gone are the days, when I used to roam,
Gone are the times when I would miss my home,
Gone are the days, when I walked the cul-de-sac,
And I wonder now, If I could ever go back,
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See there were simpler times,
every day a treasure that would always be mine,
I couldn't fathom how things could never be fine,
it was a perfect small world, everything was in line,
then it changed, I lost my pops in the blink of an eye,
Even though I lived, I keep asking myself why?
Asking anyone who would listen, listen to me cry,
why I had to live the tragedy of being alive,
I was a 15 something kid who didn't understand the world,
and I had to weather every storm, brave every cold,
it's crazy how the cards that were dealt would unfold,
15 something kid shouldering the weight of the world,
moms never could see past the crumbling heap,
that her son had become, she couldn't see scars that were deep,
all she saw was a kid rebelling, not the silent weeps,
nor could she see the nightmares of my sleep,
I was alone and lost in a world that made no sense,
like anyone in my position I lived under false pretense,
laughter and smiles masked the pain so intense,
I walked through fire, to seem brave at my sanity's expense,
Gone are the days, when I used to roam,
Gone are the times, when I would miss my home,
Gone are the days, when I walked the cul-de-sac,
And I wonder now, if I could ever go back,
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You ask me if I'm crazy? Maybe,
eager to label me as somebody who's lazy,
most days making out of the bed is a victory,
thinking that the life I lived once is history,
been changing more times than the seasons,
everyday I have to find new reasons,
to walk this earth, I think I'm a heathen,
most days it's a win to breathe out and to breathe in,
Trying to hold on to what's left of me,
Even though I can't recognize, what I've grown to be,
things that I did, just trying to break free,
my life is an elaborate disguise of make believe,
Gone are the days, when I used to roam,
Gone are the times, when I would miss my home,
Gone are the days, when I walked the cul-de-sac,
And I wonder now, If i could ever go back