […] Just looking at the myriad manifestations of form is a joy, but for those who will use it to begin creating their own shapes this book offers far, far greater pleasure.

[fruitgushers]

a dead scene kid is trying to contact me through captcha

[snepdotgay]

be gay do crimes is queer live laugh love. i will not be answering questions

[btc-official-deactivated2024071]

[mitchipedia]

[chaussurre]

Maybe there wouldn't be as many issues with the crystal maze if GUMBIES POSTED DOCUMENTATION. HOW THE FUCK DO YOU WORK YEARS ON A STABLE GUMBIES CLIENT SPIDER API AND NOT WRITE A LINE OF DOCUMENTATION DO YOU WANT PEOPLE TO NOT USE YOUR SOFTWARE???

[jv]

Oh and WHY THE FUCK THE OFFICIALLY RECOMMENDED NPM PACKAGE FOR GUMBIES HAVE BEEN IN VERSION 0.1.1 FOR SEVEN YEARS AND SEEMS TO BE DEVELOPED BY "powerwolf112", who hasn't answered a single message in GitHub since 2021????

For all the bells in hell, there are massive websites that are using this amateur crap to defrumbulate their typescript decorators!

[akumajoudraculax68000]

Visit Original Link

[fantahsii]

Alejandra Bogue por Joel-Peter Witkin

[cursmudgeon]

Same model, same photographer, 26 years later.

[emotionalwords]

i’m such a “i want your attention” but “won’t bother you” kinda person

[virtualgirladvance]

Got that vampire autism where you gotta invite me in every time

[murolo-moved]

the secret boots are the best item in any castlevania game like come on

if you can’t kill your dad in 6 inch heels what’s the point

[murolo-moved]

dracula: well met, my son. it has been a long time

alucard: not long enough. i can’t allow you to leave here

dracula: do you still side with humani—

alucard:

dracula: are you wearing the...

alucard: the secret boots? yeah. i am.

[aliiiiiiice]

[cutthroatchorus]

There is exactly one spot in the castle (well two, because reverse castle) where if you stand there and equip the secret boots, Alucard will say "WHAT???" and get stuck because he's now too tall to move through it.

[cpunkhobie]

"disability only exists because the world isnt accessible" idk how to tell you this but chronic pain still hurts

[cpunkhobie]

i like the sentiment and i think its true in many ways, but people with mobility issues will still have mobility issues in an accommodating world, people with sensory disabilities will still have those disabilities in an accommodating world. and thats not including neurodiversity where two people with the exact same disorder will have very different experiences with them. like there's not a world where someone with agoraphobia wont be scared to leave the house just cause outside is more accessible

i dont think it accounts for the wide range of disability experience and caters more to low-support needs people. i think life would be so much easier if being disabled was less stigmatized, but disability wont just go away once it is

[cpunkhobie]

you can't autism proof a bright summer day, but you can normalize stimming and using sensory aids in public

[wizardhecker]

You know those Line Clown emojis? But thistle

Original emojis under cut

[prokopetz]

You know, historically, one of the big reasons that centralised social media was able to eclipse self-hosted forums so readily is that people wanted to get away from the constant Damoclean peril of the local boy-king flipping his shit and going on a banning spree every time someone mildly criticised him. When folks wax nostalgic for Web 1.0, I'm reasonably certain this isn't what they mean!