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[northnodal]

something about the scene in haunting of hill house when theo said “should we talk about your day or would you rather come to bed?” and that scene in euphoria when nate said “you can fuckin leave or you can get into bed it’s up to you”

[northnodal]

i’m really seeing my growth in terms of not feeling the need to be “the best” or “superior” in order to have value. i used to really latch onto anything that could prove my superiority—from my looks to my resilience to my intelligence. my sense of self was constantly changing and ungrounded because i was trying to morph into whatever seemed most appealing in the moment. now, my value is from within. i can recognize others’ value without questioning my own. i’ve carried myself with love for so long that i feel safe and secure in my own presence; i truly wouldn’t want to be anyone else.

[northnodal]

a poem about hoping a person gets everything they wish for overnight because you know they don’t have the discipline and mental strength to handle it and they’ll lose it just as quickly and have to come face to face with their own part in their suffering

[luckydiorxoxo]

Sabrina Carpenter arrives at "Saturday Night Live" in New York City in Miu Miu

[northnodal]

i had a revelation that i’ve been trying to protect myself from heartbreak by 1. approaching relationships with cold logic and 2. distancing myself from “passionate” romantic feelings. overall, i’ve been subconsciously keeping my guard up.

i realized that there’s always a risk when dating, but that shouldn’t stop me from leaning into intimacy. i’m more mature now; i possess discernment and self-respect. that’s the best i can do for myself in a relationship—the rest is out of my control.

loving is scary, but it’s better than never loving at all.

and so i am opening myself up.

[miseducatedmelanicmuse]

[theambitiouswoman]

Look for respect rather than admiration. Yes, we all like to be admired, but by the right people and the right reason. Looking to seek admiration specifically from others as a means to feel fulfilled or validated is an indication that something is lacking within you.

[rai-r]

[disc80s]

[thedeathdeelers]

i think after years and decades and centuries of making deals with desperate and sometimes malicious humans, guwon’s view of humankind started shifting towards the negative.

he sees them as these selfish, greedy, self-obsessed beings, who think they can cheat their way out of life. out of death. out of anything if they could just make a deal with the devil — for whatever price.

and then he meets dohee. he’s forced to be with her, forced to start feeling these human emotions; a weakness.

and he struggles with them

but i think the last thing he ever expected, was to have a human, one of those selfish greedy beings, willingly give up on their dream, something he assumes is worth making a deal with the devil for, for him.

to save him.

to keep him safe; alive.

and it’s just. a lot. it never even crossed his mind — the way he reacted when seokhoon finally shouted it at him. it was the last thing he ever expected to hear — heck it wasn’t even a viable option in his mind

and yet that’s exactly what happened. a human, one those creatures whose greediness and selfishness he’s spent over two centuries exploiting, gave something up — for him.

[northnodal]

hey love, i want to ask for advice since you seem to have knowledge about approaching relationships. i found out that a guy i’m into is seeing someone else. we’re friends and he doesn’t know i feel this way, but i still feel a little down about it. it’s not that i feel bad about myself or anything. i guess i kind of want intimacy and feel like i might be missing out on that. how do you think i should cope or reframe this?

hi love. first, i’m grateful that you’re capable of stepping back and articulating your feelings with full vulnerability. i’m proud of you. second, it’s completely normal to feel down when you see someone you’re attracted to with someone else. it’s so human. your security in yourself, your standards in relationships, and your sadness can all coexist. it’s human to crave connection. observe, hold, and cherish that feeling. you can’t necessarily change the cards that have been dealt, but you can choose to give yourself gentleness and keep your heart open. nourish yourself with rest, nutrients, quality solitude time, quality friend time. know that staying patient and true to your standards will pay off some day. there is no rush, love. you’re not missing out on anything that’s for you. things of quality cannot be created with haste. for now, bask in the soft love all around you and know that it will always stay.

[northnodal]

i read a perspective on feminism that said it’s not necessarily about putting women in traditionally masculine roles, but rather giving respect and value to traditionally feminine roles. i think that’s beautiful. so maybe women do not need to become cold stoic CEO’s to be worthy of respect (though they still would be). maybe our care, vulnerability, intimacy, and emotion are just as valuable.

[northnodal]

my current life quality is really so beautiful. the space i frequent, my cleansing rituals, the quality of the items i have, the quality of the relationships i maintain. perfect for me

[northnodal]

love is shown over time through action. true care and consideration cannot be faked. flattery won’t cut it.

[raqhaelia-deactivated20241212]

this changed it all

[classycookiexo]

THIS

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