Embarrassing personal anecdote that I apparently won't get over until I get it off my chest below the cut:
So yesterday I was tooling around horny-tgtf-fetish-rp-reddit yesterday, seeing if anyone could help me pretend to not hate my body for a few hours, and I found someone who seemed to be a similar wavelength: namely, they said they cared more about the experience of being, and being seen as something different, of living that new role (in this case she wanted to be turned into an animal or inanimate object, with an outright emphasis on loss and lesser-ness) more than actual sex scenes. To top it off, she was a trans woman in her thirties. Clearly we would have things to talk about!
Now I'm too much of shut-in to know if the 'dom shortage' is a real thing or a meme, but on subreddits like this it's definitely a thing. Everyone wants to be tf'ed, no one wants to do the tf'ing, so there are so many posts looking for a dom or a GM/narrator who will do all the acting while they do the reacting. Like most social tragedy-of-the-commons problem, this makes sense on an individual level--of course it's more fun to have someone cater to your whims without having to cater to theirs, but without some give-back, you're left with a male-vs-female-experience-on-dating-apps situation: the supply-demand imbalance just leaves everyone embittered and paranoid, after a while not even responding to genuine interest.
For the record, I did look at her wills-and-wont's list first, because there's a positive correlation between an RP partner who has very specific likes and dislikes and one who's willing to be creative and put in some effort, ime. And while there were a few things that were a bit red-flag, a bit "oh, so you're THAT kind of 'ethical kinkster'" ('don't message me if you're under 24', 'I won't RP with anyone who doesn't hate Trump as much as I do') but there was also a lot of "I normally don't like this, but I'm willing to hear you out" and "It depends on how it's framed or used in the RP" for this or that fetish, and one very explicitly stated "even though I'm queer IRL I don't mind playing out traditional gender roles as long as there's a bit of ironic remove" (I'm paraphrasing as best I can remember; I blocked her and I don't care enough to log out and go snooping around for her page again). So I was under the impression that she was, in principle, willing to compromise and do some give-and-take.
So I made my pitch; I turn you into my car, you turn me into a sexy woman. Perhaps it was ill-advised to phrase it as "I'll absorb your femininity to turn you into an object", but again, I was on the transformation fetish roleplay subreddit, talking to someone who explicitly wanted an RP where they surrendered their humanity. I don't think I'm faultless here, but I think at most I'm like 20% at fault. Because she then flipped out on me, yelling at me for being so selfish and trying to make it all about me, including "as soon as you said you were a newly-out transwoman I knew this was coming, like 90% of you only care about getting your rocks off and don't care about other people", which, I don't know how you could say that as a trans woman to another one (yes, I've accepted that's what I am now; doesn't mean I'm happy about it) unless you really wanted to hurt them. I tried to brush it off like "OK, I asked and you said no, no one's in the wrong, let's just move on" and she just kept coming at me with the how-dare-you and you're-so-selfish and I eventually said that if you're this much of an asshole over an honest misunderstanding, then RPing with you would likely suck shit anyway, and blocked her.
So yeah, not happy about it, like I said. Weirdly enough, before it all went down I had been musing on this post and how to give a take on it without it seeming out of pocket. Because I never had that relationship with my parents, and I know I'm lucky for that. But you know who I've had that relationship with forever? Online progressives and leftists. "hides passion because they were insulted for it" yes in fact I've been part of conversations about Problematic Media and Harmful Tropes, thanks for the memories. I am not the first left-of-center person to wonder why leftist assholes viscerally piss me off more than rightist assholes, given that the latter are more destructive to my values and, at the moment, more powerful. The words I keep coming back to are sliminess, hypocrisy, hollowness. When I see a social media profile festooned with all the progressive trappings, it is a reliable signal to trust that person less, to never actually be honest with them, because all friendships with them are conditional, the worst possible interpretation will always be the default, and all honesty is something that can be used against you in the inevitable schism.
If some drive-by conservative was somehow party to this conversation and said ""go to hell you fucking perverts" before dipping out, I'd already get over that. That guy and I don't have anything to say to each other under any circumstances. But no, we can't just be two kinksters who didn't vibe, she has to let me know, at length, what a terrible person I am, and how much of that is explicitly because of my identity, an identity that I am just barely beginning to be comfortable saying in my own head. The whole "if you were a good person we wouldn't need to have this conversation" act. Maybe I just expect less from other people, maybe I just don't interact with the worst of them.
I know the healthy thing to do is just realize that I interacted with one of many millions of extremely-online misanthropic, probably mentally-unwell assholes with impossible standards of behavior and move on, but clearly it happened at a bad time. Part of it is feeling if I keep going the direction I'm going, I turn into her eventually: lashing out at the world for not immediately and unquestioningly perceiving me the way I wish I was perceived.